Explant with a Full Lift - Tampa, FL. SOOOO WORTH IT!!!

Oy, what a mental process this has become! Let's start from the beginning...
At 23, I decided I was ready to get a BA. I found a doctor that I liked and trusted and scheduled my BA. What drew me to him was that he was a pioneer and very proficient in using the TUBA incision. I had a great experience and got exactly what I asked for. Over the years, I grew out of my 23 yr old "teenage-ish" body into my adult body, so I gained a lean/healthy 15 lbs. With that extra weight and overall body size, my boobs grew as well. Pre-op I was a large A, small B. Right after surgery (390 cc, smooth, round, HP , saline, overs) I was a large C, which was perfect. After I "grew up" I ended up a DD. Not what I signed up for...
Fast forward 12+ years, and all I see is BOOB! I'm blissfully married to the most amazing man. He loves what I currently have and is 110% supportive of what I end up choosing. I initially wanted a downsize with a lift. I made a consult appointment with a great surgeon for an exchange and lift. He discussed everything, was on board with the downsizing and suggested a full (anchor) lift and I was on board as well! I scheduled the surgery for December 3rd and felt great!
These past couple of weeks, I did A LOT of soul searching and started considering an explant with a lift instead of an exchange. The more I thought about it, the more I realized how much of a burden these boobs are for me. I remember thinking how much fun I would have with big boobs and all the great clothing I could buy with them. Well, the complete opposite happened. These things are harder to deal with than small boobs! I'm fairly small, yet athletic, 5' 5", 130 lbs. I am a health/fitness coach and I also teach a group fitness class. It isn't easy working out with these. Tops don't fit well because I have to buy bigger than I actually am. Bathing suits are impossible for me because I fear I'm going to pop out, or I have to get a top so covering, I look ridiculous. My boobs just don't match my body anymore.
So, tomorrow I head back to my surgeon to have a second consult discussing the explant. I'm keeping my surgery date because these babies are coming out. I've been so blessed to have had NO issues with my implants. But I feel like a ticking time bomb. And in the past few years I've become VERY conscious of eating organically and avoiding toxins, so doing an implant exchange seems incongruent with my life. I don't know what I would do if I got new, smaller implants and ended up having a problem down the road. The guilt would eat me up.
If anyone has a similar experience, please don't hesitate to chime in and let me know what I'm in for. I have read SO many stories on here and it has helped me immensely! So THANK YOU to all the other brave women who have already, unknowingly, helped me feel like I'm not alone! Stay tuned for what I learn tomorrow.

I had my second consult with my surgeon today and I am definitely ready to go with the explant and breast lift. My doc is truly amazing. He listend to why I had a change of heart and was completely supportive. He said he has patients come in that can't ever seem to make up their mind and he suggests they hold off on doing anything until they're sure. He's even had women in my same situation and had them come back a year later after explant and want to go bigger again. He was very confident in my reasonings that I wouldn't be one of those patients. He put my mind at ease and showed me a great before/after that would be most similar to myself. What a relief! Her results were beautiful. Small, real boobs can be gorgeous!
While I know I will have a mental adjustment period as I get used to having much smaller boobs again, I am preparing for the future and putting my health as a priority over my vanity. I cannot bear the thought of doing an implant exchange and having something go wrong. That would tear me up inside. And while I trust the science that implants today are safer than they've ever been, there is no 100% guarantee that I won't have any issues with them. And with my lifestyle of being so aware of what I put into my body, new implants don't seem to fit who I am now.
It'll be a relief to never have to worry about them rupturing or needing to be replaced again. I can focus on keeping myself as healthy as I possibly can be. I've got a lot of life left to live and I intend to do myself as many favors as I can. And today, I'm starting with this.

I had an amazing dream last night. I dreamt that I had my explant/lift surgery and I was beyond thrilled with the results! I felt beautiful, free, and like ME again. What a relief it was to wake up from that.
I've been daydreaming and online window shopping for new bras for after my surgery. It'll be so nice to not have to go into VS and hunt for a 32DD that is still a bit snug. I actually measured myself yesterday and was shocked at my bust measurements. I should technically wear a 32DDD or 32E. When I told my husband that, he stopped dead in his tracks. Even he had no idea that I measured that big. It felt awful to read that tape measure.
When I first decided on a lift I was originally disgusted at the thought of so many scars on my breasts (I'm getting a full anchor lift) but now, that doesn't even phase me. I'm actually looking forward to it because that is what will reshape my breasts into smaller, prettier boobs. I'm not looking forward to waiting for the scars to settle down but I can guarantee that I will be 100% diligent with scar treatment.
Today is starting off as a great mental boob day. 31 days and counting until my surgery!!!