Fed Up with Being Fat and Ready to Get My Life Back! Sonoma, CA

So I am about 6 months out from my surgery date. Here is a side by side photo of where I was one month out compared to now, in the same shirt (size Large). 1 month post op I could barely squeeze this shirt on and was not comfortable wearing it. Now I love it and it blouses on me. I get my blood panels on the 17th of March and then see the surgeon on the 20th so will check in on my weight loss then. Looking forward to big numbers.

Hey everyone, so I've been out for a while because things have been really hard, and sad. I've always tried to be as transparent as possible on here because it's not alway sunshine and rainbows after surgery. Life still happes and you still have to find ways to work through them without using food as a crutch.

On the verge of divorce. I'm not going to say much else except that I am miserable when I should be elated with this whole new life. It's really sad and being in this state doesn't give me much motivation to do the things I should be doing.

I was robbed at gunpoint at an ATM the beginning of January. 2 weeks later, I was rear ended at 45 MPH by an uninsured motorist. The impact caused really bad injuries that have not allowed me to workout and I feel like I am failing at this weight loss thing because of it. 2 weeks after that, I lost my job because I had to go to so many doctor's appointments after the accident. Like I said, rough start.

So I am trying to push the restart button and get back on track, starting with healing my body so I can get back to working out. I'm still losing weight, but not at the pace I know I should be. Going to start attending a support group not associated with the surgeon I saw, because they don't have one. I'm hoping this will help me.

And, I'm not going to lie, I need help during this time. I started taking Phentermine at a small dose to help me get over this hump in my life and stop the stress eating. This seems counterproductive after having surgery, but there is a deeper psychological thing going on here that existed before the surgery and unfortunately, getting sleeved doesn't make that go away. It is helping, especially since I can't work out, but I of course feel guilty having to go this route.

Anyway, here is the most recent photo I took of myself. Definitely see it in my face, and I am fitting into clothes that are not plus sized (1x-3x), around a 14-16 (starting at what was probably 22-24). My wedding ring slips right off now, rather than having to rub lotion on my finger and spend 5 minutes pulling it off. Shoes all fit better too, no longer need to sleep with a CPAP at night (no more snoring), anxiety is practically non existent and almost off the anxiety meds (tapering), before the car accident I no longer had the aches and pains I was having before when sleeping or waking up. I can cross my legs again. I am, however, losing hair which I know can happen so I am supplementing that with vitamins and nutrition. I am enjoying shopping for clothes so much more now too.

I'm determined to overcome this, I didn't put myself through this and make all of these sacrifices to fail at this. It's just a part of the process and I know I will get there. We are all on our own journey here, mine just happened to fall into a crater and I'm trying to crawl back out and get on with it.

Hope everyone is having a MUCH better year and success. And thank you to those who were checking in. I've been avoiding posting on here because I haven't had really anything positive to say, but sometimes it's just better to be honest and have an outlet.

Things are going really well. Getting a lot of great feedback from people on my weight loss. It's nice to hear especially on the days where I don't feel that I look great.

Slacking on the workouts and I can feel it. Husband and I both acknowledged that it's a MUST we need to create in our lives. As you can see in the pic my lower body is lagging so cardio needs to start happening since I am lower-body dominant. With both of us being so busy we're trying to figure it out, as I see him for about an hour a day only now.

Social occasions and work are fine with food, I know my limits and I don't surpass them. I'm on my feet a lot at work so it helps with the weight loss and there's not mindless eating/snacking happening. Still small option sizes and sticking with low carb.

Overall, happy with my progress. I weigh in with the surgeon in a month and see where my losses are at then.

Hope everyone out there is doing well and having a great holiday season!