Improving and very happy to be natural! - United Kingdom

My implant story began 16 years ago when I was 24...

My implant story began 16 years ago when I was 24 years old. I had always been small chested and longed for "normal sized" breasts. I never wanted to be big...just a B cup would have been perfect. Anyway, I saved all my wages and had my first operation. I ended up a C cup and was so happy. For the first time I was able to wear tight tops without stuffing my bra! I was really happy for many years until I heard on the news that my implants were toxic and had to be removed. They were soya bean oil (Trilucent). I was terrified at the time as I was pregnant with my first child. My GP refered me to a surgeon in 2005 and I had them replaced with silicone gel implants after my son was born. I was bigger after this operation and felt that they were too heavy for my frame. This feeling intensified as I had 2 more children. I've covered up my body for years now and have never worn the tight tops I would have worn if my breasts were smaller...how ironic....

Now to 2012...my 40th year...have had no problems with my implants...just a realisation that I'm ready to accept the "real" me. Surgery set for the 17th October...I'm really excited but really nervous about how I will look...I know I won't look anything like I did when I was 24, but I hope I still look normal for a 40 year old with 3 kids.

I'd really like to thank all the ladies who have posted on this site...you have all given me so much strength to do this. You all look so lovely. I wanted to post on this site so if, in the future, my daughters ever want implants, I can share my journey with them. x

you are going to feel great and look fabulous! three kids and you still look like that? mine would be on my knees!
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Ha, you're funny! :) Thanks for your comments....it gives me the extra push to go and do this....it's sooooo scary...I can't remember being small anymore and I'm really scared about the outcome!!!! Your boobs look great...big but great!! I'm sure they'll be a lovely shape after removal too! :)
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You will do just fine :) i got mine in at 24 and i will be 40 this year and i had mine removed a little over 2 months ago :) and i am super happy to be me again :)
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Less than 24 hours now and Im so scared!!!!!!!!!!...

Less than 24 hours now and Im so scared!!!!!!!!!! I really have no idea what to expect....totally flat??? concave???? droopy?????very droopy????? Not gonna change my mind though...it's something I really need to do. I always thought I'd just keep getting new boobs when the old ones got past their sell by date! I had visions of being really old and them still being there!!! Now that thought really scared me!!! So, whatever happens tomorrow I'll deal with it....Just been shopping and got box of chocolates, bottle of wine (can I have a small one after surgery!?!), new pyjamas, bra inserts (for when I'm healed enough!!) and some extra strong gaffer tape to hold me up just in case!!! xx

Just had my last long soak with the girls....it's...

Just had my last long soak with the girls....it's funny but they reminded me of floats as they bobbed on top of the bath water!!!! Did a scientific study of how much breast tissue I have left (ie. a squeezed and prodded round my boobs!!) and don't think I have any left!!!! Not that I had anything years ago...just hoped i might have now!! (My implants are "overs"so I presume all my breast tissue is on top of the implants but I can hardly feel any!!) Also, I'm sitting around in my dressing gown now and really noticing how uncomfortable I am without a bra. Just a real heavy, swinging feeling!!!
It's weird isn't it...I've just been thinking of how terrified I am aboout tomorrow and the feelings I had from 16 years ago came flooding back to me. The exact same feelings! I remember being 24 years old and very alone in my decision to have implants. I walked to the hospital myself (I needed fresh air!!) and I told no-one about my surgery. I even took my childhood teddy into the hospital with me for comfort!!! Fast forward 16 years....still no-one knows except my amazing husband....and you guys. Although I'm scared about tomorrow...I feel so much stronger than in 1996. To be honest if I'd found this site years ago I would have had them removed then...or possibly never had them implanted in the first place!! There's so many amazing women that have posted on here...I really don't feel alone this time...thank you all so much xx

Less than 5 hours and counting!!!!! Didn't sleep a...

Less than 5 hours and counting!!!!! Didn't sleep a wink last night!!!! And no coffee for breakfast...(School run without coffee?????)only water..............See you ladies on the other side!! xxx
Well, how are you? I've had implants since 1976! Got new ones in 2007. Really didn't want to replace them but was worried about by hubbies reaction. He passed away last yr. I don't really want to be a double D at 60, Dr. says that after 325 CC removal I will either be a B or C with the lift. Thinking about it. Want to be a C.
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I will be keeping you in my thoughts today!
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Thanks honey !
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Hi everyone, had op yesterday and all went well...

