31y Mum of 2! 130lbs 5'5'' 32c (Doesn't Fill Cup) - Manchester, GB

So I have been contemplating this op since I was 18! In fact I did see a consultant at the Harley Medical Group (Man) when I was 21, I decided at that point that it wasn't the right time for me. But now I have had 2 children and am the fitest I have ever been, my boobs aren't quiet up to scratch and often leave me feeling 'manly' and 'unattractive'. My husband has always 'seemed' against me having them done and always reassuring me that he likes them the way they are. However after having my 2nd child I had had enough and starting looking into it again.

I started by going to see The Harley Medical Group again because they were soooo useful last time. However this time I only got to see a nurse, not a consultant, but I wasn't told that I could have seen a consultant for my first appointment if I paid a fee. I would have been keen to do this because I knew I wanted the op, I didn't find the nurses appointment helpful at all. The building is wonderful however and is full equipped for cosmetic treatment appointments, however I was disappointed to here that this was not where my op would be done. I would have to travel to Preston hospital for the op, which slightly put me off! I presumed we would be in a private clinic not a main hospital.

This is when I came across Beaumont Hospital in Bolton (literally minutes down the road). So it ticked the box that it was close to home, I know people who have had operations there before (not cosmetic). You have to pay an initial consultation fee of £150 approx to see a consultant, when I got there I felt like it wasn't as 'made up' for cosmetic surgery, for example the consultant had all the silicon sizes in a old fashioned box instead of nearly presented like they were at Harley. However the more I spoke to my consultant (Mr Irfan Khan) all my concerns were knocked on the head. He explained everything I detail, I wasn't rushed, he helped me work out sizes and told me to come back 2 weeks later for a follow up (free appointment) where I could bring my husband. He makes all his clients take a 2 week period afte the initial appointment before he will book the surgery in. He wants to make sure that you are completely happy with the procedure and you don't get carried away with the excitement. This made me feel I could trust him, so when I saw him at my next appointment I booked him.

When choosing sizes I originally went for 320/345cc (one side is bigger than the other), however once I found out I could go a little bigger and my husband confirmed that it didn't look 'too' big I went for 385/415.

Oh and I'm also going for Overs which I have been a little worried about, by Dr Khan has reassured me that I have enough breast tissue to cover the implant and my recovery will be much faster.

Will update in a week once the nerves start kicking in and I'll post before pics too. Any words of encouragement from anyone who's been through it or about to under go a BA?

So here's some befores in a vest top that I wear for bed. I will do proper before and after a but will post those after the op.

Oh gosh, I've woken up today really worried that I am doing the right thing. I'm looking at my little boobs thinking 'they're not actually that bad'! WHAT! Why have I hated them for 12+ years and now I'm finally doing something about it I'm getting scared?

I'm hoping this is just a normal phase and it's more about the anxiety about the procedure, the after care and fear of adjustment once I get my new boobs.

Has anyone else had this fear before the op? I have 6 days to go ????????????????