41 , 3 Kids , Liposculpture

Hi girls .. whoever is reading if there is anyone reading this as I only got two brief comments since I started writing .
I am feeling so down and have a lot of regrets . I don't know if this is a result of a miss communication with my doctor or my own greed to have it all!
As I have mentioned before my problem was lack of proportion between my upper and lower body . I had a small torso to begin with all my life and bigger hips . I was lucky that I kept a decent weight till lately where I started to get alarmed over the weight gain so I gained some in my stomach and flanks but still not much on my upper torso .
I thought removing my hips or outer thighs would do it and that is what I aimed for and I had said that tot my doctor several times and he still took more from my upper body than lower .. although body contour looks better overall , the proportion issue is still the same . I lost some weight lately thinking it will improve my lower section but I feel It showed more on my upper body rather than down and this is freaking my out . And of course the irregularities on my stomach are killing me . Do you think my surgeon can fix the proportion again . Can he send some fat back up ?

Sorry I forgot to add some photos but in real it looks worse .

I don't know where to start but I just can't hold me tears .
I can't believe I did this to myself .
I only wanted better proportion and was mainly bothered by my hips .. I initially only wanted to get rid of that and when I took the step finally I saw 3 doctors and they all started pointing at my stomach and flanks before addressing my hips .. having heard it from 3 doctors I thought that was the thing to do and it comes with it .
Right after surgery I had soooo much pain especially in my stomach and sides and wished I had only gone with the hips and I was right even though it was so early then .
Now I am sure I should have followed my units instinct. Too late for that now .
I followed al the instructions religiously .. I paid for 4 velashape 3 sessions and 4 coaxmed ( last two were free) .I wore the garment for over 2 moths 24/7 . I started massages as was told and I am getting professional focused ones now .
My doctor is very nice and open to do a retouch for free but he says he didn't have to de much in the past as it rarely happened with 'his hands' as he says .
Well I was told he was good that is why I went to him .
I just hate to have to go through it again. My recovery was already very painful .
And my hips are not as small as I have wished for . My PS, Dr. Mazen offered to do the whole retouch for free and tried to calm me down that all will be ok .
He says he had one similar case and after the retouch she was much better and happy .I can't keep the positive attitude anymore especially after reading a lot of RS about cases that can't be resolved barely only improved . I am also confused as seems some doctors are not sure whether the lumps are dead fat or remaining fat or fibroids or scars !! I will continue aggressive massage .. it might improve (I hope ) but the. If question is : Since it seems I will eventually need a retouch shall I wait the 6 months as most doctors recommend or do it after 3 or 4months ?
I hope someone is hearing me on this platform and has some thoughts or experiences to share with me and help me .