Fraxel Has Been A Real Big Mistake - Bangkok, TH

I'm a 24 years old french and I've been travelling and working under the sun a bit to much in australia and new zealand without putting enough sun block. That was my first mistake because after a few months a could see my skin getting wrinkles, larges pores, brown stop... I tried all the product I could and differents things but nothing worked and I kept on feeling really bad about myself. It took me months of research to make sure I was doing the right thing. I've seen a few horror stories but even in google.fr it seems like fraxel is really safe and on realself they say that there is some really rare cases of scaring and fat loss is not something that may happen. Anyway after 6 month of indecision I went to get a fraxel restore traitment in a clinic that I choose meticulously, it is in bangkok but she studied laser, and dermatologist in the state and it's a realy good clinic. The traitment was extremely painfull, but the rest of the healing process seemed to go well, the only thing, the little pine holes weren't going away and after a few weeks I could see some fat loss in my right ckeek, then in both, and now after 2 month the tiny holes are getting bigger, the texture as change and the fat loss is more and more obvious.
I don't how I'm gonna forgive myself for that, I was already feeling bad before but now it's terrible, I thought that I was being carefull. Now what I am suppose to do, fillers or fat transfer in cheeks?! I'm a really naturel person and I wanted to live my life normally without having to deal with all that, and It's just the beggining of my life!
I went to the clinic that denied everything, and when you look up on realself the reviews of person that I've had the same problem and ask what should they do, there is almost no doctors to answer, those ones would keep on saying that there was never any problem with the fraxel.
I'm feeling really depressed and I'm sad to be writing this review, I screwed it up.