25 year old; 300/350 silicone under the muscle

I've been unsatisfied with my shape since I rapidly lost 30 lbs during college, and finally found a surgeon who will make me love my body again! On top of the weight loss, I also have asymmetry. My lefty could probably fit in a B cup and my righty barely fills an A cup. I am going for the natural look with mod plus. I will probably end up going with 300/325. I initially only wanted a B cup- but I have now decided on a small or full C. The thought of a D scares the [RS bleep] out of me! I have been told my asymmetry is partially due to a condition called "thoracic hypoplasia" which basically means my rib cage is under-developed, mostly on the right side.

I had a consultation with Dr. Michael Horn in Chicago in March. I found him via the internet and liked his before & after photos the most out of everyone I had researched. The office was modern and clean and the staff was friendly, however I felt no connection with Dr. Horn. He appeared to have no interest or passion in his work. I did use the Vectra 3D imaging which was kind of cool, but his lack of bedside manner really didn't appeal to me. Then later in July, I heard of Dr. Christopher Pelletiere through a friend and looked at his work. I was really impressed with how natural his work looks so I scheduled an appointment with him. The office scared me. It's old, almost Victorian style and really, really outdated. But as soon as I met Dr. Christopher Pelletiere, all my fears dissipated. He has amazing bedside manner and he answered all my questions before I even asked! His office uses twilight sedation and local anesthesia instead of general anesthesia, which slightly concerned me at first because I was put completely out for a colonoscopy which is MUCH less invasive and involves no cutting or suturing! However I am a nurse and administer twilight sedation frequently in my area of work and no one ever remembers anything :). Plus there is no tube down my throat, no dependence on a ventilator, less nausea/vomiting post-op, less post-op complications including blood clots. So I'm all for it! Plus I had read online that the "new thing" in NYC breast augmentations is to use ONLY local anesthesia (numbing medication injected into the breast) so the patient can be FULLY awake and choose their size in the operating room. The local anesthesia also lasts for several hours so there is less pain post op....however I can't really speak to how true that is until the big day is here.

Stats:
Age: 25
Children: None yet :)
Weight: 118. Never changes.
Height: 5'6"
Surgery date: 9/22/14!!

Did anyone else feel super panicky 1 week before surgery? I've come close to a panic attack before bed for the past couple nights. I'm not even sure what I'm worried about because I'm not ACTIVELY thinking about it... I keep having a slight identity crisis. Is this really "me"?? I'm so afraid I will think negatively of myself after instead of feeling better about myself :(

I'm over my panic/ freak out stage. I've wanted this for a while and there's no turning back now. I have my pre-op appointment to confirm size, etc. I also went to walmart today to buy some bras which was pretty exciting! And I decided I'll cave and post a pre-op pic just because it has really been helpful to me to see others pics so hopefully I'll be helpful to someone too. And by uploading it I can delete it off my phone because I've been paranoid it'll accidentally send to someone or post to social media! Haha