I got my silicone implants over the muscle about six years ago. Looking back I wonder whatever possessed me to put these foreign objects inside my body in the first place?! Low self esteem, divorce..... Who knows. I actually cancelled my first surgery date when I put them in as I could not wrap my mind around putting something foreign into my body... But gave in to the idea a few months later!
I have had no "problems" with my implants. They are soft, scars are almost invisible.... And there is no obvious medical reason to explant .....Or is there? (Besides that they've bottomed out now)
Is it a coincidence that I have chronic fatigue, occasional shooting pains in my breasts, chronic neck and shoulder pain, headaches, fight depression, thyroid and weight gain issues for no "reason", hormone issues-- low sex drive-- and all of this since I got these things put in? After doing a lot of research it is my personal belief that my body has actually been resisting these things since the day I got them put in!! Not to mention discomfort in general and not feeling "comfortable", like ever!
I wanted to share my story because I have been spending so much time on this site and reviews have been such a blessing. Hearing women remind me to accept myself how God made me is so important! My boobs do not define me or give me my sexual identity for that matter!! It is scary thinking maybe I am making a choice to remove them and will feel unattractive after! It is a real psychological battle in my head!!
Now let me tell you about my husband because I'm sure many of you, like me, are worried about the husband and his opinion. I got these in before I met my awesome hot husband.... And let me say he is a "boob man"!!! I am worried! (Although I do joke to him that they did the trick, got the man I wanted, now I have no use for them hahaha) His initial reaction when I told him I wanted to do this was "why if there's no problems would you want to mess with them?" And I don't think he was fully on board but he still said its my decision to make and supported it..... But after I sent him some research and was really thinking of all those little health issues I've had the last few years he started doing some research of his own and now he says, "get those toxic bags out of your chest as soon as you can"!!! He says it is not worth my health to have them and he is fully supportive of it now.... And I think its more genuine now that he is thinking of risks associated with Implants. I also didn't really put much thought when I got them into the fact that id be needing future surgeries to "upkeep" them. I do not like having something inside me that could "silently" rupture, that could prevent seeing breast cancer, or be causing me health issues. I've read too many reviews from other women who have had similar issues to my own that went away as soon as they removed their implants!
And overall, I want to be "free" of them. I just want to be myself. And looking at soooo many before and after pictures I also realize I personally think small boobs are pretty cute! I think 90% of the pics I've seen the women look better after they explant and are just themselves. Maybe that comes with age... Realizing imperfection is beautiful. ;)
I'm nervous about surgery, general anesthesia, the outcome... But I can really invision myself being happy to be free of them and on the other side! I will post pics at a later date of before and after... I will be doing explant and a lift.... Getting it all done so I can be completely done with boob surgeries as I'd just end up wishing I had the lift done later....
Thanks for all the stories and support.... This site was a total God send for me!!