My surgery is two weeks away and I’m so nervous! I was on the border for needing a lift but wanted to avoid the scars if at all possible so my PS suggested we first do a sub-fascial implant, wait six months, then reevaluate if a lift is still needed.
My ideal size would be only a C cup or even just stay the bra size that I’m at, but I really just want to fill up the skin I have. Before kids I was a perky D cup and after nursing them now they are still a D but no upper pole, just a bunch of skin sitting in my bra. Not cute!!
My biggest anxiety about the surgery right now is the size. PS ordered 350, 400, and 450 moderate plus xtra silicone for the day of, but I really am afraid of being too big. I don’t want to look all beefy up top like I did when I was just recovering from having a baby!! But I’m also concerned that too small of an implant when I have so much boob tissue to fill will give the rock in a sock vibes. Before photos are added!
Updated on 9 Jun 2022:
I am honestly nervous about winding up with huge bulging breasts. I’m going to ask my surgeon to start with the smallest/most conservative, and only go up if it’s not filling my breast envelope enough. Sometimes I feel like maybe I should have just done the lift and gone with a reduction and a small implant, but I really wanted to see if I’d get decent results with just an implant and avoid all the nipple scars.
Maybe in a few years especially if they are to heavy and dropping like crazy I’ll go back for a revision and do the whole shebang then. But for now, we will see!
Updated on 13 Jun 2022:
Can’t stop wearing my rice sizers around the house. I really prefer the feel/weight of the 350cc, they feel so much lighter to me than the 400 or 440. But I’m feeling like my PS will likely have to go bigger to fill me up.
It’s so hard to find before and after photos of patients who look like me before!
Updated on 15 Jun 2022:
Dreamt last night one boob wound up giant and the other little. Anxiety has arrived
I just ordered 3 zip front bras from SheFit for post op, my PS hasn’t even mentioned needing these or anything yet so I’m just doing so proactively based on reviews I’ve read here. Can anyone share what was helpful to you post op? Ie- high support bras 24^7 for the first week or something softer?
Updated on 20 Jun 2022:
I had my pre operative marking appt this morning. I was so nervous and overwhelmed with emotions I actually cried at my visit and then felt silly- my surgeon was very gentle and reassuring in that moment for which I was grateful.
It’s hard to love yourself and your body especially after having kids!! I’m hoping this goes great and afterward I have restored confidence being naked in front of my husband.
He marked me planning for the 405cc but said he will go the next size up if he feels during surgery that my tissue requires it.
Updated on 21 Jun 2022:
I had to pick up 5 prescriptions which feels excessive. 2 are prophylactic steroid to help prevent capsular contraction, two heavy duty pain meds oxycodone and Valium, one diflucan preventative from antibiotic, and also some colace. I started the colace, diflucan and one of the steroids this morning as directed.
Switched my gel nail polish to clear gel and stocked the house with groceries for the kids last night. Going to wash bedding and get my house and laundry all caught up today, shower and wash hair tonight. Tomorrow is the big day!
If you’ve been following along you know I’ve been really anxious over the size. I would like to be smaller, afraid of waking up huge and “augmented” looking. I haven’t told anyone except my husband and mom about this surgery so I don’t want it to be obvious to anyone. But then I worry that I’ll go too small and then look like a rock in a sock.
I gave my PS my blessing to use whatever sizer looks best in my pocket during surgery and I’m trusting him with that. He will only go up in size if my tissue requires it/is still dropping.
But something I read here yesterday that I found super helpful and wanted to share with others who may be anxious about their size choice is this. A PS asked “if you woke up in recovery looking too small, or too big, which would be more disappointing for you?” Then choose your size, between the smaller and larger option, accordingly.
Updated on 22 Jun 2022:
I’m out on the other side! He went with 405cc after all and I’m thrilled with them. Already love how they look. Recovery has been a little harder than I anticipated but I’m on my pain meds and comfortable now. Will write a more detailed update in the morning!
Updated on 23 Jun 2022:
Okay I know I’ve been out of surgery for like 15 hours but I am so excited already. My left is sitting a bit higher and blockier than the left right now, I can feel underneath where the implant needs to drop down to fill in the lower pole more but I’m hoping that will come in time.
I got to the OR around 12:30 on an empty sick stomach which was exacerbated by nerves and wound up waiting over an hour to get my IV started. I was so nervous I was almost convulsing just dying to get knocked out already.
Surgeon and anesthesiologist came back to see me and say hello, both were very kind and the anesthesiologist even a bit funny trying to calm my nerves. My nurse Jo was an Angel among us I swear.
They brought me back and asked what sort of playlist I wanted to hear in the OR haha. Before I knew it I was out and waking in recovery.
Waking was sort of hard. I wanted to open my eyes and talk but it’s like I couldn’t do it. Took me two hours in recovery before I was up to walking. The drowsiness on the drive home was the worst but I got home and took a pain pill and was able to sleep comfortably, better on my side than my back.
This morning I’m nothing but a bit sore but am up and around, did my hair and makeup and dressed myself. Feeling great. I already tried on one of my existing bras- 36D and it fits which I’m thrilled with. I got exactly what I wanted- fuller, not BIGGER.
