Something for Myself, with God's Help - Arizona

I thought I should mention as much as we all hate the subject, I am about 5'2" and 153 lbs, at my most, I weighed 239. That was just before delivery many years ago. My cost did include hospital charges, 24 hr stay and anesthesiologist.

Finally making dreams a reality. Since I was 19 years old I pondered this idea. At the time I was a struggling single mom. I was stopped dead in my tracks at the possibility of one day adding to our family. As hard as things were then, I had hopes that one day I would meet a knight in shining armor and maybe just maybe God would give me more children. Funny how life has it's very own direction already predetermined, and without much regard for our thoughts. Anyway the long and short, years later finally got married, struggled endlessly to have more children, endured years of IVF, lost the babies, was hospitalized with complications, and never had any other living children. So as a mom of one very special angel, best friend, and sole survivor, I see myself as pretty lucky. Life is still full of it's struggles, but I am getting there, one step at a time. I think God knew I could never go at it alone, so boy am I grateful for my beautiful kiddo! Mountains seem so much smaller with someone to give you boost. Ok so enough with all the mushy mush, I am freaking out girls! I am pretty tough but going to bathroom seems frightening at this point. Did I mention I am a total OCD freak, that along with being a workaholic, is pretty overwhelming in itself. And I have to constantly double check every single detail. As I carefully watch the cues I see that I should include things I have already learned. Well I want you to know I have read more of your stories than you could ever imagine. I have laughed with you, cried with you and taken note on all of your tips and hints. I have never shared anything with such a large audience however as important as all of your stories have been to me, I feel I owe it to you. So if my grammar sucks and my punctuation is off I apologize. Hopefully you can look past that and find some comfort in my experiences. Lots of love and prayers and blessings to everyone.