Hello Everyone! I'm New Here but Have Been Trolling for a While Now :) - Aventura, FL

Ok ladies so I don't even know how to feel about this question to be honest because I have NEVER in my life dreamed that I would be asked to gain weight!!! Like...never. I have been a larger framed girl for all of my life, since I was kid. growing up i was always referred to as big-boned and I have struggled to lose weight and then maintain a healthy weight for as long as I can remember. I feel like i have ALWAYS been on a diet and when I am not watching myself I have gotten up 190 lbs which is heavy for me. So here's my dilemma...Dr. Salama has advised that I gain 10-15 lbs before my surgery date in 18 days! I know, I k ow, I didn't leave myself much time to do this in IF I was planning on gaining, but my heart tells me that I should try and maintain my current weight of 157 (I accidentally lost a pound....I know hearing that might make some of you want to punch me in the face lol but I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME! that never happens) and then focus on putting on maybe 5 healthy lbs of fat after my surgery so that my booty will hopefully fill out a little more. I am putting up a few more pics to show you all, but I really think I have a fair amount of stored fat on my abdomen, flanks and lower back but I could be overestimating what will actually be viable fat that Dr. Salamawill be able to inject after separating out the oils and fluids in the stuff. Does anyone have any advice, I really want to do this the right way and although I trust the doctor's office and their recommendations completely, I feel like its hard for them to see my real fat stores without meeting me in person yet, the pictures I sent weren't the best and when I told Cynthia my weight she replied "oh, really. You don't look it honey" lol which leads me to believe that maybe the pictures aren't really reflecting what I am working with around my midsection...any thoughts?? Thank you for reading and sharing any feedback you may have~

This is just a quick hello to introduce myself to you all! I've been visiting this site for years now but never became actively involved in posting, but I have a surgery date scheduled for 6/20/13 with Dr. Salama in Miami so i figured, I might as well start posting now if I want to truly document this journey I am TOO EXCITED to be on right now!! I am so anxious y'all....in a good way, but I plan to document my journey as closely and honestly as possible for anyone who may be interested. I had a pretty traumatic experience several years ago where I had to have butt implants removed because they caused me to develop a bad infection, so needless to say, I'm super scared about having another elective surgery...but I just can't keep going on being so unhappy with how my body looks if I truly believe there is something I can do about it! That ,might sound dumb or just plain crazy, but that's how I feel. I will be 30 next year and I hate the way my body looks, but I don't want to live that way anymore soooooo I'm going for it! I will be scrambling over the next few weeks to gather all of what I will need and to begin my vitamin regimen and get my medical clearance all sorted out, so I will try to post anything relevant right away.

A little about me, I'm 5'7 158 lbs and 29. This picture is me and my "wish pic" side-by-side. I am really mostly interested in getting A LOT of projection but with this overall shape and size. I don't know if its possible but hey, that's why they call it a wish pic right?! Ok enough rambling...more to come soon! Bye~