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My Honest Experience of my ROaccutane Journey
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I am writing my review of Roaccutane to help...
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I am writing my review of Roaccutane to help others. I am no longer on it, but not out of the woods yet as I am now on a mission to rid myself of the scarring that is left. I wanted to give a full, honest account of Roaccutane and what I had wished others told me before I began.
I remember one night crying about my skin and my best friend turned to me and said 'yes, you have pimples, but you're also beautiful.' And for some reason that has really stuck with me all these years. You are not your skin.
Okay story time- bear with me.
I never had alot of acne growing up. I had a few pimples here and there throughout high school. In my mind my skin was sooo much worse than the reality, looking back through pictures of my teenage years I really dont know what I was so concerned about. I started slowly getting cystic acne when I turned 18. I was out of school but I was going out with friends, going for interviews and meeting people and I was constantly embarrassed of my skin. My skin was painful, even bending over and the blood would go to the cysts under my skin was horrible, I couldnt touch my face and if I bumped one it hurt like hell. I couldnt open my mouth wide enough to eat a burger (tragic, I know) and I was obsessively occupied with ingredients in makeup,shampoos, even telling my poor mother to stop washing my pillowcase in chemicals. I remember feeling so low one day I taped all the mirrors up in my room so I didnt have to see my reflection. I tried everything I could get my hands on and I literally mean EVERYTHING. I started going to the doctor and after a tirade of different antibiotics I was finally given a referral to see a dermatologist for Roaccutane which I subsequently needed to go on twice over a three year period. ( I cannot remember the exact price of roaccutane here in Australia but to see my dermatologist was about $180 with $30 back on medicare and the pills were covered by PBS.)
Along the way I did have some nasty side effects- which I was not warned about via my Dermatalogist. I had severly cracked lips- to the point where I would apply thick slobs of vaseline every hour, I had a constant blood nose, I was diagnosed with depression during, and I did have suicidal thoughts. My night vision was obsolete and I am convinced is still terrible, my eyes were sore and tired, I would fall asleep all the time and I had huge headaches.
BUUT, despite all this I dont know how long I would have gone on with the painful, upsetting skin I did have. I have been off roaccutane for 5 years and the days of my bad skin are a very distant memory. I do however know exactly how it feels to have problem skin. To feel like people are looking at you in a shopping centre because of your skin, to have panic attacks when you need to do a school presentation because you know what everyone will be staring at. to be too scared to go to the beach because you dont want any of that makeup coming off. Please trust me when I say we are the ones who notice our 'flaws' more than anyone else.
My skin was so bad that I would cry myself to sleep at night and truley believed I would never find people to love me. Your brain can say crazy things to you when you are feeling insecure. I recommend anyone who is considering this treatment to ensure they have loaded up on all the necessary research and to ask as many questions as you feel you need. It definately isnt a quick fix and it requires alot of time and committment but I would consider it a good last resort.
I wanted to post my experience as I havent ever written it before and wanted to help anyone thinking about it. I will try to find photos of how my skin was before and after but I have a sneaky suspicion i erased them when I was upset.
Im now 25 and I get the odd pimple here and there and when i've indulged in too much dairy but am now on my scar fixing journey, if you have any questions I am more than happy to help where I can.
I hope this helps someone.
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I remember one night crying about my skin and my best friend turned to me and said 'yes, you have pimples, but you're also beautiful.' And for some reason that has really stuck with me all these years. You are not your skin.
Okay story time- bear with me.
I never had alot of acne growing up. I had a few pimples here and there throughout high school. In my mind my skin was sooo much worse than the reality, looking back through pictures of my teenage years I really dont know what I was so concerned about. I started slowly getting cystic acne when I turned 18. I was out of school but I was going out with friends, going for interviews and meeting people and I was constantly embarrassed of my skin. My skin was painful, even bending over and the blood would go to the cysts under my skin was horrible, I couldnt touch my face and if I bumped one it hurt like hell. I couldnt open my mouth wide enough to eat a burger (tragic, I know) and I was obsessively occupied with ingredients in makeup,shampoos, even telling my poor mother to stop washing my pillowcase in chemicals. I remember feeling so low one day I taped all the mirrors up in my room so I didnt have to see my reflection. I tried everything I could get my hands on and I literally mean EVERYTHING. I started going to the doctor and after a tirade of different antibiotics I was finally given a referral to see a dermatologist for Roaccutane which I subsequently needed to go on twice over a three year period. ( I cannot remember the exact price of roaccutane here in Australia but to see my dermatologist was about $180 with $30 back on medicare and the pills were covered by PBS.)
Along the way I did have some nasty side effects- which I was not warned about via my Dermatalogist. I had severly cracked lips- to the point where I would apply thick slobs of vaseline every hour, I had a constant blood nose, I was diagnosed with depression during, and I did have suicidal thoughts. My night vision was obsolete and I am convinced is still terrible, my eyes were sore and tired, I would fall asleep all the time and I had huge headaches.
BUUT, despite all this I dont know how long I would have gone on with the painful, upsetting skin I did have. I have been off roaccutane for 5 years and the days of my bad skin are a very distant memory. I do however know exactly how it feels to have problem skin. To feel like people are looking at you in a shopping centre because of your skin, to have panic attacks when you need to do a school presentation because you know what everyone will be staring at. to be too scared to go to the beach because you dont want any of that makeup coming off. Please trust me when I say we are the ones who notice our 'flaws' more than anyone else.
My skin was so bad that I would cry myself to sleep at night and truley believed I would never find people to love me. Your brain can say crazy things to you when you are feeling insecure. I recommend anyone who is considering this treatment to ensure they have loaded up on all the necessary research and to ask as many questions as you feel you need. It definately isnt a quick fix and it requires alot of time and committment but I would consider it a good last resort.
I wanted to post my experience as I havent ever written it before and wanted to help anyone thinking about it. I will try to find photos of how my skin was before and after but I have a sneaky suspicion i erased them when I was upset.
Im now 25 and I get the odd pimple here and there and when i've indulged in too much dairy but am now on my scar fixing journey, if you have any questions I am more than happy to help where I can.
I hope this helps someone.
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