The journey to feeling like a woman may be put on hold.

I'm so glad I stumbled upon this website. I am 27...

I'm so glad I stumbled upon this website. I am 27 years old, 5'9", 140, athletic build, 34A (that's pushing it, really). I've been married over 5 years to a man who loves and supports me no matter what - my consideration of having a BA is purely for me. I never really considered a BA until the last few months. Sure I'd dream about having the guts to go through with something that would make me feel more feminine, but I hadn't even seriously considered the surgery until the last 6 months or so.

I am an avid gym-goer, very active! The more fat I lose, the more my breasts continue to decrease in size. I'm not really even sure if I will be a candidate or not due to the lack of tissue I currently have. I have a lot of concerns about having elective surgery, as I work in the medical field. Many people approach plastic surgery lightly, but with anesthesia, there is always a great risk (stroke, heart attack, death), and with surgery there are a multitude of complications that can occur.

Complications aside, I have this ridiculous preoccupation with being judged post-op. My family is in full support of what ever I choose to do, and I am blessed to have such a great family. Having said that, there is a strange social stigma with plastic surgery. A big fear I have is people misconstruing my intentions and judging me. Honestly though, people with bigger breasts have no idea what it's like. The way I explained it to my husband was for him to imagine if his penis was somewhere where everyone could see what size it was (he is well endowed, but for the analogy, it works).

I have done a lot of research on surgeons (board certified and all that jazz), implants specs, pros and cons, patient testimonies, etc. Some of the patient stories have deterred me from even making consultation appointments, but in order to find out what's ahead, I must talk to some doctors. I finally decided to call and make consultation appointments for this week with two different surgeons in my area. Wish me luck. I have a bunch of questions, but I think this is the only way I will be able to fully decide if this is right for me or not.

Well I had my first consultation this past Friday....

Well I had my first consultation this past Friday. I am still unsure. My original preference was for saline under the muscle, but he said since the space between my breasts is wider than normal and my breast base is smaller than the implants, that I would likely have issues with rippling while standing and leaning forward. He recommends silicone. I'll admit, that kind of freaks me out, even though I know there has been no researched evidence that silicone is bad for us. I know it is in a lot of products that we use everyday. In the office, I got to feel saline and silicone. I'll admit, the silicone was much better in my hand, especially when I shook it. The saline was very sloshy, and as active as I am, I think I would feel that in my body. Does anyone have experience with this?

I got all the pricing information and potential dates, I just need to pull the trigger. It is just so much money to spend on myself. Every time I think I have decided to go through with it, I think of 5 other things I need to spend the money on instead. It's ridiculous really. I am thinking about making a consultation with another doctor in the area to get another perspective.

I uploaded some pictures of me in a bikini. I am...

I uploaded some pictures of me in a bikini. I am trying to decide if I want to consult another PS to get another opinion. I really liked the first doctor I went to, I just didn't get to try on sizers or show him any pictures that I complied of what I like and what I don't. How did you approach deciding exactly what you wanted and discussing that with your doctor?

I am investing way too much time into researching...

