36 Year Old with Lower BMI Ready to Change Her Life! St. Louis Park, MN

It's Memorial Day and I am now 3 1/2 days away from my surgery. I am feeling many different emotions. It's been a rough last week, since my fiancé had to leave on Thursday to go to Michigan for his Grandmother's funeral. So I have been left to my own devices during the liquid diet portion of my journey. My 73 year old granny lives with us, but she can't do the things that Shaun usually does. He was only supposed to be gone for 3 1/2 days, but decided to make it a week last minute. So, needless to say, emotions have been running high.
I expected the liquid diet to suck a little, but I didn't think it was going to be as bad as it was for the first 4 days. The weakness, being light headed, the headaches, and lethargy are much worse than I thought they would be. I haven't had the hunger pains that others have talked about, but the other symptoms have been pretty icky.
I work as a freelance writer, and it has been impossible for me to work, since I feel like my mind is foggy. I have finished one project for a client, coincidently enough, it was about types of surgical weight loss options. The other I have been working on for a month, and I am nearing the end of the project. I am going to finish the last 1500-2000 words tonight, if I can get my brain working.
I am just a bundle of nerves and I wish my other half was here with me, to help with the little things, but alas, he ins't. He will be home Wednesday afternoon, so at least he will be around then.
My friends are all making plans to come see me in the hospital and want to send care packages for me, so I have things to do during my recovery. I am so happy that I have such amazing and supportive people in my life.
I will be posting daily, if my brain lets me, to get out my feelings and emotions.
Things will be just fine, I know.....

I met with my surgeon Dr. Thomas Jones on May 13th and we talked in depth about my concerns and I was impressed with his compassion and bedside manner. He is so encouraging and sees that I have put a lot of thought into this. He asked how soon I wanted to get this done and I said ASAP! He pulled out his schedule and said how about May 29th? I excitedly said YES PLEASE!!!
The whole process has been so wonderful, with the exception with of the evil psychologist, but the other members of the team make up for her lack of empathy and discrimination. I'm beyond excited but I'm also nervous. I know that it's a natural reaction and its to be expected, but I still get butterflies when I think of how my life is going to be changing.
I start my high protein liquid diet on May 19th, and I've already stocked up on protein shakes, but I still have much more to buy. I meet with my dietician, Jody, on May 20th to discuss the pre and post op diet. She's a wonderful soul as well and she's full of positivity and great info. I heard horror stories about others dealing with dieticians who were as bad as my psychologist, so I was a little apprehensive going in, but Jody went out of her way to make me feel comfortable and not ashamed of my size. I always thought that naturally thin women who've never struggled with their weight shouldn't work with the obese who are attempting to make better choices, since they seem to generalise that all fat people are lazy and spend all day watching TV and eating fried twinkies. Well, Jody proved me wrong. She is truly comitted to helping the overweight make better life choices. She knows that there is so much more to weight loss than calories in and calories out. I'm excited to get more information about how to make my journey more successful.
I also have my pre-op physical/checkup on Wednesday, so I'll go from my meeting at nine am with Jody to my next appointment at 1130am with a general practitioner who works with my primary. It's going to be a busy day, but I'm ready!
I'll be checking in regularly to ask for advice during my liquid diet phase, since I'm still attempting to figure out what works and what doesn't. Any advice on how to get thru this part of the diet would be appreciated!
Thanks again for the words of encouragement, it keeps me motivated. I'm excited to join the group of sleeved sisters here!!!

Thursday after I called Medica to see how if they had a decision yet and guess what??? My surgery was APPROVED!!!!! WOOOOO HOOOO!!!!! Marla, the extremely lovely and gracious scheduling coordinator called me today, May 1st to tell me I was approved and I could schedule my appointment to meet my surgeon!!! I am scheduled to meet my surgeon on May 13th at 9am. My mother, who is deceased, was born on May 13th and it is also the birthday of my beautiful niece Charlotte, so this day is going hold even more significance in my life. Marla also scheduled me to see Jodi, the sweet dietician, on May 20th to go over my 10 day liquid diet. They also wanted me to have an ultrasound on my gall bladder, but I told her that it would be kinda of hard to see it, and when asked why I had to explain that I donated it medical research in 2006 after it almost killed me. LOL She looked through my records and seen that it was in there that I had it taken out, so obviously I don't need to do it. I am so excited. I have been working a long time at trying to get my life back together and getting myself healthy enough to stick around. My fiancé, who is suffering from stage 3 liver disease at the age of 34, also got approval from his insurance company for his medication to be paid for. We got it today and a 28 day supply costs $40,000!!! It will slow down the destruction of his liver and cure a life threatening disease, so we are doing so well.
This has been an amazing day and we need to celebrate this weekend. I went out to shop, since they opening up a few great stores in the mall behind my house, and I had to stop myself from buying clothes! Last weekend I used my coupons at Old Navy and bought a dresses for summer, but I will be able to wear them after my surgery since they are made of flowy fabric. That will be the hardest part, not being able to shop until I plateau. I love clothes and I am a bargin hunter by nature, and all of my favorite stores email and text when I haven't spent any money in a while giving me coupons that I can't resist! I just need to save all of the money I would spend in a little nest egg for my new wardrobe!
That's all for tonight! 12 days until I know the date of when my life will be changed forever!
Have a great weekend everyone!