Silicone Implants Ruptured, Extra-capsular! - England, GB

Well, it's just over six weeks since I had my implants removed and I'm feeling pretty good. Their appearance hasn't really changed at all since my last pics, they haven't fluffed at all but I wasn't holding my breath that they would and I'm just happy that I haven't got lots of loose skin.

I got some coconut oil as recommended by CantWaitToBeNatura, which I've been using twice a day and it makes my skin feel lovely, it smells really nice too. No one at work seems to have noticed I've gotten smaller on top but with it being cold weather I'm still wrapped up in lots of clothes and scarves so it's not so noticeable.

I mentioned before that I had an air bubble in one side and a lumpy stitch under the scar on the other side... well these have both just about gone now. There's still a few bumpy bits on my scars but they seem to be healing very well.

I'm almost totally flat but my husband says they're lovely so that makes me happy. In clothes they look completely flat unless I wear some padding. I have nothing to scoop up into a bra but managed to find a couple of t-shirt bras that have very firm padding in to make it look like I have small boobs in clothes, these give me confidence. I haven't been able to find a swimming costume or tankini to fit but I did manage to use some of my old bras as padding to put in my old tankinis and it's made a world of difference! Without the padding I feel ugly but with a little padded cup slotted in I feel great, it's silly I know but I'm just not comfortable being totally flat in public.

I've looked at bras in a few shops now and have had to go to the little girls section! And most of the bras say 'my first bra' on them! This bothers me and some today even had pictures of mini mouse on them! In the adults section, the smallest I seem to find is 32A but my ribs are only 30" so these tend to ride up and I have to wear padded bras as I've nothing to fill an A cup! I bought a 30AA 'my first bra' bra today, it's slightly padded and fits well around my rib cage but the cups go a funny shape and look like strange triangles on my chest! It's hard to explain.... but this is my only grumble really, that I can't find a decent, well fitting bra. I love the feel of no boobs getting in my way when I do things or when I lie on my stomach or my side and it feels great when I run and surprisingly, most of my clothes still fit fine. My glands are all still swollen and one is quite noticeable to the side of my breast but I'm trying not to worry about these too much! I don't like my chest when I lean forward or when I lay on my side but from what I can remember, I think my boobs are pretty much the same as they were before I had my implants in but I think my nipples might be slightly bigger now, which I like.. and so does my husband! I'd like my boobs to be fuller but I can accept them as they are now.

I asked the surgeon if he'd removed any of my chest muscle as I'm more concaved on my left side than my right. He said he hadn't removed any chest muscle but that my implants were on top of my muscle and not under the muscle like they were supposed to be. I asked if there was any breast tissue left in my breasts at all and he said yes but I can't feel any!

He also said that as far as he's concerned, all the silicone has been removed... so why are my lymph nodes still enlarged then??!! And, he said my lymph nodes will stay like that forever now. I can feel them quite easily too now the implants have gone. I'm glad the implants are out but I don't feel reassured that I won't get any more problems from having had them in!