After 16 years and 4 surgeries later i removed my Breast Implants and now they're back again !

Hello girls !!

I am a 36 years old mother of 4 children and 16 years ago i went for my first breast augmentation because i was almost flat chested and my ex-boyfriend gave me that surgery as present so i thought ,why not ?
After that time i did realize that my breast felt much harder than the silicone breast of my friends but i never thought about capsular contracture or had not even an idea about that because at that time there was no internet like now what makes it so much easier to find out about everything .Also my the surgeon made my scar too wide almost 10 cm.
At 22 i became pregnant from my first child and at 24 from my second child ,after each time i quit with lactating i noticed that my breast even became much harder than they're ever felt before ..
I went to the plastic surgeon in Holland where they did removed my breast implant with reimplant new ones (teardrop 265cc) because of the capsular contracture . The surgeon told me better not to get pregnant again to avoid the change on CC ..
After 2 months i became pregnant again and again while my breast where never soft after i quit with lactating (after 2,5 years ) they became hard again like before ..
In the meanwhile i moved to Indonesia where was afraid to do the surgery over there ,so i gave it some some and i became pregnant again ..
After 2 years i quit with breast feeding and of course again CC (with Silimed the polyurethane with 1% change on CC)..the strange thing was while i was pregnant my breast became extremely soft i did not even felt the the implants but after the breastfeeding i had so much pain each time when i lied on my back that i needed to get rid of these implants so soon as possible ..
I felt not safe to do the surgery in Indonesia so i went for the first time back to NL to do the surgery ..The surgeon made a lot of mistakes inside my body and within 10 days PO one of my implants (teardrop) did rotated ..The surgeon was on holiday and the time he came back i was already back in Indonesia ..
I had so much stress the last 6 months that i decided to remove my breast implants here in Indonesia..
Because of removing the implants and CC so many times there was nothing left of my breast tissue .

Hi girls !

i am now almost 4 weeks after po and since the swelling went down my breast looks each day more awful and with more wrinkles in my skin , i hate the shape difference between both breast and the inverted nipple ..
I think from feeling strong in the beginning i start kinda feeling depressed right now (poor husband and children)..
Last weeks it cost me at least 1 day to find a bikini but still look like a boy with it and on 1 side of my chest wall i can see a hole under my bikini top my skin on my chest is not even flat on that side ..
All my pretty dresses doesn't fit anymore, i really don't know what to wear next week , it hurts me too see woman with nice breast and sexy decollete and deep inside i can't stand them but i know it's just jealousy..
My left arm can't lift more than 2 kilo because after the surgery my arm muscle was shaking all the time and now all my power is gone (only with bicep curl movements) now i can only lift my child with my right arm ..
If i put my hand on my right breast it feels like my hand disappears in my chest wall i can clearly feel my ribs but no breast tissue at all except loose skin..
Iam sorry for all my complain but at this moment i can't see anything positive behind my tears ..
The only thing that helps me to awakes me of my depressed feelings are the thoughts of very ill/sick people ,for example people who have cancer and going to die or people who live in so much pain each day ,thinking about that does me realize that i have nothing to complain at all because me and my family are still healthy right now thanks to God , and that's the most important thing that really count .. -x-

The first day of my menstruation i also started with intake breast enlargement capsules ; Fenugreek capsules and from Thailand Pueraria Mirifica with a mix from kelp,blessed thistle and dong quai (need to take the PM capsules the first 15 days after menstruation and than wait with intake till the next cyclus)..After a couple of weeks/months i will tell you more about the outcoming result ..I already read that by the woman who is flat chested it will take a longer time to see any difference ..don't worry I keep my patience till then ..

still the same at 10 weeks po, no fluff at all..

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I am so happy to have breast augmentation again, i feel like a real woman now ,i was really depressed for month's after how i did look when having my implants removed because there was no tissue left at all ..

Finally i am happy now !
Silimed 360 HP anatomic shape..
Much respect for Dr Roy ,Siloam Hospital Bali , this Plastic surgeon could finally make my breast beautiful .
I can relax now ..

My left breast looks bigger and is placed a little bit lower then my right one especially the scar is made lower then the right side but strangely the top of both implants look on same height .
With the band aid on my scar they both look almost the same but without i see difference or maybe my left breast is still swollen .
Well i am still happy because they are much better then before .

My breast 5 weeks post op ,the left revision breast looks now better then the right one but i can't go on with another surgery to lower the implant , it is what it is and i need to keep in mind that the result is better then before so i need to be satisfied even when it's not perfect .