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Wanting to Remove 11 Week Old Breast Implants
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Unfortunately I was in a bad place and not feeling...
Janna1June 12, 2014
$6,700
Unfortunately I was in a bad place and not feeling good about my body and made the impulsive decision to get breast implants. I literally scheduled the surgery for two weeks after my consultation just so that I would not have the chance to cancel the surgery. I thought somehow that by having breast implants I would fix my self esteem. I thought that men would be more attracted to me, I thought I would feel sexier and better about myself. If anything... I have become more self conscious than I was before. Now when I wear clothes, I am top heavy. It looks like I gained weight. They are bigger than what I asked for, and I try to hide them or not stand too straight because when I stand straight they appear more round and fake. It has been almost three months now and they still look and feel fake to me. They have not dropped very much... I think long term I could tolerate the look of them... but they just don't feel normal. They don't feel normal to the touch, they don't feel normal when I move around. I have flex distortion as well. It's already bad but if it gets any worse I'll really be grossed out. My boobs were tiny before yeah... and I had people tease me about them (part of the reason I got implants). Ironically the people who teased me about them were women and not men. Men never complained about my boobs. Now I realize that they fit my body a lot better before than they do now.
I'm super scared of the emotional roller coaster I'm going to go through getting them removed. I'm scared of having to wear compression garments during the summer and look flat chested. I'm scared I'm making the wrong decision removing them, but I'm scared to keep them too!
What if I'm not in a good place financially ten years down the road and can't afford to have them removed and replaced? What if they leak silicone and damage my body without me being aware of it? What if I want to have children and can't breastfeed?
I spent so much on breast implants when realistically I could have taken a vacation anywhere in the world practically for that amount of money! I didn't need big boobs... I don't even like lots of attention... I don't know why I did this too myself.
I'm super scared of the emotional roller coaster I'm going to go through getting them removed. I'm scared of having to wear compression garments during the summer and look flat chested. I'm scared I'm making the wrong decision removing them, but I'm scared to keep them too!
What if I'm not in a good place financially ten years down the road and can't afford to have them removed and replaced? What if they leak silicone and damage my body without me being aware of it? What if I want to have children and can't breastfeed?
I spent so much on breast implants when realistically I could have taken a vacation anywhere in the world practically for that amount of money! I didn't need big boobs... I don't even like lots of attention... I don't know why I did this too myself.
UPDATED FROM Janna1
3 months post
4 More Days Until my Consultation!
Janna1June 12, 2014
My consultation for explant is coming up on Monday! I'm nervous for it. I'm nervous because I don't know my dr well enough to know what he's going to say to me... I only spent about 15 minutes with him during the first consult. Wish I would have taken my time and shopped around and talked to different surgeons before proceeding with surgery. Maybe I somehow would have changed my mind instead of rushing into it!
I have to start reminding myself that even if I look okay in clothes... even though I might enjoy these things for a few years... down the road they are just going to become a hassle and I'm better to have them removed sooner than later so that the skin has a good chance of stretching back.
I think I'm going to give myself until some time in July to get the surgery.
A little part of me in the back of my mind is trying to keep them and justify all the money spent.. but I have to just get over that and accept my body for what it is.
I wonder if the implants had less projection and were a little flatter and closer together if I would have been happy with surgery. Maybe I would have... but I am not willing to undergo an entire surgery to correct something like that and risk the chance that it doesn't end up well. Scary!
I think the worst part of all of this is not being able to talk to family and friends about it. I know they will be judgemental and none of this will make sense to them. Oh well this is my decision. I made my bed and I get to lie in it!
I have to start reminding myself that even if I look okay in clothes... even though I might enjoy these things for a few years... down the road they are just going to become a hassle and I'm better to have them removed sooner than later so that the skin has a good chance of stretching back.
I think I'm going to give myself until some time in July to get the surgery.
A little part of me in the back of my mind is trying to keep them and justify all the money spent.. but I have to just get over that and accept my body for what it is.
I wonder if the implants had less projection and were a little flatter and closer together if I would have been happy with surgery. Maybe I would have... but I am not willing to undergo an entire surgery to correct something like that and risk the chance that it doesn't end up well. Scary!
I think the worst part of all of this is not being able to talk to family and friends about it. I know they will be judgemental and none of this will make sense to them. Oh well this is my decision. I made my bed and I get to lie in it!
Replies (7)
June 13, 2014
I completely understand. But they look beautiful and will look even better and more natural in time.
June 13, 2014
Thank you for the compliment :) I would love if they looked more natural and there was less of a gap. I think a lot of the swelling has gone down by now and when I am in clothes they project too much. I think it is probably the shape of my chest wall so not easily fixed. Will see what dr says.
June 13, 2014
i hade mine done 5 weeks ago. the first week was not sure if i had done the right thing. Now i am very happy i did it for me and only me maby thats the reason i am so happy with them now. Dont paye attention to what other people think or say its your body and enjoy your ba...you look good and your breast are not too big. good luck!!!
June 13, 2014
Thank you :) I wish I was happy like you a week after getting mine! I have waited three months and still am not happy!
June 13, 2014
Sorry you are not happy with your surgery, however it is not all that unusual. I would suggest to wait until at least 6 months post op before deciding on what to do... they may still change shape and become more "relaxed" and more natural looking. You do seem to have a wider space in between, that could be due to your body structure, or too narrow of an implant, or both. Have you been doing massage on them? Also, write down all your questions/concerns so you remember all you want to ask the doctor. Good luck!
June 13, 2014
Thanks for the good advice :) I definitely need to write everything down and prepare what I'm going to say. If he tells me it's not the implants it's just my body shape and he can't fix I then I think I just want them out.
UPDATED FROM Janna1
3 months post
On the fence.
Janna1June 13, 2014
Talked to a couple people today about boobs. I can't decide if I want revision surgery or explant :(
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June 13, 2014
I suggest that you wait six months to a year, just so you don't repeat the same mistake twice. They actually look really good from the side. You should probably work it, rather than feel self-conscious. A lot of this is just in your head. And I know what you mean about women making comments about your bodies. I'm sure that is just envy on their part. It happened to me recently in a boutique. (Who asked you, lady?)
June 13, 2014
Do whatever is right for you. Your concerns make sense to me, and I completely understand why you don't like the space between them. Regardless of your decision to keep or remove the implants, your first priority should always be making decisions that are good for yourself.
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