official B&A pix at 15 weeks post-surgery
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I am a 35 SAHM to 5 kids ages 2-14. I've worked my...
- 9 Jul 2012
- 21 days pre
I am a 35 SAHM to 5 kids ages 2-14. I've worked my butt off the past 6 months to lose 30 pounds and now am at 145 pounds with 13.5% body fat. No matter how much I do cardio/strength exercises (about 8+ hours a week) the saggy skin will not go away. I get skin infections from all the loose skin being stuffed into clothes. I "fake" it by wearing a girdle, sucking in my tummy and wearing 2 push up bras, yes two makes me look normal. After looking at hundreds of profiles I see only a handful that look worse than mine and they were clinically obese. The ones that look similar are all 50-60 year olds. Honestly, half of you look just fine and don't need any surgery (I honestly mean that in a complimentary way!) Maybe I think that just because of how awful I feel everytime I get out of the shower and see that full-length mirror. I just want to look normal again and feel the scars are a pretty good trade-off. We are in a financial position to afford the surgery without going into debt. My husband is somewhat supportive. Of course he'd like to spend the money on a Disneyworld vacation or something else. He doesn't care what size I choose. I hope to have a better marital intimacy after the surgery because right now I can barely muster the courage. 3 boobs or no boobs dear? I hate how I feel when he touches me and I shouldn't be thinking about that when we're simply trying to show love towards each other.
I am going going in for a breast lift, augmentation and a full tummy tucky. One of my breasts is a full size bigger than the other which also makes them lopsided or assymetrical and I have severe ptosis. My skin is thin on my torso so my PS recommended silicone unders. I thought the suggested size he gave me was too large and chose 275cc I think? We'll double check during the pre-op. I am currently an A
3 weeks to go - I should mention I found my doctor...
- 10 Jul 2012
- 21 days pre
Pre-op tomorrow. Super nervous since the payment...
- 24 Jul 2012
- 7 days pre
I'm going to miss cuddling with my babies. I'm going to miss working out. I'm going to miss sleeping in my bed on my side. I'm NOT going to miss the third boob hanging from my stomach. :)
Had my pre-op today and my husband came to OK the...
- 25 Jul 2012
- 6 days pre
My Reasons for Surgery:
1. Did the hard work losing 30 lbs. and skin didn't go back. Got down to 13.5% fat. I can suck it in all day but it doesn't change the fact it still hangs down when I bend over. At the end of the day I lose ab strength.
2. Infections in belly button because folds have to be squeezed into undergarments just to appear normal. Permanent wrinkles below belly button for the same reason.
3. When I raise my arms my breasts collapse like a burrito. I already have rippling when I bend over. 1-6 with 6 being the worst ptosis and I'm close to a 5. Snoopy syndrome and fallen areola that also needs to be fixed.
4. Out of 80 profiles I viewed only 3 looked worse.
5. Asymmetrical and different sizes, lopsided. Very difficult to find a bra that fits and stays on. Constantly adjusting bra throughout the day.
6. Affects my thoughts during intimacy. Worried about it for over a decade. No boobs or 3 boobs? Neither is attractive. Hate to be touched, feels revolting.
7. Rectus diastasis twice as bad as normal post-pregnancy tummies. I can see and feel the split indentation above belly button because of thin skin.
8. Short & Simple: I want my body back, I'm fine with keeping the stretch marks. Not going to wear a bikini ever. I just want to look and feel good for me first, and second, my husband, and nobody else. I hope for a better marital intimacy.
9. Just want to look and feel like a normal, average, proportionate woman.
10. People change their appearance: teeth whitening, braces, lasik surgery, make-up, hair color, padded bras. Surgery is just more expensive, riskier but lasts longer.
11. I don’t care what people think. I don’t feel vain for doing it. It feels more like a reconstruction to me. I just want to look good for my self-confidence.
12. Anything will look better than what I have now. I already feel somewhat deformed so my goals are realistic.
My Surgery Checklist: Toilet riser Shower...
- 26 Jul 2012
- 5 days pre
Silky, button-front PJs and yoga pants
Bed tray big enough for laptop
Pillows - lots!
