It's been a year! (Tummy Tuck/Lower Body Lift, PA)

I am a 33 year old mom of 3.. my son is 7 and my twins (b/g) are 5. I'm 5'3 and 138(ish) lbs. A tummy tuck is something I have considered since my twins were born. I struggled with my weight for most of my life. I gained 65lb with my first pregnancy (after losing about 25 lbs for my wedding. Then I lost all of my baby weight only to get pregnant again 18 months later. I gained about 60 lbs with my twins and then lost it all in the years following. I have been at a healthy weight now for 4 years and fitness has become a huge part of my life and weight loss journey. I have always struggled to lose "the last 10 pounds" which is mostly in my belly/mid section (I call this my "Twin Skin") and finally I have accepted that it is not going anywhere without the help of surgery.
I consulted with 2 surgeons, and decided to go with the second doctor, who recommended a Lower Body Lift to help contour my hips and butt. (it also helped a ton that his price came in much lower than anticipated AND his office is only about 20 min from home)

I go in next Monday for blood work and to pay for my surgery. (eek!) I have been selective about who I tell about it because I fear judgement. But the closer the surgery gets the more I want to tell everyone! My husband and my mom are VERY supportive of my decision. I feel so lucky for that. They know this will make me happy and more confident. I really anticipate coming through this with flying colors because I am healthy and in really good shape already. I work out daily and eat a healthy diet. the doctor said this will definitely help me recover faster. I look forward to following the journeys of others here. This site has been so helpful for me already. I'll post pics soon!

OMG! Today is one month until surgery. Pre Op visit is on Monday and I'll be paying for the whole procedure then. I had a slight panic attack last night that I may not wake up from surgery, then hubby said "I better get some insurance on your ass." lol I have been under general anesthesia once before to have my appendix out. And I had a c-section also, but wasn't asleep for that one. But I should be okay, right???
I had lunch with my best childhood friend yesterday... i couldn't bring myself to tell her about my surgery. Mostly bc her mom is the most judgmental person ever, and I know she will tell her mom. I don't see her often, so I will just not tell her at all and next time I see her she'll just think I'm working out harder than usual. haha. I haven't told my sister yet either. I think once this is all paid for I'll let the cat out of the bag.

So, friends... tell me about your experience with anesthesia. I am more nervous about this that any other part of the procedure and recovery! I remember when I had my appendix out they wheeled me into the OR and made me count backwards from 100. I was out by the time I got to 97. I remember waking up very groggy and miserable after the surgery. I guess I have this fear of waking up in the middle of the surgery OR not waking up at all. I think I am nervous too because the day of my surgery is the 3rd anniversary of the day my dad died.
My surgery is supposed to be 5-6 hours long. I told my hubby he doesn't have to wait for me at the hospital. I figure the doc can just call him when I'm out and maybe he can come see me in the evening if he can get a sitter. He will need to be here for the kids when they get home from school, etc.

Also, my MIL will be having her second round of chemo that same day, so I am trying not to make a huge deal out of my surgery. She was just diagnosed with breast cancer, so it's been very different here for the past month- taking her to her appts, getting educated on cancer and treatments... all that stuff. I really stressed out about telling her about the surgery at all, but i finally broke down and told her. I was worried she might think I am being selfish or inconsiderate. but the truth is, it doesn't matter when I schedule the surgery... there is no guarantee that her chemo dates will stay the same. I just hope she isn't secretly angry with me for doing this.

Pre-op on Monday! OMG!