Wish I Never Did It

I wanted to do this for the immediate benefit of having my jowls reduced and improving my jaw line, and now I look worse than ever. The doctor told me I was a good candidate because my skin was so good. The jowls on my jawline weren’t bad, just something that bothered me and I thought this would be a good thing to do to simply ‘tweak’ things. And after all the glowing reviews, I thought why not give this “non-surgical” procedure a try.
The short of it is that I now have a terrible scar under my chin, tingling and soreness along my jawline, uneven jawline, sunken areas, jiggly neck skin AND still have pin pricks and discoloration all over my neck 5 WEEKS LATER.
I have been so scared, but thought I would be patient. I wore the compression garment religiously and took all the antibiotics. I should also say that I am kind of a health nut and stay away from sugar and alcohol, drink plenty of water and take supplements. So after finding nothing online of anyone having the same issues and weeks of fear that I have permanently damaged my skin, I finally called for a follow-up visit. I was told ‘yeah some people get this reaction to the microneedling. It should go away”. Oh and I should put some scar removal cream on the puncture scar under my chin.
Well, I now not only look older, but it is also super obvious to anyone that I had a procedure done and gone wrong because the pattern of the grid marks on my jawline and neck are so apparent. So was this worth it? No, I would rather have the fat.
I feel stupid for being vain and wanting to make myself feel better by fixing something that bothered me. I feel stupid for wasting so much money. I feel embarrassed and destroyed. Instead of feeling more confident, I just want to hide.
I will attach current pictures of my jaw and neck as of right now when I am writing this, exactly 5 weeks post procedure. After reading all the happy reviews and comments about how great they look 48 hours later and here I am like this, and no information about this kind of adverse reaction anywhere on the internet, I feel compelled to share these images. So that anyone else out there who has the same experience doesn’t feel as alone as I do.

Just so hard to show you how bad this microneedling Morpheus 8) is so I am adding a shot of my neck from the night before the procedure and what it looks like today, 38 days later. Between the raised texture, the pin pricks and the discoloration (hard to show in the pics but in broad daylight it looks like chopped meat) all I can do is cry and hide.