Two compression garments so I can rotate and wear them 24/7 for at least the first month
Old, loose undergarments
Baby monitor so I can hear the kids & Cell phone so I can correct problems. :)
Schedule for babies since my older kids are taking turns being the "nanny" for $
Clean the house and get all laundry done
Massage and chiropractic care
Menu Plan for the month
Freezer dinner meals for a month and paper goods
Low sodium soup and crackers for me
Pineapple juice (supposedly helps with swelling)
Books to read
Movies to watch
Laptop for digital scrapbooking, journaling, back to school shopping, pinterest, FB, Realself :)
Portable phone and chargers
Prescriptions and OTC sleeping aid
Alcohol wipes for cleaning drains
Gauze/tape/pads (Hoping to get silicone sheets and scar-fade gel after wounds close up)
Antibacterial hand wash
Baby wipes to feel clean until I can shower
Heating pad for back pain
Camera to record progress
Lots of Patience and Sanity LOL
So today is Sunday afternoon and I go in Tuesday...
- 29 Jul 2012
- 2 days pre
I'm alive. Just woke up from the pain but it'll...
- 31 Jul 2012
- Day of treatment
Made it to my post-op appointment. (My doctor did...
- 1 Aug 2012
- 1 day post
Bonus: he saw I had a large mole in my armpit so he removed it for free! ;). Bonus #2 I only needed one drain. Yippee. We've drained twice so far and both times were 25cc. My husband has been more helpful than I thought he would so I must look like I'm in a ton of pain which is mostly true. My four hour pills only last 3 hours. Dr said I could shower but I'm too tired. Maybe in 2-3 days. The best part was going to sleep and waking up "a second" later. I was out and didn't even get a chance to dream.
One thing I missed on the list of items: an adult bib! LOL. I may pull out the baby's stroller and use it as a walker. He pulled me really tight.
I am 2 days PO and after taking my last oxycodone...
- 2 Aug 2012
- 2 days post
I made a schedule for the kids but all they want to do is watch TV and the baby tries to hang out in my room. We're in survival mode. Baby threw up last night which made me gag but my tummy said NO! Hurt so bad!!!!
Hardly draining at all so I'm sure he'll take it out at my one week appt. Yep, only 1 drain! My baby stole the turquoise socks from the hospital. They look like go-go boots on her. :)
I need that Tylenol now...
Day 3 po - I finally got a decent night's sleep. ...
- 3 Aug 2012
- 3 days post
I really, really, really want to shower!!!! :)
One side feels bigger than the other bit maybe it's just higher? Feels like I'm engorged. The tummy tuck is the worst pain though. The girdle feels 3 sizes too small. If I ever get out of it, I don't know how I'm going to get back in. At my preop the skin below my new bb was all squished together and I thought he gave me a vertical scar as well. He said no but also didn't say what to do about it??? My camera is still in my purse so I can't take pictures. I haven't been downstairs at all - just shuffling around my bedroom. Anyway, I would LOVE some tips as to how to get out and BACK IN to the binder. I need to get cleaned up today. Thanks ladies!
Ok I'm freaking out now. I was feeling gross so I...
- 3 Aug 2012
- 3 days post
So then I start unhooking the lower region and Oh No! I must have been drugged for the post-op cuz I don't remember having a second butt. It starts at the bb and just keeps going down to the stitching smile I've got. Is this normal????? Does it fill out and open later????? What am I supposed to do to fix that?!?!? H-E-L-P! I can't find anything that says this is common. Yuck. I need to ask my husband what the dr said and when I go back in.
I took pictures w/ my camera but now I'm too tired...
- 7 Aug 2012
- 7 days post
See? The post op picture shows the "second butt"...
- 8 Aug 2012
- 8 days post
Forgot to mention, I'm still hunched over - my...
- 8 Aug 2012
- 8 days post
I had to go shopping Monday since my husband...
- 10 Aug 2012
- 10 days post
So today is Friday, 4 days later, and 10 days po. I went out by myself in Spanx since my CG was in the wash. Shopped for a new bra and I am exactly the size I was hoping for (happy dance!). And it was on sale and I had a coupon. I wasn't tired or swollen when I got home. So it's officially "worth it" now! I was thinking on the way home we should do a bra-burning night (with our old bras). Sorry I'm a little giddy. What a difference a couple of days makes in recovery.
Hope everyone is healing well and having a great day!
Where has the time gone? I'm almost 6 weeks post...
