Dr.ROBLES IS MY HERO!!!! ;)

I wonder if im the only one feeling like this?? .. I was so confident the first trip in my decision to go to DR and choosing robles,but after reading of her 2 recent deaths im just feeling so lost.. In my heart I feel like I will be fine, ive done this once and I can do it again, but then again im sure these 2 women felt the same way and never thought it would happen to them.. I dont know if im just being hard headed and I just want it so bad im willing to risk my life? Am I being selfish? And then I think that whether I have it done here or in DR theres still risks and possibility of complications.. Im just so confused. I dont dare tell my husband of the news ive been reading about and I know that should be the first red flag that im not using my common sense.. But i know he will be totally against me going.. Am I wrong that I still have faith in dr robles and that she can complete my body how I want it to be? Anyways, good news is that ive lost 24lbs which brings me down 5lbs from post surgery, my goal is 135 and im currently 137..ive been wearing a waist trainer and taking adipex, and detox waters, 40minutes on treadmill everyday, AND T25!!! I lost the 24 lbs in 6weeks yayyy me!! lol I am still 85% sure i still want to go to robles in april, I haven't sent deposit or booked flight… hopefully i can either be 100% sure in the next few weeks or idk what else to do :/

So I haven't been here for a while, ive been gaining and gaining like theres no tomorrow ,a total of about 20lbs since surgery, being inactive and eating whatever I please, not good at alllll.. But im now on my second week of dieting and walking and have lost 9 lbs and im trying desperately to get back into shape bc I was unable to go in oct for round2 but im now planning to go in april. Im hoping bonitamex will also be able to join me, we have been keepin in touch. I received a quote from laura that i think is a bit much but I think I still want to stick with robles, she also says. Deposit has gone up from $100 to $300 .. Anyways heres an updated pic ,im still happy with my curves but do want to be slimmer!!

Oops lol I have just been enjoying life, bad news, my enjoyment gained me about 15 or 20 lbs ,this last month lost 18 and then this last week gained about half of it back again ..wahh.. Once again ill say ivr never wanted to be a skinny girl ive gotten what ive always wanted im curvy. And proportionate which I love, my bottom is still my main attraction lol I noticed my hips are a lil uneven so one side has like a dent that needs to be filled in and umm other than that I still dobt wear crop tops like i swore I would because I have more stretch marks than I originally thought I would and they go up pretty high, I dont mind them I just thought they would fade as swelling came down but no they are still there ,I do wear crop tops but only with like highwaisted bottoms which is still cute but u kno, I am still planning to go bavk for lipo to belly upper back WHICH I HATE because its like I have a dip where my big butt and lower bsck was lipoed but then it makes up there look more biggervespecially because I have big boobs so anyways im getting that dobe and I want my butg and hip filled in a lil more and I plan on going october 19 which is a sunday ,I was quoted from laura $3500..which I think is a bit much since I paid $4700 the first time for tt n lipo n transfer for 2 week stay and this time ill be staying only 1 week but I guess ill have to get back to her on that before I send the deposit. Anyways im fine im alive im well and im still happy with my results just have to gain control of my weight and stop being so care free lol ill post pics up in a few day ;)