I am investing way too much time into researching things I already know the answer to and looking on this website. I am grateful for all you wonderful ladies sharing your stories to help guide one another through the crazy things we put ourselves through. Today I stumbled upon regret stories, which really just turned me off to the idea. Of course, I had just about decided a BA was going to be good for me. I would hate to think all this time and energy have been wasted should I just drop this issue, but I am terrified of something going wrong or me hating the results. For me, wanting a BA isn't just about wanting larger breasts. In fact, I don't want very large implants at all - anything more than the pecs I have now would make me happy. I am actually pretty confident about everything except my breasts, which never bothered me until this year. Not really sure what changed except they are getting smaller. I need to hurry and decide because I have a perfect window for having surgery between jobs at the end of December. I suppose I'll continue to debate this issue a little longer.
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Did you ever decide what you were going to do? I am almost 4 weeks post op .. Best money I have ever spent on myself!!!
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Hello Envy. For now, I've put the boob job on hold. There are a bunch of reasons. Most importantly, I've grown a lot during my investigation into plastic surgery. Though I still want bigger breasts, I've come to find that right now, the risks are not worth it for me. If I knew there wouldn't be a complication, I'd be all over it. Unfortunately, $6000 can quickly double or triple should something go wrong or turn out to look odd/misplaced. That's money I am not willing or able to spend. Every time I consider booking the surgery, I think of 10 other things I need to spend the money on, and worry about complications and such. It's just not right for me now and maybe never will be. I'm accepting what I have, working on continuing to tone up, and taking myself away from researching on this website for a while. I have read so many success and failure/regret stories that have influenced me in multiple ways. Maybe I'll look into this later in life. I'm happy for you and your decision to go through with it. Yours look great, btw. Thanks for checking in; I suppose I could write an update.
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Thats probably a wise choice Unsure4boobs~ Good luck!
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Totally understand!
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Hi Unsure for boobs--wow you are such a wise woman!!!! At 27 yrs i wanted it all and didnt care about the consequences. It is only when you get older--I am 42 that you grow up and accept the skin you are in--- the biggest regret of my life was to have implants. AND it doesn´t stop there---i know you have read alot on this site and can see that many of the women have had to pay out so much money for revisions, cc , complications. Go and spend your money on a fab holiday and accept who you are--just look at all those famoue women out there with no breasts!! They are proud to be small. You look great--you have a great body. All the very best to you xxxxx
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When I first saw the pictures above I thought it was your before and after pictures and I was like, "holy crap that's awesome!" Then I realized it's your ideal. Your before pictures remind me of myself. I can totally relate to everything you're saying about research, hesitation, then wanting to do it and then freaking out all over again. I have my BA scheduled for January 2nd. I will follow your story as we may have our BA's around the same time. Good luck and you are not alone!
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Hi there, Just wanted to say thanks for the compliment and using my pic as your ideal shape :) Getting my boobs done was no way easy decision for me. I have always been very confident about my body but still I always wanted bigger boobs to fill clothes better and look bit more womanly. I didn't go mad big and I let the surgeon decide on implants that suits my body size&shape and I am extremely pleased with the results. To be honest I don't even remember what my "old" boobs look like! Whatever you decide I wish you all the best in the future :) Take care, Michelle
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Sorry I just couldn't help myself when I saw your picture. I immediately turned to my husband and commented how perfect they look. I actually had your page up from last night to write on your review about how impressed I am with your BA. ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! You're welcome! Thank you for the encouragement. Yours are subglandular right? I can't believe you can't see the implant. Your PS is an artist, for sure. Did he lower your fold? Glad you're loving them!
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Yes the implants are overs and the surgeon did lower my fold a bit. Like I said earlier I'm extremely happy with the results! The PS that I went with is highly qualified (he trains surgeons etc...) and is very well known of his skills to create very natural looking results, also he pretty much refuses to do these massive porn star type boobs :D I never really decided on exact cc size, what he asked me is what kind of cup size I'm hoping to have and I said C or small D. His answer was pretty realistic as he said he will see how much he can fit it and what size will look natural on me as my natural boobies were so small. So at the end he decided the size (325cc) when I was on the operating table. He also uses sizer during the operation to see what size implant he will go with. Though I love my new boobs I still have days that I wish I had my little ones back as sometimes you get this feeling that "ou god they are so fake" "they feel fake" but I guess that's just normal after the operation. I think the only time they feel more fake is when I'm lying down but otherwise they are surprisingly soft to touch... Anyhow I think it's very good for you to do your research and consider long and hard what to do. For me the operation was something I considered for many many years and now I do wish I would have done it sooner. Then again I had a great PS and everything has gone perfectly so far so that helps a lot.
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This journey is completely your own. I had breast implants added two weeks ago. When I first started the process, I was so sure this was what I wanted but as it got closer to time, I started questioning my decision. The best advice I can give is make sure you find a great surgeon! One that is experienced and read all the reviews on that surgeon. When I found a negative reivew about my surgeon, I called the office and sat down to find out what went wrong. Most of the time, it was a situation where the person was told before hand their natural breast look would not change, and they assumed the breast implants would work miracles. If you want a natural look that won't feel funny hugging others, go with the gel. That is what I went with. You also won't see the ripples either! There will always be horror stories but there are so many women that LOVE their implants. It will be a risk, you just have to decide if it is a risk you are willing to take!
