32A to 32D after Sientra 300cc's. 5'1", 105 lbs.

Hello beautiful ladies. I never in a million years thought I'd be someone who would undergo cosmetic surgery. I'm also an extremely private person. Yet here I am, just days away from my BA and about to share something I have only shared with my husband and two of my girlfriends. I am so grateful to all of you who have bared your souls and bodies on this site. Your stories have helped me so much and given me the courage to pay it forward and share mine.

So I haven't really had a size goal. I just wanted whatever size looked natural and right for my frame. I felt like my PS got it. His portfolio of before and afters are impressive, and I knew after I met him that I could trust his judgement - which is what I was looking for in a PS. Well, now I'm second guessing that. He gave me a range of 300-375 cc, but I'm getting those last minute doubts feeling like I should've chosen a size to provide more direction. Ugh, can this be done already? Exhausted from thinking and worrying.

I paid the extra $100 for the vitamin pack and have been taking that since my pre-op last week. I've had relatively smooth recoveries from two c-sections and am pretty fit, so I'm hoping recovery from my BA won't be too bad. Surgery is on a Thursday, and I go back to work the following Wednesday so I MUST be functional by then. Way too many projects going on, and I'm a little behind already since we just had a few "snow" days (w/o actual snow, we're not used to snow here) resulting in school closures so I was home with the kids.

I've been giving my two little boys extra hugs abd cuddles these days b/c after surgery, my focus will be on recovery. I tried to be superwoman after both kids were born...I threw a big dinner party two weeks after my first was born. Don't know what I was thinking, but this BA is for me and I'm determined to put my needs first for this one.

I have to tell you how sweet my DH is. I've hated my post-baby body. At the beginning of 2013, I decided I wasn't going to let myself go. I was very focused on a workout routine and played league tennis. I dropped almost 15 lbs, which is significant on a 5'1" person. Even with that, I was unhappy with my body. My boobs were cute and perky before kids, and they had turned into saggy sandbags. I was also shocked to go from 32 full B to a saggy nothing. How is it possible for such tiny boobs to be so saggy??? Also, my formerly flat tummy was cruelly replaced by a hanging flap of skin. The flap got smaller when I dropped weight, but it's still there. Ah, genetics can be so cruel as I come from generations of small, saggy boobs and stomach flaps. DH got lucky in the gene dept. His whole family stays thin, they're the kind of people who can eat anything. DH will stop working out in the winter, but one month back into his exercise routine and you can already see definition in his stomach. Why is he sweet? Sorry, back to the point. I was commenting on my body one night, something he knew I wasn't happy about (it really impacted our sex life). I was joking about cosmetic surgery, and he got serious, said that he didn't think I needed it but if I felt it was something I wanted, I should look into it. So the research began. I was going on consults for both a mini tummy tuck snd BA and ultimately decided on just the BAfor now. Anyway, for Christmas, I opened a box and DH had written me a check for $6k to be spent only on me. Awwwww. Love him. Sorry I'm a rambling mess!!!

I'm so excited...and ssssscared!!!! Got a lot to wrap up today. Tonight, I need to help the kids finish up their class valentine's day cards/candy since I'll be out of it tomorrow night, take care of some work projects, laundry, run out at lunch time to get DH a valentine's gift...whew! Hope I can focus on my tasks instead of fantasizing (and worrying) about my new boobs all day. So funny, my oldest son (age 6) has a class field trip tomorrow and has been counting down the days until Thursday, the same day as my BA. Glad we can share in our excitement for tomorrow, even if they're about entirely different events!