- 9 Sep 2012
- 2 months post
At my 2 week appointment I was told to stop wearing my compression garment because of the vertical fold under my belly button. I was never very swollen anyway so it was kind of nice not wearing it and it helped to "heal" that fold problem. It looks like a scar but it's just darkened skin where it was squished. I still wear Spanx when I go to church and that's only because I want everything to be flat and smooth all around. Old habit I guess. My clothes fit better - I've actually had to take in some of my clothes and I've gotten lots of compliments. "Thanks, diet and exercise" I say, which is mostly true. I lost 35 pounds on my own but hid my saggy baggy elephant skin with Spanx and 2 push-up bras so I look the same on the outside. My waist is a little smaller only because my PS pulled me abs too tight. I still can't stand up straight and reach my arms straight above my head. I don't see myself going to yoga class ever again... does that stretch out again????
At 3 weeks I started jogging and biking. Jogging felt soooo weird. I felt like my hard, heavy boobs were super-glued to my bones. They don't bounce around. And my stomach felt tight too, it was weird and nice at the same time. My heartrate gets up really high, really fast so I took it easy the first week and tried not to go above 150. Normally I try to stay around 155. After week 4 I said "screw it" and did what felt good. Got up to 160 and felt high at 170 so I tried to stay around 160 after that. The first bike ride was rough - I could feel every single bump in the road. The second ride was better. The 3rd I tried to do my old ride and it felt great and oh yeah - my knees don't bump my stomach anymore! :) Last week I went out and was able to keep up with 2 guys. After the second stop light they said, "We can't lose you can we?" I kept behind them another 5 miles then they turned and I said goodbye and the guy said, "Hope we weren't going to slow for you!" That made my day. I'm back to my old speed and now I need to decide if I'm going to race this fall.
I went in at 4 weeks and was told that he pinned the bottom of my left breast too tight so it's not dropping and I WILL need to a revision to correct that because massage isn't doing it. You can see that in the pictures. I LOVE my right breast though, it's perfect. And my stomach is always pretty flat. I remember I used to be super flat in the morning and by afternoon I had a pooch. Now it's pretty flat ALL day long. Since my bb has finally healed I might try the marble trick since mine turned out super tiny - smaller than a newborn baby in my opinion. It's so nice to bend over and not have my stomach hang down. Hubby seems happy too.
Not looking forward to revision. I hated how it felt coming out of surgery, the recovery, the cost. Maybe I won't do it though - it may not be worth it. What do you ladies think? Honestly, would you do it? I need to discuss options with my PS when I go in at 3 months PO. I wish he could just give me a numbing shot and work on me in the office but I don't think that's an option. If I'm ever feeling down about my results I look at my pre-op pictures I realize, yes, it's better than before.
P.S. I ended up NOT doing the bra-burning. They were still pretty new so I'm going to donate them to a place like Goodwill.
Hi Ladies! Honestly I haven't had time to get on...
- 3 Dec 2012
- 5 months post
Honestly I haven't had time to get on here much. Life is busy with 5 kids. I'm back to my regular workouts and loving my new improved although not perfect body. As you can see from the doctor's before and after pictures, I didn't get perfect results but it's so much better than before. I have another couple of months to think about revision. It doesn't bug me that bad. I never planned to wear a bikini and the breast that won't drop is only noticable when I'm naked and the only person who sees that is my husband. It looks fine when I wear a bra and clothes. My belly button hole can barely fit a Q-tip in it but who needs a belly button? Luckily the darkened scar tissue makes it look a little bigger. I saw my friend's tummy tuck (she's 2 years post-surgery) and her scar is barely noticable! So excited for the angry red to go away. Ab work is still tough but the more I do it the better it gets. Married life is better because now I don't think about or worry about my body - I simply enjoy making love again and THAT is a good thing! More good news - I went to Dillards and got some new bras - Wacoal brand - 32DD. The D's were a little too snug. My ribcage is still 29 inches but that's what size feels good. I never believed in the fluff fairy till that day. :) And the day I saw my before and after pictures I almost cried. I remember sitting in my car thinking, "Do I open this envelope now or wait till I'm with my husband?" I opened it up and almost cried. I FORGOT how bad is was!!! Did you gals have that feeling? My husband saw them that night and was kind/cautious. He simply said, "That's quite the transformation." I'm so glad I did this! Thanks for all your help, advice and word of wisdom!
My consultation wait time was almost an hour. My one day pre-op was a walk-in but there was a short wait in the room for the PS. One week post-op was a 30 minute wait because he was late getting out of surgery. 4 week appointment was a 45 minute wait. Other than that my experience has been great.