Well ladies, I go in for a full TT with muscle repair and thigh tuck December 3rd. Goodness just a day away. I am terrified, excited, sick to my stomach, all of it mixed up. I am a single mother with 2 wonderful boys that have lots of extra needs. I have spent years caring for them, at the cost of neglecting myself. A spinal cord injury in 2006 while pregnant left me pretty messed up. Spending so much time in and out of a wheelchair, unable to move around made things worse. I had a gastric by-pass in 2005. So when the accident happened and I put nearly all the weight back on broke in pieces, I was really depressed. My baby was born with lots of challenges..but here and has the best smile ever. Through it all I managed to care for 2 boys, in a wheelchair, while my now ex walked out the door, and survived the surgeries to fix my back alone. Looking back I can't believe I got through it. So now that I have this wonderful opportunity to have a TT and Thigh Lift, why am I freaking out? Insurance, by a miracle is paying for this fully, so that is a blessing. But I am so scared. Well, I am moving forward and going to take care of my body. I have to remind myslef of all I survived and that I can do this too. I am sure along the way I will wonder"... why the hell did I do this again?" But in 3 months as spring approaches I am going to be so glad to have done it through the winter. Oh boy......just breathe is what I keep saying. I keep wondering, did I do enough, prepare enough food, clean enough, get enough stuff picked up...but something tells me I would feel that way no matter how far out I delayed things or how much I did to prepare. So.....here I go I hope to upload some photos before going in. Breathe...just breathe Updated on 5 Dec 2015: I will post more later for sure, but for now. I am up walking once an hour. The pain is still bad, gotta stay on top of the meds. Pretty weak but was able to fix some soup. More later, my head is foggy from meds......yes, it hurts everyone....it hurts