The journey to feeling like a woman may be put on hold.

I'm so glad I stumbled upon this website. I am 27...

I'm so glad I stumbled upon this website. I am 27 years old, 5'9", 140, athletic build, 34A (that's pushing it, really). I've been married over 5 years to a man who loves and supports me no matter what - my consideration of having a BA is purely for me. I never really considered a BA until the last few months. Sure I'd dream about having the guts to go through with something that would make me feel more feminine, but I hadn't even seriously considered the surgery until the last 6 months or so.

I am an avid gym-goer, very active! The more fat I lose, the more my breasts continue to decrease in size. I'm not really even sure if I will be a candidate or not due to the lack of tissue I currently have. I have a lot of concerns about having elective surgery, as I work in the medical field. Many people approach plastic surgery lightly, but with anesthesia, there is always a great risk (stroke, heart attack, death), and with surgery there are a multitude of complications that can occur.

Complications aside, I have this ridiculous preoccupation with being judged post-op. My family is in full support of what ever I choose to do, and I am blessed to have such a great family. Having said that, there is a strange social stigma with plastic surgery. A big fear I have is people misconstruing my intentions and judging me. Honestly though, people with bigger breasts have no idea what it's like. The way I explained it to my husband was for him to imagine if his penis was somewhere where everyone could see what size it was (he is well endowed, but for the analogy, it works).

I have done a lot of research on surgeons (board certified and all that jazz), implants specs, pros and cons, patient testimonies, etc. Some of the patient stories have deterred me from even making consultation appointments, but in order to find out what's ahead, I must talk to some doctors. I finally decided to call and make consultation appointments for this week with two different surgeons in my area. Wish me luck. I have a bunch of questions, but I think this is the only way I will be able to fully decide if this is right for me or not.

Well I had my first consultation this past Friday....

Well I had my first consultation this past Friday. I am still unsure. My original preference was for saline under the muscle, but he said since the space between my breasts is wider than normal and my breast base is smaller than the implants, that I would likely have issues with rippling while standing and leaning forward. He recommends silicone. I'll admit, that kind of freaks me out, even though I know there has been no researched evidence that silicone is bad for us. I know it is in a lot of products that we use everyday. In the office, I got to feel saline and silicone. I'll admit, the silicone was much better in my hand, especially when I shook it. The saline was very sloshy, and as active as I am, I think I would feel that in my body. Does anyone have experience with this?

I got all the pricing information and potential dates, I just need to pull the trigger. It is just so much money to spend on myself. Every time I think I have decided to go through with it, I think of 5 other things I need to spend the money on instead. It's ridiculous really. I am thinking about making a consultation with another doctor in the area to get another perspective.

I uploaded some pictures of me in a bikini. I am...

I uploaded some pictures of me in a bikini. I am trying to decide if I want to consult another PS to get another opinion. I really liked the first doctor I went to, I just didn't get to try on sizers or show him any pictures that I complied of what I like and what I don't. How did you approach deciding exactly what you wanted and discussing that with your doctor?

I am investing way too much time into researching...

I am investing way too much time into researching things I already know the answer to and looking on this website. I am grateful for all you wonderful ladies sharing your stories to help guide one another through the crazy things we put ourselves through. Today I stumbled upon regret stories, which really just turned me off to the idea. Of course, I had just about decided a BA was going to be good for me. I would hate to think all this time and energy have been wasted should I just drop this issue, but I am terrified of something going wrong or me hating the results. For me, wanting a BA isn't just about wanting larger breasts. In fact, I don't want very large implants at all - anything more than the pecs I have now would make me happy. I am actually pretty confident about everything except my breasts, which never bothered me until this year. Not really sure what changed except they are getting smaller. I need to hurry and decide because I have a perfect window for having surgery between jobs at the end of December. I suppose I'll continue to debate this issue a little longer.
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