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Hello RS Community

I have found this site so helpful that I too am going to try to help others with what I am about to undertake. Like many here, my breasts have been a source of anxiety and pain for too many years and I am finally doing something that I wish I could of done earlier.

I will update closer to the day of my procedure as a way of calming my anxiety and hopefully sharing the experience to help others. I also need to vent as I am not telling anyone else apart from my partner and one very close friend. My partner is already I think quite tired of talking about it even though he tries his best to be supportive :)

My main anxiety is of course any complications although I trust my surgeon however this also leads to anxiety about size as he is quite conservative. The technique to be used is also the newer "vertical scar" (rather than the anchor pattern) and a small scar in the inframammary fold as I have quite a bit of skin to remove.

I would love to have a B cup result. Today I bought this delightful B soft cup Stella McCartney bra - 36B and I am obviously spilling out of it(profile pic) but I really hope to be wearing it as a comfortable bra in the future.

Hope to be able to chat to fellow Australians as well so if anyone is out there- feel free to message me :)

I went to see my surgeon again and was kind of reassured that I would be more of a C than a B. I am long rather than big but there is also a lot of glandular tissue to be removed. I am not that keen on a free nipple graft or possibility of losing sensation in my nipples so I am happy with a C - not too sure if I will feel terribly upset if I end up bigger though. Still I keep thinking it will be miles away from where I am now and hopefully that will keep me happy with the results. Letting go of consideration of getting an opinion on an anchor pattern technique purely because of the scarring and more "invasiveness" of the technique. I (think) I have made up my mind. Trust is definitely a thing that comes up in the experience. Feeling comfortable and trusting the surgeon is definitely a major plus for me.

My current size is 14DD but in many of my bras I spill out a little so I think sometimes I am a 14E of course depending on the bra I also put on and lose weight too frequently so it is hard to say.

Which also leads me to questioning why I have never really kept on top of my weight apart from fact that it has always been difficult to maintain in any case ( due to bad diet when I was younger with parents that had no idea about nutrition and thought fat wasn't a bad thing). But what I have remembered is that any time I did embark on a healthy exercise and good eating plan I started being very unhappy about the effect it had on my breasts. As I have stretch marks on the upper pole and the skin here quite thin it never retracts when I lose weight and it is depressing looking at the saggy skin when I lean forward. Now that I wont have to worry about that effect soon enough so my fitness/weightloss has been my prime aim. I no longer have to hide my boobs by making the rest of my body bigger or to be worried of having saggy breasts at my goal weight. For the first time since the age of 15 I hope to finally like the look of my breasts. At 39 it's a long time to wait to be able to look in the mirror and not be instantly depressed by having boobs that don't appear to belong to my body not to mention the neck shoulder back pain that only gets worse with every year.