Feeling regret and guilt 8 months post op....Help!
- Toronto, ON
- Last updated: 1 year ago
I decided to post this as I feel I needed some insight/support from my fellow Real Self community....
I am 8 months post op and still feeling a sense of regret. I am a very healthy person; I work out, eat right, etc, etc, and I often think about what I did to my body...like "how could you ever put your body through this surgery?" I relate negative things that I'm feeling to the PS surgery, like my upper back hurts more than ever, I'm more moody and even more withdrawal in general. I don't know if this is normal and will it eventually subside? I would like to know what you fellow ladies have experienced in the same amount of time (give or take).
I have to admit my breasts do look beautiful. My PS did a great job; they are perky and portioned to be body - they look natural for sure. Prior, to the surgery, I was toggling back and forth between 325cc and 345cc. I ended up deciding on the 345cc cause the general consensus is if you can't decide between two sizes, go bigger. Well, I wish I didn't. For me, I feel they are a little bigger than what I wanted. I have to buy bras with no padding, as I don't want to look huge. I'm constantly looking at smaller chested woman whether on the streets or on TV, thinking that their small boobs look great, why did I ever do what I did? I find I don't dress the same anymore; I'm more aware of EVERYTHING I put on, as to not accentuate my chest. It's a constant struggle daily, to be honest. I've resided myself that I will give it one year and if I'm still struggling with this, I will just get them removed....hoping that my skin will not be too stretched and that my boobs won't look horrible :(I did discuss this with my PS when I last visited him. He said to give it some time, that what I'm experiencing is like post-pardum depression, and should go away with time....I would love to get some feedback....Is this normal? Will this sense of regret and guilt go away? Is anyone else feeling this way? What did you do/how did you deal with the emotional aspect of this surgery? Am I going crazy?