Hi everyone, had op yesterday and all went well until I looked at my breasts. I'm so depressed. I'm afraid I haven't the courage to post any pictures yet. I really don't want to scare anyone. I'm trying to find pictures of other ladies after explant who look as bad as I look but I can't. Basically, I have lost ALOT of tissue and they have formed an L shape. (like right angles!) My nipples look like they've been rolled upwards and look at the ceiling. A doctor (not my surgeon) who came to check on me actually said, "what did you go and do that for?" I feel so deformed and cried all last night. They're so bad I'm thinking I might need to have new implants fitted. That's the last thing I want to do but I look horrendous. I'm so sorry my story can't be a happy one. Please don't let it scare anyone contemplating an explant because most of the women on here look and feel amazing afterwards. Thank you for all your hugs and lovely messages. It's great to have people who understand. xx
Demi, I just read your story, sending many happy thoughts and wishing you better days as your body adjust. I did opt for a lift after my explant, because I thought I would be too deflated, but even with a lift, I felt just like you. It's a shock to see your big boobs gone, mine look rather boxy, the scarring is hideous looking right now, but I do feel soo much better, lighter, and free!! You did a wonderful, courageous thing for yourself, now allow your body to adjust, as your mind adjusts, everyday your breast will look a little better. Hugs to you, I will keep you in my thoughts xx
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Thank you annie, I'm starting to feel better now...lighter and free...hugs and healing to you xx
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Dear sweet Demi, I meant to write you BEFORE your surgery to wish you good luck & send white light for your healing. I am SO sorry you are feeling so low. I TOTALLY identify. If you read my story,you'll see I went through a similar experience after explant surgery. I am ALWAYS here for you to chat ANYTIME. I also did not post photos,but I do have some if you're interested in seeing them & to know YOU'RE NOT ALONE!!! Please stay in touch with me.
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First of all, a huge hug for everyone who has been...

First of all, a huge hug for everyone who has been leaving such lovely comments. I have been unable to reply firstly, because I was so upset I couldn't even come on here, and then, my account has been playing up and not allowing me to post. So I'm sorry about that...your comments have made me laugh and some have brought tears to my eyes. I wish we could all go out for a night out together...can you imagine!!?? I just wanted to say that I'm feeling more positive now and I'm seeing a change (for the better!) in my breasts every day. My breasts are smaller than last week (I'm only day 6 still) but they appear to be sorting themselves out alittle in terms of shape. I still have dents and folds and nipple problems but nothing a padded bra can't hide. So if you are having an explant soon please don't worry (like I did!!) as they do change every day...the girls on here tell me that all the time...and they're right!!! We all heal in our own time.... My husband has been so supportive and likes my new non-existant size! (I gave him a quick flash in dimmed lighting and when he wasn't wearing his contact lenses!!) I have been wearing a bit of padding but who cares....I look much better in clothes and can't believe how big the implants must have looked on my frame...So thanks again everyone...you are so wonderful and your helping me to be much more positive xxxx
Glad to hear your doing so much better :)
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Thanks Elle, it's gonna be a long journey!! how are you?x
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Hi Demi, I had mine taken out last Tuesday, and like you, I'm very glad I did. I feel more like me, and thinner too! However I too have issue with the shape at the moment. My right boob is falling into a great shape, however my left one has decided it wants an extra crease, where the plaster is over my stitches. I don't know if it was pit on too tight, byt it's almost creating a shelf, if you get my meaning. I've been looking on here to see if anyone had similar issues, and everybody's looked perfect straight after! So it's nice to know someone else is in my boat, and like you, mine are getting better each day! I daren't even take photos to post on here yet as they look so mismatched, so when they are better ill do some then! And I guess you're right, we all heal at different speeds! X
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Hi again, Inspired by the bravery of other women...

Hi again, Inspired by the bravery of other women on this site I have decided to take the plunge and post my explant photos. I couldn't bring myself to post them at first because they looked so bad. However, over the last 10 days they have got better so I want other women to see that they do start to improve given time.
I was so upset at first but now they look more "normal" (whatever that is!). They're very small, very flat and when I bend down they are definately not a pretty sight...but they are real and all mine...and I'm going to make sure I look after them from now on...xx

P.S The photos are more accurate when you click on...

