Want my Itty Bitty Membership Back! - Surprise, AZ
I'm a 42 year old who had my implant done in...
- 1 Apr 2012
- 5 months pre
I'm a 42 year old who had my implant done in 2001. I’m 5’7’’ weighed 158 muscular/boyish shape when the surgery was done. I have long legs and bubble booty with no hips. I’ve been small busted my entire life and have been the same size since high school. At that time I wanted my breast done but was talked out of it by all the larger breasted members of my family and friends.
With each child my breast grew into firm lovely mounds that I so dreamed of. So my decision to make them permanent came after the birth of my 2nd daughter who single handedly turned my high firm breast into shrunken ski slopes after nursing for 14 months was the easy.
I lived in Los Angeles so finding a doctor was also easy and after spending almost a year “interviewing” surgeons I selected the one I felt most comfortable, had great reviews and who seemed to understand what I wanted best. My desired size was 34 full C, as I felt my 34 small B’s were unbalanced to my bottom half. I'm usually very clear when I explain myself and my desires but when I awoke from my surgery I knew the elephant on my chest was way too big!
I was told upon release from the hospital that they were swollen and would settle into position and be smaller after the swelling went down, about 2 months. I was measured repeatedly out of dismay mostly but was I was a 35DDD and although I’ve gained some weight since 2001 I'm still a DDD!
Don’t get me wrong they are beautiful-they have dropped and no one ever believes they weren’t a “gift” from above. They are very soft, subtle, and my skin is smooth and perfect really. I’ve had twins since the surgery and nursed them both with more drop in location. My nipples/areolas are on the rather small side to begin with so the implant didn’t really change that. They look a lot larger in photos. Many doctors are surprised when they feel them at my yearly exam that they are not real.
My problem you ask, I'm tired of wearing an x-large shirt when I could wear a medium! I'm tired of looking like I’m still pregnant. I never used to be uncomfortable about having my chest out when they were small and my favorite shirts are tank tops! I didn’t want to continue to have clothes altered or buy separates to fit each half. Now I feel like I have to cover them up to avoid being stared at. I never wanted extra attention; I wanted to be balanced in my clothes.
I’ve spent thousands on bras that only partially fit because my breast are naturally placed higher on my body as most woman of color can relate to so the implants always look they are under my chin in a bra. I was recently given a routine mammogram and while awaiting the results I really started to worry about what may be found or not because of them and what if they were popped during the procedure?! It came to me I'm so over them! I want to buy smaller shirts, bras that fit- just want my smaller top half back! I want to run, jump, sleep on my stomach comfortably, and wear any kind of tank top in a medium or a cute bikini without feeling like a stripper.
Finding this site has helped me determine this is the right path for me and that I'm not just a fickle lady having a middle life crisis. I want to be natural again and that the grass isn’t greener- it’s hay! I now live in the Phoenix area and I'm scheduling appointments once again to begin the “interview” process so I greatly appreciate any comments! I will update this and hope to move my procedure up as the waiting is killing me!