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Thanks, ANM. As much as I want to go through with it, that small voice saying no is so loud. Damn voice. :-) I definitely have read plenty of success stories, but I'd like to find more 10-15 years down the road that are still success stories. I'll keep searching - be that for reviews or acceptance of my boobs.
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Hi unsure4 boobs, its me again--just read your profile. If you are really into sport and weights then you will HATE implants under the muscle! I go boot camp, lift weights etc. Everytime i picked up a weight my breast/ muscle would contract and make my breast look mishapen until i had stopped lifting the weight. This is normal as the implant was put in under the muscle. It feels HORRIBLE when the muscle contracts. You are never free from feeling the implants and believe me because of your small frame you will FEEL the implants constantly. Even reaching up to get something out of a cupboard your muscle will contract. Getting in cold water in the sea the muscle contracts--its awful. DONT DO IT!!!! These things are NOT what a surgeon will tell you. Its only us girlies that have had them know how they feel. I am NOT exagerating--just ask the girlies here. I know as i have a small frame. I cant wait to go swimming next year and play with my kids, the ball , playing in the pool--climbing in and out of the pool without the muscle contracting. Sorry to tell you all this but you need to know xxxx
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I do a lot of high impact kickboxing and CrossFit type stuff. I also lift weights. I know the implant will move with the muscle, but it is really that obvious in your clothes? I guess it would be. I need to ask some of the ladies with implants at my gym and pay attention to that. I appreciate your warning. I think I've just about talked myself out of it...until I look at/read a success story...then I envy those women for having the guts to go through with it. I hate I even started this discussion with myself.
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Unsure are you happy with your new look? I think you picked a good size for your frame. You will fill out the pink bikini nicely:) If you ever explant you will know what we have all gone thru:) remember what you looked like before. Pink
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Oops guess I should have clicked on photo.
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haha, yeah. I said this below, but I wish those were my boobs. I don't know if I'll ever convince myself to go through with it or not. So much can go wrong and I can only blame myself. ahhh....this is aggravating!
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Your last photo looks loke you already had implants in!
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haha, I wish those were my boobs. That is a picture of someone whose breasts I like. I don't want to be that large, but I like her shape.
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Hi Unsure, I think you look beautiful just as you are! That is about what my size was like before I got implants at age 23, and I miss my small breasts. You don't mention whether you do already have or plan to have children someday, but I invite you to take a look at my implant review if you are considering a future pregnancy with implants. It's wise of you to do all your research, and when fully informed its great for women to have the BA option. It is, however, life altering and cannot be undone. Take your time to make sure, before you leap - you can always get BA at any point, but once you get it you can't rewind. Best Wishes.
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Thank you! I know I'm beautiful, but sometimes I don't feel like my chest is beautiful. The feeling comes and goes, depending on what I'm wearing and what I'm doing. At the gym, I don't really care. At the lake in a bikini, I care. It's ridiculous, I know, but it's my reality. I do want children and plan to breast feed. I've researched that aspect a lot. I'll go read your review right now. Thanks for the guidance. :-)
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Well, you can always try out a different bikini style at the lake! If your self consciousness is situational, there are many ways to approach those specific situations that aren't drastic. I can tell from just your torso pics that you are in great shape. Overall fitness, leanness, waistline, shapely legs, and the ability to wear a bikini to begin with is 99% of it! I have some lovely friends with very large natural boobs, they are beautiful women -- but the same squishiness that gives them big boobies gives them squishy stomachs, thighs, arms, etc. They dont feel comfortable wearing a bikini to begin with, despite their large voluptuous breasts, and a lot of them would gladly trade their big boobs for a lean fit body in a heartbeat. Still, we girls want it all - it's in our natures. The current media doesn't help, as we are constantly bombarded with unnatural images - women who are fit and very lean, but with implants that give them the breast size of a plump, zaftig woman superimposed on bodies that would never have that breast size in nature. It used to be that sex symbols such as Marilyn Monroe had much more overall body fat, and actually still had smaller breasts than the media 'normal' now. I wanted both petite leanness and big boobs, which was my motivation for BA to begin with - I got more than I hoped (not in a good way). Either way you look great, but truly your breast size is not small for your fitness level. It's only small in comparison to glamour models (Maxim, Playboy etc), fitness competitors, and NFL cheerleaders - who are equally lean, but have implants. Really athletic woman have smaller bodies, and naturally smaller breasts and there is nothing inherently wrong with that unless you believe there is.
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I can only tell you from my own personal experience, as ALL of us who have been through the nightmares of implant surgeries! We THINK its a one time deal ( we now KNOW they need to be exchanged at least once) that's given no CC or any other problems along the way. I am SO sorry I even did it in the first place. I, like you, was very athletic ( a dancer) & just wanted to look ok in clothing! Please read my story & think REAL hard about your decision to augment. Your breasts are absolutely BEAUTIFUL!! Perfect! IF you do decide to go for it, if course, I wish you the best.. But mess with PERFECTION!!!
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Oops typo .. WHY MESS with perfection!!???
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I believe I was created from perfection in God's eyes, but for my mortal body and mind to accept that isn't always as easy as just saying so. I hate that you regret it so badly. I am going into this knowing I will probably need new ones in 10-15 years. I am a dancer too btw. :-) I appreciate your advice. I truly don't know what I'll ultimately decide to do.
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Im going thru the exact same thing... thing is.. i already scheduled my surgery... I keep reading and researching, i read a positive review and i get excited, then i read a horrible one and everything goes to heck.
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