P.S The photos are more accurate when you click on them (it's taken me a while to realise this!!?? xx
Demi you look great! :)
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Thanks preciosa! xx
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OMG DEMI! Haven't been on here for a while and your post op pics at 11 days show such a difference. You have a lovely, symetrical shape. Looking fab! XX
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Just wondered if anyone can help with this one.....

Just wondered if anyone can help with this one...One of my nipples faces down and is 'tucked over the top' the bottom of the areola. Hope that makes sense?? When I looked today (basically I have to lift my nipple up to clean underneath...I'm sorry that sounds awful) the skin colour of the areola (which is now hidden under the nipple)has changed from the normal brown to grey!! Does anyone know why?? It's quite worrying...I keep thinking the skin is dying and my nipple and areola is going to drop off!!!! x

Sorry typo.....nipple and areola ARE going to drop...

Sorry typo.....nipple and areola ARE going to drop off!!!
Not to beat a dead horse, but when is your next doctor appointment. If not soon, you should give him a call. But also, you are only about 2 weeks post op. Sounds like from every one else's experiences, these things change weekly! But I would definitely call the doctor.
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I agree with all the gals! Call & go see your Doc. Nothing to panic about...but find out FOR SURE what's going on.
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My nipples do the same but could be my caved in breast. I however would really worry about the color change. Call your doc!
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Hi all, thanks for your suggestions...I did call...

Hi all, thanks for your suggestions...I did call my doc and he said not to worry! (easy for him to say!!) He basically said to keep an eye on it and to call back on Monday if it doesn't improve. I wondered if my sports bra was to tight and pushing the nipple into the areola so I've tried "propping it up" with some gauze! He sort of shrugged this idea off but I feel like I want to try something!!! At what stage can you stop wearing these tight sports bras anyway....mine is VERY tight and I have indents on my shoulders and back!! I'm 15 days post explant now. Thank you, ladies xx
Boobies are looking fab now Demi!! I can't wait to be on the other side of healing now. I'm so impatient!! I don't even are what size I am at the end of it, just happy to have those awful things out of my body and be back to normal (albeit a lifted normal)!!
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Your story is wonderful--am sincerely hoping that you are filled with peace and joy! PS You look amazing in your pictures--and it looks like you're healing beautifully!
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Thank you, AmandaAgain, let us know how you are...hope everything went well! xx
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It's been just over 5 weeks since explant and...

It's been just over 5 weeks since explant and things are looking better! Nipples aren't perfect but learning to appreciate the size, shape and softness of own boobies! I absolutely love being small chested! It's so funny ...I never thought I would say that. Been buying bras this weekend and thought I'd go for padded but I'm didn't. I've been buying bras with moulded cups instead as I'm having to buy 32C bras (even though I don't fill them!!) due to my "stretched out" cup size! Still, I'm just so relieved I've found bras to (kinda) fit! I love feeling natural and lying on my tummy! Not a night goes by where I don't wake up and appreciate the feeling of lying on my stomach and not worrying about the implants bursting!!!
Saw my PS on Friday who said everything was fine and took some photos to show future explant ladies. He said this operation is becoming more and more popular. He also said I could wear underwire at 6 weeks. I bought one yesterday to wear on special occasions but again, it's not padded...just moulded to give a nice shape! I think our bodies are amazing to bounce back after the way we have stretched them with implants. It's very weird but I sometimes think I'm glad I had implants (crazy I know) because it has made me appreciate my natural boobs so much more than I would have if I had never had surgery. I used to long for bigger boobs and now I realise they just got in my way and forced me to wear bigger and baggier clothes! Small boobs are amazing! Anyway, thank you to all the ladies on here, hope everyone's ok and healing well. Big soft hugs to all of you! xx
You are looking amazing! X
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Hi Demi, you look absolutely amazing. Not only your boobs but your slim waist and tummy too. You have a lovely figure. Lucky you :) xxx
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Hey Demi, Hope you are feeling good today? I am longing to get mine out , they have been in 9 years and with weight gain are now are massive. What size was the implants you had removed, I am trying to imagine what mine will look like. I am longing to wear a dress that I don't look fat in and also actually do Yoga without having permanent pillows on my chest.. Well done you. Also they look perky to me and don't forget you have kids also. I will be looking out for anymore update pictures. Hugs Rachelle
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