TT for me - Annapolis, MD

I've scheduled my TT for 3/12. Pre-pregnancy I was 5'0", 115-120 lbs, never teeny-tiny, but always slim/athletic without doing too much to maintain (I know...annoying). I have twins who are just over 3yrs old now & carried them full term, gained 50 pounds, my belly went from my hip bone to my ribs & was so big I couldn't drive. It's the biggest accomplishment my body has done - carrying them and delivering nearly 13 pounds (combined) of baby. After having them, I initially lost all the weight immediately (thanks to BF), but the weight was just in different places.
But, going back to work, commuting, not taking time for myself...my weight crept back up. Plus I've had trouble re-learning how to eat like a normal person and not someone trying to grow 2 babies. Last fall, after seeing my weight inch closer to 130, I joined a gym & started working with a trainer 1x a week. He's kicked my butt, I'm much stronger & in pretty good shape but my tummy is a mess. I've gotten my core stronger but haven't been able to close my diastatis (roughly 2-3 fingers wide still). Plus all the stretch marks & extra skin. Blech. Most of all, I'm competitive so I hate being in classes and seeing people 2x my age crush me with their fitness!
I want to be active and have fun with my kids, but there are still certain movements I can't do because of my tummy muscles - i.e. situps or any kind of movement that requires that kind of crunch motion. To sit up in bed, I still sort of roll to one side and use my arm to push up. And I hate that feeling of having my insides on my outside - I guess the hernia part.
Plus, I turn 35 later this year. I know that as I age, staying fit is important but there's also part of me that just wants to look *hot* when I'm 35. I don't want to look like a dowdy momma. Plus, I resolved in 2013, because of a variety of things happening in my personal life, to STOP putting myself at the bottom of the list. Hell, I wasn't even putting myself on the list at all.
My pre-op is later this week; I'm already locked in with my surgery date, got leave lined up at work and am working on covering my projects, and have help lined up for my hub & kids. I'm really anxious & nervous & excited...

Finally took some. Might need to print these out to look at during those worst moments of recovery to come.

Me at 36 weeks pregnant with my twins. I went another 2 weeks + 1 day. At 36 weeks I was measuring 48 weeks.