37, 2 kids, mommy makeover on 12/28/17

I am 37 years old, single mom of 2 awesome kids who are in middle school/elementary school.
I am 5’5, weigh 130lbs & workout 3-5 days a week.
I breastfed both my children for around 13 months.
I bounced back from pregnancy #1, despite a huge weight gain- went from 110lbs to 160lbs... but worked it off in a year & my body looked great except the boobs. but #2 was a bigger baby & my skin lost all its elasticity.
Just like so many of you mamas out there- no amount of diet & exercise will flatten my stomach.
I have muscle separation (level 2 I think) & I am sooooo sick of sucking my stomach in.
My boobs totally depress me, they’re just empty bags of skin that point so far down.
I have wanted this surgery for 7 years now & I have finally saved up the money to pay for it in full by myself - which was my “rule” for not feeling guilty about doing this.
I 100% financially support my kids & their needs & our family unit come first.
I’ve had 5 consultations & finally found a doctor that I feel understands what I want.
I really like that she’s a woman.
I am going to be undergoing a full tummy tuck with muscle repair, a breast lift plus implants.
I have not decided on actual CC size yet but I do not want a much larger cup size. Nothing bigger than a C. I’m a small B presently. But a lot of that is skin which will go with the lift.
I would really like small high perky boobs that are round & with a much smaller nipple.
I go back & forth day to day from being so excited to being sick to my stomach with nerves. I am afraid of the TT scar being jagged, wide or becoming infected & I’m also somewhat unsure about implants & have thought about lift alone but I don’t have much breast tissue left.
That being said, I have posted my first two photos and i really do not want to see this part of my body anymore. It doesn’t match with my toned arms & legs or how young & fit I FEEL.
My torso looks like it belongs to my 65 year old self.
Excited to finally join this forum & get some support. I’ve been reading reviews for years & can’t believe my day is coming up in less than 2 months

I read another Real Selfers post this week about how humbling it is to post these very vulnerable photos of ourselves.
For me I have appreciated so deeply the way women share their experiences here as it’s been a huge deciding factor for me in taking the plunge on this surgery.
So thank you ladies!

I’ve gone back a few times & looked at my photos I posted here and honestly cringed, it’s interesting, I didn’t realize how much my body has gone through and how poorly it matches the rest of me.

Although y’all can’t see my face I’d say I’ve aged very well, I don’t really have much in the way of wrinkles and I’m very young in spirit, which is a lot of it in my opinion, so I’ve been lucky in the face area, less lucky in my body... my own mother who had 2 babies & breastfed us both says she can’t figure out who I got my post baby body from ????!!! Hahahaha

So today I got back on my intense workout regime, did HITT at the gym with my trainer, weighed in at 120lbs, think this is due to slacking in the gym, due to recent bout of flu both of which lost me body mass & muscle mass. I am usually between 125-130
Determined to be in excellent shape by my surgery date. I am hoping it will aid in recovery & results.... does anyone else think this has helped them?

Posting my wish pics here too!

I talked to a good friend today who has had a lower body lift and deeply regrets it. Her scars are intense and she said she didn’t want to put me off but also wants me to be prepared because we all scar differently etc.
For me, my hip bones are a part of my body that I really love (along with my arms, legs and butt lol— gotta give a shout out to the parts I do like!!)... so getting a big scar right across my hip bone is not something I’m finding it easy to come to terms with. Has anyone else struggled with anything like this?
I also have another question: for you post TT women out there... do you feel your doc was able to get the scar beneath the pantie or bikini you showed them?
I took my photos in a very typical for me bikini, I wear ‘em pretty skimpy but suck it in HARD.
I had to really reset my mind to let it OUT. Amazing how hard it is to just relax and let my belly hang even when I am home alone.
Again. So humbling to take these kind of candid photos.