415cc HP Silicone Breast Augmentation

It’s been about a year a half (couple months past) since my breast augmentation. No issues. No pain. My implants are still pretty firm (previous breast tissue was firm before also). My only regret is we went too big. Not often do I hear of people saying that either, but in my case it’s unfortunately true. When I went in for sizing, the nurses had all of my inspiration pictures that left them saying to me “you should go as big as your limit size, because ultimately people come back saying they want bigger”. I 110% wish I went smaller. I wanted moderate profile as well and had expressed that I did not want the ball, fake looking implants. But because my chest area was so small and narrow, they said it would look unnatural on my body- it made sense. I don’t regret the surgery, but I regret the sizing. I do wish I loved my body the way it was before. That’s something that runs through my mind often when I see old pictures but then again would I have been happy with what I had? Would I have regret NOT getting them done? It’s a pretty tough mindset to have. The attention I get towards my femininity is so hard to get used to (towards my boobs). I FEEL the eyes- be ready ladies lol. I don’t regret getting the procedure done but I do regret the sizing. All in all, I am happy with how everything else has turned out. Again, no pain, no numbness (I do find my nipples are more sensitive?), and scarring is almost completely gone.

Made it to week 10! Holy heck. Every morning I literally wake up and go “oh my god I have boobs”- this is no joke. I do get freaked out sometimes because they are still foreign to me but then I look back at pictures when I had my small boobs and remember how badly I wanted this. I’ve noticed my boobs dropped a ton. They do protrude out further than I’d like, making me think should I have gone smaller? They are still way harder than normal. I do my massaging religiously to get these babies to drop quicker. I haven’t updated in a bit about the dr appointments but I’m on a stand still. I am not happy at all with their aftercare appointments. They didn’t reschedule me in for any further appts after they MISSED my week 6 appt and haven’t talked to them since, so what the f??i feel like a slab of meat, they just quickly wanted me off the table- they got their money and now I’m not a care in the world. I have emailed them 5 times and NO REPLIES. I left a voicemail yesterday because this is f’ing ridiculous. Post care is the most important I feel? Even thought everything is “looking” fine, I never got the “ok” to workout, not checked for capsular contraction, so many questions to ask and I feel I have no doctor to talk to. A friend of mine got her surgery done by Dr Haywood and she has gone above and beyond for aftercare appointments- even when things are looking “just fine”. My nipples are still sensitive and numb. I haven’t gained full feeling yet. There’s little areas here and there on my boobs I can’t feel either but I still get those painful nerve endings trying to spark up so hopefully we get some feeling soon?! I have noticed when I go to reach for something across from me and my boobs move when my arm reaches, it hurts- like uncomfortably. Not sure if it’s from my sensitivity still or what but it doesn’t feel good. Sleeping on them is painful sometimes too. My scars look darker now (which i was warned that this will happen at my last appointment). I’ve been using scar cream when I can. Also too, when I go to reach my arms up completely, I can feel my muscle stretching (near my armpit) that it’s still actually sore when I go in that position. It feels like I did a hard chest day and the soreness won’t go away. I used to workout 5x a week, I was a gym rat and did cardio alllll the time. I’ve been to the gym a total of 10x since my surgery 10 weeks ago because I still feel very limited. And all I had been doing is cardio I have not touched a single weight since before surgery. I think I’m worried if I use too much of my chest muscle that something will happen? When I flex, my implants (chest muscles) are SO hard it’s unexplainable lol. It just feels so weird it makes me nauseous sometimes hahaha. Please tell me this isn’t just me. To put my last couple weeks since my last review in summary, not much has really gone on. Besides getting frustrated with the lack of communication my surgeons office has offered. Just experiencing the boob life and keeping an eye on changes that happen slowly too. My friends love them and now want them. I was ready for the judgements I was going to get but there has been none (said to my face anyway lol), which makes me that much more confident!! At first when I had them I was like oh god now I’m the girl with fake tits. But it’s not like I’m flaunting them and showing off to the world like most do. I did this for my confidence and to just have some god damn feminine BOOBS ffs. Sometimes I do get upset thinking about my outfits with smaller boobs and the ultimate anxiety of “oh shit I f’d up”. But really, I wanted this so bad for so long. Again, it was a good decision on my end. Still navigating how to put these puppies away in my little tops that I own but heck, I feel like a woman. I will say they look great but if my surgeon could check in that would be greatly appreciated on my end as this is NOT 5 star aftercare service to patients.

We are at 7 weeks tomorrow and holy heck has it flown by. They have dropped significantly and I’m finally able to lay on my stomach when sleeping. I actually forget I have them most of the time. I do get strong pains from time to time it feels like a weird cramp in my boobs lol but I assume it’s still nerves trying to come back. I was supposed to have an appointment with my surgeon over the phone (since I live far away) last week and they never called? I reached out and they still haven’t returned any calls/emails so I’m unimpressed with that. I was supposed to get cleared to workout but I’ve just been going to the gym and doing cardio workouts. Guess I have to clear myself? Lol. Not sure where to go from here with my appointments but I am ultimately happy with how they look and feel. Getting squishier by the day and aren’t as “stuck” looking either.