Officially a Salama Girl!

hello ladies. ive been wanting to get this sx way before i ever knew it exsisted..maybe even before it exsisted...lol. for so long i have felt like i was in the wrong body. i look in the mirror and see this body with no hips or ass and it feels like it is not me. my man thinks i look fine the way i am, but he doesnt understand what it feels like to not feel like u. i was thinking about it the other day and how to explain it to him and the best comparison i have is to the men and women who feel like the are the opposite sex. like a man feeling like he isnt a man...he feels like he really should be a woman. and to be honest, i didnt understand it myself until the idea came to me.

my man seems to go back and forth between seeming like he is embracing my sx and then wondering why im getting it. he is more of the decision maker in the relaionship and said it was ok if i got the sx and so i started to gain the weight needed to get the results that i want. and since i had a baby, i dont gain weight the same way i used to...its not cute. to me or to him=/. so im scared my man is going to change his mind and not want me to get the sx, bc b4 i started to gain the weight i was about 115-120lbs (i was scrawny) and im 5'2" and now i am about 130, maybe more. (its been a while since i weighed myself). and so i dont want to have to loose the weight ive gained bc it has been hard to gain it. im sick of eating...period. only when im ravenous is food at all enjoyable to me at this point (i never thought i would feel this way lol)

anyway...i have been going back and forth between jimerson and salama. i had a consultation already done by jimerson and feel like i didnt address all that i wanted to, so im hoping i can get some more questions answered. and i still need to schedule a consultation with salama. i have actually been more hesitant about salama bc for one he is booked up for a long time and i need this sx done before this year is up. and im scared to scedule an appiontment and not be able to switch it out for an earlier date. and second ive read some bad reviews on him. with jimerson i see good results just not a lot of them. im leaning more towards jimerson, but its still up in the air. money is not an issue when it comes to this sx for me, i just want to go with the best doc possible. one that will get the closest to the results i desire and that will treat me as they would like to be treated. so are there any ladies out there with some advice on which doc to go with? and if money was not an issue, what doc would u prefer to go with?

i plan to get my arms, bra area, upper back, lower back, flanks, and abdomen, lipoed. thats where i gain most of my weight now (i feel and look like a linebacker...lol. nothing i put on looks good...i just dont feel comfortable in my own skin). i want atleast 1000cc or more in each cheek and im going to get hips. i would like a very full, round, s curve (i think thats what its called) ass!

so, some concerns i have:
ive been looking at some b4 and after pix and one thing that i didnt like was in the b4 pix, it looked like some ladies have the indentation in the lower back and after the sx the indentation looks flat (i dont know...is it bc of the lipo?) and i see some sort of white pads under the garment. im assuming to help with swelling. Any ladies who know what im taking about? i dont want a flat lower back. i dont have much of an indentation...but i do have one and i would like to keep it.

another concern of mine is that i have always been athletic and my ass feels like it has a good amount of muscle and im not sure if the my skin is elastic enough to get the fullness i desire. is there some way to tell? does anyone know about this and have had the same concern? did u get the volume u wanted? i also have light back dimples. i would like to enhance those if not keep them.

now, i know that getting massaged is extremely important for this sx. how long after i get the sx do i need to be massaged? and how many times a day is ok? is there anyway i can overdo the massaging? or the more the better? i want to make sure i am nice and soft. i know the damage of scar tissue and what it can do=/ i see some ladies ordered more massages for right after sx, some continued them once home, and i read about using rolling pins so u can do it urself.

ive always wanted a really small waist. does anyone know of a good garment to go with? does anyone know how to know which one i may need for sx? ive also heard of ladies using some kind of corset...i guess its called a waist cincher?

bbl is not the only surgery i plan on getting. after i had my baby via csection, i breast fed and i am more than definitely getting a tt and maybe a breast lift. i have ugly stretch marks on my tummy and my [RS bleep] arent as perky anymore. I know some would say that i am vain or just plain crazy, but i just want to enjoy life. i am young and i want to just throw on a some clothes, be able to wear whatever the hell i want, and not be concerned about sucking in or trying to find the most flattering look. i want to live without being so focused on hiding.

i am so thankful to have found this site and be able to share my journey with u ladies and read ur journys as well.