Though naked they sure do look so much bigger.
If anyone has questions fire away :) Thanks anyone whose been following and encouraging me. I had a few moments the past few weeks of worrying that this wasn’t right for me but im so happy I did it
Updated on 23 Jun 2022:
They feel rock hard and high, I’m hoping as the lower pole fills out as they drop I’ll get a tad more nipple lift. But I’m super happy so far since I was borderline for needing a lift.
I haven’t had to take any pain medicine at all today, but I’m sure I will tonight just to sleep more comfortably. Day 2!
Updated on 25 Jun 2022:
I finally slept comfortably last night, though my incisions ache, specifically the left side which is still sitting higher than the right. I think the size is perfect and I’m actually a little nervous that as they “drop” they’ll be too small to fill in my skin fully.
I feel 95% normal, just the aching incisions especially when I try to lift. It feels like a bad bruise in the IM fold and on my ribs.
I’d really like this left side to drop down so it matches the right so I can stop worrying that it never will lol. Last night I iced and massaged the left side, doesn’t look any different today. Although they are starting to feel soft and squishy already.
I’m amazed that I can’t tell the difference when I feel around in where my natural tissue ends and the silicone implant begins.
So far the results look very natural, especially with clothes on
Updated on 26 Jun 2022:
Not much change today. Still quite sore at incision site on the left site and also doesn’t appear to have dropped at all. Trying to be patient!
My skin and nipples are numb also, which I forgot to mention in my previous updates. I have sensation on the tops above but nipples and below are totally numb.
Post op checkup is Thursday so I’ll try to check in for PS’s opinion on their healing and position and update after!
Updated on 27 Jun 2022:
No changes yet! Trying to stay patient. Waiting for the diva boob (lefty) to drop down more to round out at the bottom to match righty. It’s not super noticeable except the upper pole is much more full at the moment.
I wish the right had the upper pole that the left did, I like the firmness. But waiting for the left to have the round lower pole the right does. Basically wondering if I’ll should have gone bigger hahahaha who would have known it’s possible to stare at your boobs several hours a day. All I know is I’m still happy with how much better they look for now, they’re not perfect still a work in progress but I enjoy looking at them and checking on them whenever I get a chance haha.
I feel like my nipples look a little larger and lighter than typical too?! Maybe it’s bc I’m numb yet and they can’t get hard. We will see!
Updated on 28 Jun 2022:
I slept like a rock last night on nothing but ibuprofen, on my side too which was sooooo needed. So I’m officially done taking any painkillers- I can’t say they ever did much for me anyway as I was never really in pain other than that soreness at the ribs and incision area. That’s improved today- it only feels sore now if I try to push the girls together or massage too hard.
Lefty still being a diva and sitting sort of high, maybe dropping a tiny bit but still not enough to tell a big difference.
Today my steritape strips over the incisions are starting to itch and I’m excited to get them taken off Thursday to see the incision and relieve this itching feeling.
I finish up my round of prophylactic antibiotics tomorrow and continue the other two another week or two I think but they aren’t causing me any side effects so that’s easy peazy. I just take them first thing in the morning.
I feel a bit more sensation coming back in my skin and nipples too so that’s exciting!
I’m so amazed at what this has done for my confidence. It’s such a good feeling to look in the mirror before I hop in the shower and not feel like “I wish…” I love my kids with all my heart and I’d do it all over again a thousand times over, but being done having kids and doing things for myself again feels so liberating. Highly recommend!
Updated on 1 Jul 2022:
Follow up went well, PS said the high side should drop with time. It looks better today, maybe she’s finally working her way down into the pocket a bit more.
Again, just so happy with the size. I’ll add photos in a sports bra in case anyone finds it helpful- in my “boob research” I feel like they always look much bigger naked than they do clothed!
Updated on 3 Jul 2022:
A week and a half out and I feel great. A bit of soreness in the left incision still, but all feeling is returned to nipples and lower pole. Even heightened sensitivity of nipples I’d say- almost sunburn feeling at the end of the day if material is rubbing too much.
Updated on 8 Aug 2022:
Sorry it’s been a minute. Things have been going well- incisions stopped with the aching/sore feeling around week 4. Also the side that was riding a bit high dropped around week 4/5. Started “spitting sutures” around week 3/4 but that’s all gone now and it was only 2 which I had my husband clip off with nail clippers.
I still am completely numb below the nipple on the lower pole of both breasts. I won’t be bothered if feeling never returns, my nipples and above and on the sides have full sensitivity again so the bottom is only strange when I intentionally feel around.
I sometimes wonder if I should have gone larger for a wider diameter to further fill my breast envelope, but that’s me nitpicking because I really am happy with them. They look and feel so natural to me that I feel like I’ve always had them and even forget what I had before, until my husband shows me an old picture pre-op and I’m like WHOA! I was flat and saggy simultaneously.
Scars are pretty dark looking but very flat and smooth at this point and I stopped taping them at 5 weeks. My surgeon didn’t recommend any further prophylactics or scar treatment other than time and I officially got the green light to swim and work out again.
Not sure I’ll continue to update at this point but I’m happy to answer any questions anyone might have!