Well I'm pretty excited to say I'm at the 3 week mark, but I think it'll be more exciting when I get to the 4 week mark, purely because I much prefer even numbers over odd numbers - Yes I am weird.
Hello to all my lovely ladies! firstly I need to apologise for the delay in responding to the thoughtful, insightful, caring and lovely comments I am so blessed to receive from you - my account seems to be drunk - it's not showing all my notifications, then my updates page is showing profiles that I don't follow and the picture updates don't apply to the user name above it. So I've been missing quite a few comments and I don't like the thought of anyone's comments opinions or experiences they so kindly, bravely and considerately share with me being ignored or discredited. I'm going to go through my profile after this post to check I haven't missed too many comments!
Hopefully my account lays off the vodka in the future...
Secondly, healing is going well, I have been feeling much less stiff in the mornings which has been a huge win. I still find it difficult to reach too far above my head and certain movements give me slight discomfort - but overall - all is going well. Side profile (as you'll see from pics) they are still sitting pretty high and will drop in their own time, from the front - I can see they are starting to drop and appear more natural. Time of the month is playing a part in me feeling a little bla, bloated, energy levels a little low, but all part of the course of being a woman right! =)
Sorry if this is too much info or gross for some of you to read - but it may be helpful to others - the scabs on my incisions are starting to come off, I can still see the dissolvable stitches, scabs and glue in some ares, but there are a couple of little parts where the stitches, scab and glue has come off so I can see just a clean scar and I'm happy with what I can see, they don't appear to be bumpy, or too overly red.
I am applying bio oil two times a day and cicalfate cream (avene brand) which is scar repair cream recommended by my PS at the evenings. I am keeping up with my fluids, trying to keep active where possible in the way of very light intensity walks when my disc pain in back isn't too severe, fuelling my body with the food it needs and trying to get as much sleep as I can although I must admit - I am not getting in enough sleep (feel free to scold me on this one ladies! i know I need to be better with sleep!) I can't wait until I can get back to sleeping on my side. I start my day each day with my berocca and magnesium efferverscent tablets, I love the vitamin C and magnesium for many reasons - but I particularly find it really helpful in aiding bowel movements, i also have a tablespoon of chlorophyll in a glass of water for it's alkalising benefits and also aiding in digestion. My digestive system has never been happier, I was so proud of it for being regular every day after surgery and other than a bloat, it has been wonderful (celebrate each and every little win!). I also take a multi vitamin, D-Mannose vitamin (an awesome TESTED supplement for preventing UTI's which I use to get regularly), Curcumin vitamin (another awesome TESTED vitamin which assists with cellular health and joint pain. I don't believe in taking a whole heap of vitamins and supplements just for the heck of it. I spend a lot of time researching supplements based on scientific tested articles or reviews to ensure that it has some backing via evidence to support the claims. The market is so flooded with gimmicks and outrageous claims - I think it's wise to make educated choices with what we choose to put in our bodies in the way of vitamins/supplements. I was taking bromelain and traumeel post surgery recommended by my PS to assist with the bruising - and i'm not sure whether it was just my body or whether the supplements helped but I really did have minimal bruising.
The scabs, stitches and glue are taking their time to fall off, but I'm also aware that I haven't been really rubbing/scrubbing them too much in the shower out of fear of scrubbing them off before they are ready,
I'm not jumping the gun nor am i stressing over my incisions, just as I've believe throughout this whole process, I believe our bodies are at the most advantage when we are kind to them, when we choose comforting, loving and patient thoughts, when we replace over-analysing or stressing with being patience. Of course along the way we are going to have hiccups, some days we are going to want to sit in front of the mirror and pick ourselves/our breasts apart - and that is okay! as long as we pick ourselves back up, shake ourselves off, acknowledge it for what it was (being human), check in with some healthier coping mechanisms (i.e. instead of negatively analysing ourselves - picking out the strengths, positives and other beauty we encompass) and moving forward. I know at times I can be too hard on myself, I know that I have my moments where I resort to habits that I know aren't conducive to being kind to myself, then I judge myself for having thoughts that aren't helpful, but what do we get from judging ourselves? guilt? we may feel like a failure, we may feel like we are stupid? essentially there is nothing good to come from judging ourselves or negatively labelling ourselves.
Acknowledging where we have responded in a way that may not have been helpful is VERY different to labelling. Acknoledging where we want to be better is a sign that we recognise we are not quite where want to be in our journey, and that is okay, it is also acknowledging where we can change a thought or action and that we can always continue to grow and learn.
Acknowledging areas we want to improve on is a great thing, being kind to ourselves whilst we work on those areas is even greater. Leave the judgements for court and instead replace it with kindness, compassion and love for ourselves.
Today I'm choosing to be kind when I have a thought that may be unhealthy. Today I am choosing to look in the mirror and thank my body for all of it's healing, not judging whether it is healing "too slow" or "not enough", today I am going to avoid any self limiting beliefs that I may have from picked up from past experiences in my life whether that be through the recent years or childhood and today I'm going to give my boobies a extra big grope and thank them for looking their age again (31 instead of 80!)
I know I sound like a broken record - but I can't seem to stop expressing my gratitude to all the support I have on here, as I said in previous post, only my best friend who lives in a different country and time zone knows of my operation (and my partner) so It has been overwhelmingly comforting to have your friendship and words of encouragement whilst I navigate my way through this recovery process.
Thank you so so much!!!
Love to all and love to all your new (or soon to be new) boobies!
Photos attached of week 3, excuse all the cream and oil all over the scars, the cicalfate creme really sticks! They still have some dropping to do, little by little they will get there and in the meantime I will focus on putting all my energy into healing and letting them do their thing in their own time x
Today let's all choose to be kind to ourselves. To pick one little thing to do that shows love and compassion to ourselves. Whether that be To look in the mirror and say one good thing about ourselves. Perhaps it is acknowledging a little win from the day. Perhaps it is even thanking our body for our it is healing. Even if consciously we may not completely believe what we are telling ourselves it. I guarantee that if we formed these habits regularly day by day, started replacing the negative self talk with positive talk then we will consciously start to love ourselves for everything we are, all the bumps, all the beauty, all the flaws, all our little quirky habits and behaviours that make us uniquely US!
Our minds are the most powerful creatures when we choose to believe in the power of our thoughts and how those thoughts we have shape our everything, our behaviours, our perceptions, our reality.
It's not hard to tell by my username that I love exercise and invest time into physical exercise, but mental exercise - working on our thoughts is just as important (at times perhaps even if MORE important) than working on our physical body/health.