Ever since I started developing at age 9, I’ve been mortified of my breasts. I remember laying in bed and feeling my sore chest, confused by the hard discs that had appeared. Too embarrassed to go to my mother, I consulted askjeeves on the family’s Windows ‘95 and found that I had sprouted “breast buds.” Horror. By the 5th grade, my chest had become noticeable enough to warrant wearing a training bra; I felt ashamed and coveted my peers’ lack of development. Flash forward to 8th grade, I fill out my small chested 19 year old sister’s bikini top better than her... I probably wore a C or D cup and began to worry that I may grow to the size of my very well endowed older cousin. Throughout high school, finding clothes that would accommodate my DDD chest and fit my size 4 frame became a challenge. I hated my boobs— it was around this time that I heard of breast reduction; I saw it on an episode of a docuseries called “My Surgery Story.” I knew that one day, I wanted to get one. They continued growing.By my sophomore year of college, I had developed back problems and began seeing a chiropractor regularly. The idea of a breast reduction became more and more appealing but seemed like an unobtainable dream. Now, at 29, clocking in at a whopping 30JJ (which is impossible to find, so I settle for a 34I), the physical and emotional toll has become too much to bear any longer. I experience chronic back, neck and shoulder pain which forced me to leave my job as a massage therapist. I avoid shopping at all costs and try to hide my boobs in baggy t-shirts. I know that this surgery will provide a better quality of life and it’s all I can think about. I had a consultation with a plastic surgeon a week ago and am waiting for approval from my insurance company. I’ll write about that experience soon!
Updated on 28 Mar 2018:
So, it’s been 8 days since my consultation and I just received a call from my insurance today that I’ve been approved!
A little about my consult and what was sent to my insurance:
My surgeon went through a list of symptoms with me and I told him which ones I’ve been experiencing; which included neck and shoulder pain, shoulder indents, rashes under the boobs, breast heaviness, difficulty participating in physical activities, poor posture and tingling in my hand. I also mentioned that it affected my work as a massage therapist. He asked if I’d ever seen a chiropractor or physical therapist (for at least 6 months) and I gave him the name of my chiropractor. He also asked about any pain medication (even over the counter), and I told him that I’ve used tiger balm (a topical analgesic). He sent all of this info to my insurance, along with photos he took, my measurements, his findings, and records he got from my chiropractor and primary care doctor. When he examined me, he said right away that I was a great candidate and should be approved; and if not, to appeal.
I was doubtful that I’d be approved (especially so quickly!), since it seems like insurance companies always try to do all they can to avoid paying for anything. The financial aspect of this, and not having insurance that would cover the cost (when I called last year they said they don’t cover breast reductions under any circumstances) has been a hurdle in my mind for so long. It’s a major reason this has always felt unobtainable, like a “maybe someday” dream put on the back shelf. So, this is good! It’s surreal that I’m actually closer to reaching that dream.
Updated on 30 Mar 2018:
I got a call from the plastic surgeon’s office yesterday to schedule my surgery! Their first availability was June 27th, though they asked if I wanted to wait until September (my referral expires mid-September) since I wouldn’t be able to go swimming for at least 6 weeks or until they’re fully healed. I took the first slot and asked if I could reschedule if I change my mind. They said absolutely, and they’d let me know if anything opens up sooner. Now, I just have to make sure that date doesn’t conflict with my work schedule and tell my boss my plans. I’m not sure how to bring it up... I feel awkward. I’m a chiropractic assistant and I just started this past January. Hopefully, being a chiropractor, he’ll understand the physiology and won’t be phased. I guess I don’t even have to specify what kind of operation I’m having. Well, that’s all for now!
Updated on 13 Apr 2018:
When I originally scheduled my surgery, they said they’d call if there were any cancellations earlier— well, that day has come :) My surgery is now scheduled for May 25th! I’m so happy. Now, I’ll be able to enjoy some of the summer with smaller boobs for the first time since high school! Can’t wait to wear and do whatever I want. I’m planning on taking 3 weeks off work (my job is moderately physical) and perhaps going on light duty for a few weeks after that. I feel so fortunate— it feels like everything in my life has aligned to allow or this to happen. Yippee!
Updated on 30 May 2018:
So, I’m on day 5 post-op. Today, I got a sponge bath and got dressed in “real” clothes. I’m feeling a lot less sore and better in general. Yesterday, I was awake a lot more than days prior and taking less pain meds; so I was starting to feel uncomfortable laying down so much but not really comfortable to be up, either. Today, it feels good to be out of bed and moving more. I’ve been staying at my parents’ house and my mom has been very attentive, so I’m very grateful to have her taking care of me. Yesterday, I drained 30 & 35 ml total, and today I’ve drained 5 & 10 ml. I have a follow-up appointment with my surgeon on Friday, so I’ll probably have my drains removed then. Well, I think that’s all for now.
Updated on 1 Jun 2018:
I got my drains out yesterday and was able to shower today, so I got my first up-close look. My left breast is more swollen than my right and is feeling tender to the touch; particularly on the top. I put a call in to my plastic surgeon because I was worried I might have a hematoma. They asked if I could see any fluid moving around when I press on it, have a fever, have redness spreading over the breast or if it’s gotten more swollen since my follow-up yesterday. Besides a little pinkness, my answer was no; so they reassured me that it sounds normal and that I looked good yesterday. I’m going to keep an eye on it and call if I experience any of that. Anyway, here’s my post-op pics! I found out they took 680g from my left and 610 from my right.
Updated on 4 Jun 2018:
I feel like righty is catching up in swelling to lefty, and the incisions on left are a little red. The PA at my surgeon’s said it’s ok to sleep on my side now, so I have been the last couple of nights. Maybe I should switch to my back— could be why the right is swelling more.
Updated on 9 Jun 2018:
Feeling good, going back to work next week. I’m going to be working the desk for a week, then probably resuming my regular duties. Still a little tender in spots, and a little numb in others, but it’s not very noticeable. Also still swollen, but even if my boobs stayed exactly like this, I’d be happy. Just feel so good to have that weight off, and to be able to wear sports bras, and having my boobs swinging around down to my belly button!
Updated on 12 Jun 2018:
So, when I was taking my shower today, I peeled the glue off at the T junction and I think took some scabs with it. Does this look all right? The one with the black actually still has a scab but I’m a little concerned because it looks like it may be a little... weepy, or just not very healthy, and kind of deep in there. I’m afraid they might get infected.
Updated on 2 Aug 2018:
Updated on 11 Oct 2018:
Ugggggghhhhh. Since surgery, I started having back pain again. I’ve gone back to my chiropractor on a bi-weekly basis for the last couple months. I figured my body still needed help since it had been under so much strain for so long, but now I think it’s because my boobs are still TOO BIG. I measured myself for a new bra, since I’ve only been wearing sport bras (I figured I might need more support)— I measure at a 30FF UK/30H US. It just came in and it’s too small! So disheartened. I am a lot smaller than I was, but even after getting almost 3 lbs. removed, I feel like I need another reduction.