Making the Decision - Austin, TX

This was not an easy decision for me. I always knew I wanted my stomach to look nice again, but was I really willing to take all the risks. I told myself if I ever lost all the weight, after having 4 children, I would do it. It was easy to say that because losing 70+lbs is such a huge achievement I never thought it would happen. Well, last year it did. I went from 211 to 136. My husband took me to Curacao, without our kids, to celebrate. GO ME! When we got back I started thinking about tummy tucks. My friends told me I was nuts and I looked great. How could I think I needed a TT when I was a size 6. Between that, and fear, I chickened out of the idea. For months it was on my mind though.

6 months later, and many bootcamp hours and zumba later, the skin had not budged. I started talking to my husband again. I told him that while everyone says I look great, I want to see the fruits of my labor too. Everyone only see's me with clothes on and I know what is lurking under there. In January I talked to one of my zumba instructors who had a TT last summer. I made an appointment with her doctor, and one other, and the rest is history. The doctor said I have at least 5 inches of skin to remove. I booked my surgery back at the beginning of February for May 13, for a TT and Lipo of inner thighs. I figured that would be enough time to fix any holiday damage AND it worked perfectly in with my husbands Grad School schedule and our kids school schedule.

Right now I am excited and frustrated. I managed to gain 5 lbs stress eating. Instead of getting things fixed from the holidays I ate for comfort because we were dealing with many issues with our 10 year old and his ADHD. Part of me thinks I may have been trying to sabotage my TT because I am scared and feeling guilt over spending so much money. I mean this could bring my family on 2 really good vacations. This could pay off some debt. But I know I deserve it. My husband is behind me 100%, and I need to accept that I deserve this!