Ethnic Rhinoplasty

Hey guys,
So yesterday I was 10 days post op and I changed my tape because it was so oily. See updated pictures of my nose attached (in one of the pictures I have a face wash on so ignore the grease).
The front of my nose is still extremely swollen at has a lot less definition than I originally had. I am beginning to like the side kthiugh I am scared because my nostrils are still very big and nose to me looks lop-sides, one side looks bigger than the other and one Alar wing looks like it’s further out than the other.
I have spoken to damla- dr boras co ordinator who said it is just swelling although I am worrying as it looks to me like one alar wing has been stitched down too far out :-/. Hope I’m just being paranoid.
I will continue to tape my nose day and night until 18th as advised by dr bora (although I will change my tapes daily now). After 18th July I will tape day and night when I can and just at night when I can’t.
I have been stuck hiding indoors since surgery hiding out with my taped nose so feeling a bit low but I’m opting my nose will improve drastically in the next week when I can start going out in public again.

So I went to get my cast and splints off on Sunday (4 days post op) as my flight was on the Monday morning. He was in a much beyyer mood even though it was his day off and it was a Sunday morning.
I told Dr bora my concerns about my post op pictures and he told me "he did not make a big change like I asked". At this point I just said ok because the work had already been done. He said he didn't add much cartilage to my bridge at all and said he just used cartilage from my septum to add to my lower nose bridge very slightly and brought my nose in and did work on my tip.
Didn't hurt to get my cast and splints off at all. The worst pain was the pain from taking my plasters off.
Looked in the mirror and was shocked. My front view was massive! Bigger than before but not as much definition as before. It looked like a big triangular blob. My side profile looked nice and neat but again, you could see it was very swollen. Didn't take any pictures for cast off day cs I was traumatised. My nose looks 100 times bigger from the front than it did before. I looked deformed! It was literally like a play dough blob front view. My nose bridge was so wide and I had a relatively normal nose bridge before so I was just so scared.
Dr Bora did explain I was still very swollen and he taped my nose up and said it should go down gradually within the year. I have to wear this tape on my nose for 10 days and then tape it for 6 weeks at night after that..hoping when I take this tape off in 10 years I will look semi normal again so will keep you updated on that.
I know I'm swollen cs I still look like a chipmunk from swollen cheeks so.jolong my nose is swollen too.
Got on my flight on Tuesday with my taped nose which isn't really less obvious than the cast as I'm black and the tape is white but my nose looks better with the tape tajn without the tape so there is no way i will be taking it off before the 10 days.
I'm really hoping and praying in 10 days it does not look anything like it did on cast off day. Not leaving the house until day 10 lol
Will keep you all posted x

..... So after we got our rooms I just went straight to sleep. I was really worried about what I would look like as I worried Dr Bora had given me a really dramatic new nose. I also felt uncomfortable as I had a cast on my nose and plastic splints up each nostril so I had to breathe through my nose. I wouldn't say I was in pain but I did get the odd ache in my nostril.
Forgot to mention, when doctor bora came to see me I was given my medication which you have to pay £30 for. I was given antibiotics (Cipro), painkillers (Alvares), allergy tablets, sea salt nasal spray, antibiotic cream and a scar gel to be used 3 weeks after surgery.
From days 1 to 4 my swelling was really bad and just kept getting worse. The good thing is that there are so many people in the hotel that have had surgery with Dr Bora. I made friends with about 5 people and we were comparing our swelling and bruises daily which made us all feel better that this was normal. We would go to breakfast, lunch and dinner together and chill in each others rooms just to keep each other sane. So happy I met people as if I was completely alone I probably would have broken down.
Getting your nose done (especially if you're ethnic) is a BIG thing. I don't think I could fathom how I would feel after surgery. I was very down and still am. I think I am more worried because I didn't tell any of my friends or family as I thought I would have a subtle improvement nobody would realise (like nina94510). I was also scared I wouldn't recognise myself once my cast came off as I liked my face and didn't want to look like a completely different person. Also felt down because my face was so swollen, you look like you have been beaten up for a good 5 days before swelling reduces although everyone is different. It kicked in I had flown to Turkey all alone to get rhinoplasty after surgery aswell as I think I was running off adrenaline so then I just felt stupid for doing such a big thing alone and taking such a big risk. Then there's the feeling of loneliness. I missed my boyfriend and mum and couldn't really tell them how I was feeling as they told me not to do this anyway. I was counting down the days to get back home.
On day 3 I asked Dr Bora's assistant for my post op pictures (the ones they take in surgery) as my face was swollen and I had a nose cast on so I had no idea of how I was going to look. She sent them through and I felt physically sick! My nose looked like a nice nose but it was nothing like what I had before which freaked me out! My nostrils were a lot smaller but I think the main thing was my tip. My tip looked so so small. It was at this point I knew my changes would not be at all subtle so I was sh***ing myself as to how I was gonna have this convo with my family and friends and had to try and accept I would look like a completely different person which is not what I had planned for at all.
I still can't even look at the before and after pictures of my nose now because I cannot see hardly any similarities with my new and old nose so I know I will look like a completely different person once the cast comes off. Again, what kept me sane was the girls I met out there who kept calming me down or I honestly feel like I would have had a panic attack. After I saw those photos I felt even more down. I specifically said to Dr Bora I did not want a dramatic change and the change he gave me was definitely dramatic. I remember he said to me at that point that a lot of people who aren't happy with his work are people who ask for a subtle change, then complain that it's too subtle once they see their new nose. I reassured him that I would not be complaining about anything being too subtle but he kind of shrugged the comment off at my consultation (not sure if he understood me).
Up until cast off day I rarely had any pain. Still didn't feel 100% but wouldn't say I was in pain. I kept taking my painkillers twice a day and made sure to use the Nasal spray as much as possible. Didn't eat much as I couldn't taste or smell with my splints in and stayed in and around the hotel. I was just very uncomfortable and emotionally traumatised. Nobody hardly ever talks about post surgery blues but it is real!. I am not an emotional person at all. I am always the strong one and the shoulder to cry on so the fact this affected me so much was scary. Be prepared and dont think this will all be a walk in the park, it's not! I would highly recommend going with somebody.