Night before my breast augmentation. I am going in the morning at 11:00. Took the Valium that I was prescribed; not working. I can’t sleep. I’m scared as hell, and I have been asking all my friends and family who have theirs what it’s like. I am told it’s painful and I hate the unknown. I’m a control freak. I feel very out of control. My sister is staying with me, and everything is set up for the kids. Tomorrow is so close now. I am also on suboxone and have decided to not take any so I can feel my pain medication. Hoping I didn’t go too big. I decided on 480cc after originally going from 535cc down. I’m very thin and small framed, so I was worried I would look off. It’s 1:40am and I go for surgery at 11:00 am, technically today. I don’t know if I will be able to sleep. Nervous, scared, and more. More emotions than I can keep track of at the moment.... wish me luck.
Updated on 2 Jun 2018:
Everyone is a liar. Worst pain ever. Feels like I have two knives in me and tore a muscle. There is no elephant on my chest, there is just horrendous pain. When I try to stand up it hurts, being in the car hurts. I feel no pain in incisions or pressure. Just excruciating muscle tearing pain. The muscle relaxers and Percocet are working wonders though. I been craving smoothies, and milkshakes like crazy. Jamba Juice!!! Pretty much slept the day away. The band that pushes them down hurts the worst, I want to take it off so bad but I know I can’t.
Updated on 13 Jun 2018:
Pain has been gone since about day 6. Feeling good. Didn’t really need any meds after that and started weening down from day 4 anyways. I’m super depressed about the size now. I feel as though I shouldn’t have even done it. I feel when I wear shirts I look the same as my push up bras before. I wanted to have big boobs, not just some boob. So now I have pretty much the same size I had before just now perkier. I had a C before I had my daughter, down to a deflated B after, to looking like a big C now. I donated all my bras and now I’m thinking that was a bad idea. Not excited at all.
Updated on 13 Jun 2018:
Still very sore in my right breast. Zero pain in left. Called doctor and they said it’s normal. I was concerned because it’s not getting better and because I can squeeze my left with no issues. But when I squeeze my right it hurts and it’s just sore throbbing.
I feel very big today and happy with them until I put them in bra and shirt. Then you can’t tell I got my boobs done. Which is upsetting again.
I can tell they are getting softer but they aren’t dropping or fluffing yet. Was told they get bigger when they drop and fluff, so looking forward to that. Talked to PS about going bigger and he said let’s wait until I heal and then we will talk. So I’m taking his advice.