Pre Op Appointment - Barrie, ON

3 more sleeps!! I have wanted a breast reduction since I was 18. I am 52 5ft 8 inches and overweight. I am fit, as I have had a personal trainer for the past 2 years. I have no physical ailments, but my BMI is over 40. My issues with my breasts are mostly self esteem related, however I do have a itchy rash under both breasts. I do have shoulder and neck pain, but it's unclear if that is breast related or stress related.....time will tell!! I am terrified to be "put under" ! Basically I'm gonna meet someone and allow them to put me in a coma and bring me out of it....YIKES!! I have been on Lorazapam for the past week, just to ensure I don't bail and give my head a rest from all the negative thoughts. It's that moment when your fighting to stay awake, just before you surrender that I don't like....Ugh. I am not afraid of recovery, throwing up, busted open wounds....none of it....just being put to sleep. I can't even imagine the 50 Km drive to the hospital on Thursday morning!! If I don't go through with it I will never be approved by OHIP again, my daughter in law, who's a nurse, has taken part of her shift off to care for me the first night, and I will never loose this weight without a self esteem boost. Your encouragement is welcomed :)