Ready to Be Me Again! - Ashburn, VA

Here is one photo of me 4 weeks post explant.
I'll take more photos soon. I just really hope this dent resolves.

Ladies, I'm back. Sorry I haven't updated. I went through something really funky post explant and I couldn't bring myself to come on here and read all the "best decision ever," "Im soooo glad I did this," "why didn't I do it sooner." Well, I have to be honest and tell you guys that I did have mixed feelings post explant. Immediately after sugery, I felt great. I was glad my implants were out and I felt much more natural. I didn't worry so much about how my breast looked because I was confident time would fix things and they would fluff up and even out. To me, they didn't look pretty. Especially my right breast, which seems to be indented at the bottom of my areola.
My original placement scar is around the areola and explant took place in the fold. As it was explained to me, the indentation on my right breast is due to scar tissue from the original placement. Its getting better and better every day but they still don't look great. At least to me they don't. I massage twice daily to really manipulate the scar tissue to get it to soften up.

Don't get me wrong, I am okay with my decision. I didn't like having implants. I guess what I am trying to say is that Im glad I am natural, but I do miss my bigger breast. I felt sexier honestly. I have always had a thing for bigger breast. Even if I would have never gotten implants, I would have probably always wondered what it was like to live with big breast. So now, post explant, I think I understand why I got them in the first place. I like bigger breast. I just wish I had them naturally and didn't need implants.
So my absence was because I was going back and forth and back and forth.

Here is my list of CONS post explant:
I lost my mound. I still have the same amount of tissue, but I have no upper pole/mound.
That damn indentation from scar tissue. I absolutely hate it.
Stretch marks are visible now.
Sagging
Your belly looks bigger. You have to work at getting your belly flatter. At least I do.
I am now self conscious about my belly.
I find myself starring at big breasted women, and I like their breast.
I miss how I looked in tank tops.

PROS:
I am natural.
There is nothing artificial about me now.
I don't have to worry about strange symptoms, leakage, CC and etc.
I look thinner. In some weird way I do although I worry about my belly.
My clothes fit great.
I can buy pretty much any kind of bra.
My breast feel good. They are soft and it feels good to touch them .
I can work out without a problem.
I can run.

Hopefully in a few months I can tell you that I feel 100% that I made the right decision, but I can't right now. I am not upset or devastated that I went through with it. I just miss the way I used to look. Although, I wasn't happy with being so big, I am not so happy being this small. Do you get what I am saying? I hope at least one of you do.

Immediately after removing bandage. Drains will stay in until Monday or Tuesday!