5 weeks PO Flying out for revisions Saturday!! New Pics

I fly out Saturday morning to have the fluid collection accross my lower abdomen drained, skin tightened accross the entire incision including dog ear removal, my nipples raised, and the bubble fixed in my right breast. It will all be local anesthesia so im not sure of recovery time or pain but I'm hoping its minimal. My first furry child of 9 years got very sick and eventually passed away on Saturday after a long week and a half. It's been a very emotionally and mentally draining 5 weeks. I am so ready to have these revisions and be done with it and be me again! Started planning my wedding this week for 2014 so I have all the motivation in the world to get back in gear. I will fly home Sunday from my procedure and will post pictures as soon as I get home, pray that it fixes what's wrong, heals quickly, and produces the results I was praying for the first time!!! I hope all of you ate doing great!!

Xoxo
-T

So I was right I have a major sernoma in my tummy, it looks like wrinkly granny skin filled with water. I tried to express my concern to my ps two weeks ago and he said he was concerned but did t do anything about it. Not draining a sernoma can lead to major infection, a buildup of scar tissue around the pocket, and permanent detachment of skin. He finally agreed it is a major problem and has to be aspirated ASAP. A local nurse practitioner is supposed to come do it but if she can't I will have to find a local doctor who can do it which mean more money. M ps is over 1,000 miles away so seeing him isn't an option at this point. Also my breasts are different sizes and the indent is in fact a permanent fold. He didn't make sure that the implants accommodated for the difference in the tissue in my natural breasts and the right implant is not big enough to fill out the pocket and created a mammary fold, this will require that the molars be re-done. I am feeling like I may have gotten a botched surgery because this could have been avoided by him doing the lift I paid for and being more meticulous in my implant selection and placement.

This has really taken a toll on me emotionally, I am on bed rest at almost 4 weeks PO and with four children and a husband working 50 hours a week and going to school that is not good. It's affecting everyone n my life. I know that this severe depression is also affecting my sleep and my ability to heal. I know that depression is common after surgery but with complications immobility, and stress it is exacerbated. I am trying to be proactive in asking for something to help with it and staying on my ps to take care of my sernoma. Tomorrow I will be contacting a counselor and seeking a local dr who can take over my post op care. In 3 months I will be scheduling an appointment with a local ps to survey the damage and discuss a second opinion about how to correct my breasts and my tummy if it is needed. I did go with a board certified ps who has done work on my best friend but I will never ever go against my instincts ever again or base my decision on someone else's faith rather than my own. The amount of money I saved is not worth what I'm afraid it is going to cost me. I am seeking the Lords comfort and peace at this point. All I can do is try to make things better and heal. Being negative isn't going to change my circumstances and as a therapist I know that depression is beyond my ability to fix so I am doing what I need to do to get the appropriate solution. It is very humbling to be a mental health professional and experience what clients do yourself. I pray that the rest of you continue to heal and enjoy the results!

It could be worse I could have infection so I'm going to focus on what I have to be thankful for.

Xoxo
Tamera

Today is 3 week post op exactly or 21 days. I noticed this morning that my swelling was actually less than it has been over the past week and a half or so. That was a very pleasant surprise, a much needed one at that. Additionally my drain site did not leak as frequently today so maybe some of that extra fluid is finally being re-absorbed. I was able to move a little easier today and had slightly more energy. I was able to take a shower, shave my legs, style my hair, get dressed, and do a few chores before I got fatigued. I have a lot of cramping and irritation around my incision area so I am assuming my nerves are finally geting some feeling back and the swelling is putting some pressure on it. I have had a really difficult time with this breast issue and today I decided that I needed to suck it up. I am healthy, I am healing well, and a cosmetic complication that can be fixed is far better than a major infection or other irreversible physical problem.

All I can do is just be patient and cross that bridge in a few months when I come to it. Besides I am not trying out for [RS bleep]! I ordered some special cremes that I intend to use on my legs and arms to help tighten the skin and reduce cellulite. I am going to take weekly progression photos while using it and thought some of you might be interested in seeing my results. I have read great things about people using it after extreme weight loss or if they have had cellulite problems or stretch marks. I cant work out but I can sure apply some creme to get ready for swimsuit season! I figure between that and hitting the gym hard once I am cleared I wont lose too much ground from my down time.

Anyone else having a hard time saying no to chocolate? I have never had issues with that but for some reason the post surgery blues have me craving and even giviing in to it. I have been a critical negative Nellie long enough, it is time I just celebrate the little things and give the rest to God. I am mentally starving for some lovin but I know my body isnt ready, im too afraid I would spring a leak haha. Besides I am a little numb in the area...I know TMI. Anyway, today was a good day and I have posted a couple of pictures of my morning belly...its not major but its an improvement over the morning swelling I have been experiencing. I hope all is well with the rest of you!

xoxo,
-T