10/8/12; Columbus Day. He Discovered a New World and So Did I - Scottsdale, AZ
- updated 8 months ago
Before: Lost 100 pounds from diet and exercise....
- 25 Oct 2012
Before: Lost 100 pounds from diet and exercise. Still needed to lose 40 to be at my goal weight, but hanging skin apron was making exercise more and more difficult and looking at it in the mirror everyday was affecting my motivation to keep working so hard when I still saw a fat girl in the mirror. Against my trainers recommendations, I decided to get a TT now instead of waiting for another 6-12 months. I began looking online and consulting with PS. I got a recommendation for Dr. Daiza from friends who had a mommy makeover from her 6 months ago and had a fantastic experience. She was one of the Dr's I consulted with and thankfully, I liked her the best in person too. Plus, her portfolio of before/after pics was far better for people in my current physical shape. She said I could wait if I wanted to, but even in my current condition, I would have fantastic results.
During: Surgery was on 10/8/12. Full TT, breast reduction/lift, and lipo of the flanks. (I stayed overnight at Greenbaum Surgical Hospital in Scottsdale and they are amazing!) Dr. Daiza removed 11.5 pounds of tissue from me during the nearly 8 hour procedure. I remember standing naked on a stool in the OR getting soaped up by the nurses and nothing again until I was in my private room, heavily sedated on morphine. My nurses were kind and compassionate, and NEVER late on my pain medication throughout the night. I had to get up once to walk during the night. PAINFUL to get in and out of the bed, but the walking wasn't terrible. Dr. Daiza was in at 6am the next morning to check on me. She said everything looked great! More pain medication. This level of pain was MUCH HIGHER than I was anticipating going into it. More walking the hall, catheter out. Can't go home till I can pee on my own. Boyfriend given drain emptying instructions, nearly passes out, homeward bound.
Week 1: Set up recliner in the living room. Prior to the surgery, I had anticipated 7-10 days off work. Thought I would spend a lot of time sitting in the recliner relaxing, reading a few books, catching up on my DVR, then back to work. Boy was I wrong! I spend nearly the first full week completely bound to that recliner, except for my mandatory walking and bathroom. I stayed heavily medicated on Vicodin and Valium and slept nearly the whole week. IT HURT SO MUCH. I have never been sick or injured before, this may have been why the pain level was unexpected, but this was unreal. All from TT/Lipo, almost no pain at all in breast area.
Week 2: Less sleeping, less drugs, still bound to the recliner. More walking. Get in a few car rides, just to get out of the house. First shower was amazing but wiped me out completely. Drains are cumbersome and painful where they are stitched to my skin. Mid-week is my follow-up appt. and drains come out. Still off work. I expected to be back by now. Taking pics of progress and changes. Flat, but fat. Hoping its just swollen. Back is in terrible pain from sleeping in the recliner.
Week 3: Back to work, ready or not. Desk job so I guess I can give it a shot. I'm so tired. I'm sore. If I stay sitting pain is less, when I have to get up its like all mobility is gone and I'm walking hunched over again. Made it to my own bed, lots of pillows. Can't get out of it by myself. Had to do it though, my back couldn't take the recliner another night. After a few nights, back is better. Pain is way less, no more narcs. Random feelings of pinching or like a rubber band snap in the ab muscles. Sneezing and coughing are a MF'er though. Nipples have been hurting lately. Like needles poking. First time I've felt pain in this area. Breast reduction/lift had previously caused no pain. Sitting causes some discomfort on TT incision from CB. Ordered new one today. Still very swollen (God, I hope its swollen and not still just fat) and depression setting in. Questioning decision. Lot of money and pain to just be a little less fat. Well, I was warned, but its at least flat. Muffin top area causing most concern, right above the incision line. Need to get back on track with my diet since exercise is out of the question. Depression causing some emotional eating, salty foods not good for swelling. I'm making my problems worse. Feeling super guilty for being still so helpless. Super-independent, clean freak. Boyfriend is not a nurturer and not a cleaner. I spend a lot of time watching my house get messier and messier and not being able to do anything about it. Very frustrated.
Would really love a bubble bath right now. And so...
- 27 Oct 2012
Two thoughts regarding CG keep going through my...
- 28 Oct 2012
#1 you know how when you twist your ankle, as long as you keep your shoe on, your foot doesn't swell, as soon as you take your shoe off, wham-o... Swells up like a balloon.
#2 have you ever wrapped a rubber band around your finger tightly? The parts of your finger above and below the rubber band swell up and change color.
I have a love/hate relationship with my CG.
My incisions are starting to hurt now. And I fear...
- 1 Nov 2012
I forgot to mention that I bought a new CG too. ...
- 1 Nov 2012
I called my Dr's office and sent her office staff a pic of my belly button. I think what I have is what I've seen people calling spitting sutures. I can see and feel several clear plastic threads/knots sticking out of several different areas of my belly button. Also, an area around the incision has a green color (I'll add a pic) and I was hoping it would clear up but it hasn't. I had been washing it really well with Hibicleanse soap daily and wiping a cotton pad with peroxide over it. Yesterday I started putting an anti-biotic ointment on it and covering it with a bandaid. Well today when I finally called my Dr. office I was scolded for putting any ointment on it. She wants all incisions kept dry. Now I have to go home and wash off all the ointment. The Dr was in surgery so she didn't get to see the pic I sent. It was her office staff that told me to keep it clean and dry until my appointment day after tomorrow. The office sent the pic to the Dr. but she is in surgery today and tomorrow. Office said the Dr would call me sooner if she felt there something wrong that could not wait until my appointment and needed to instruct me in some other method of dealing with it but in all likelihood, this gross thing will have to wait until Saturday.
Also, I am having a real hard time keeping my emotions in check. They said to expect that. My emotions were all over the place before the surgery. I am in a very unstable relationship. He stepped up and has been better than I expected he would be during this process, much to my surprise. But take a situation that was barely hanging on before hand and add to it all the pain and hassles and recovery issues of major surgery with a really long healing time and things get a little tough. I am all over the place, weepy, angry, indifferent, passive aggressive, and super needy.
I am behind at work, I have no energy, I find myself making stupid mistakes. I know my boss is supportive, but I hate that my issues are becoming his issues. I need to focus but find that difficult sometimes.
Sleeping. I can't get comfortable. I have to take a sleep aid to get to sleep and then I'll wake up in a few hours after that and have to take it again to get a whole night's worth of sleep. This doesn't help with the focus issue I mentioned above.
And since I seem to be on a roll here, lets cap it off with one more rant/whine... my self esteem is in the toilet. I still look and feel FAT.
Wow, I had to be reminded to update. Just shows...
- 8 Nov 2012
Started on Atkins (high protein, close to zero carbs) diet until I can get back into the gym and back into my exercise routine. Scale and measuring tape finally starting to move.
Started back on my birth control pills. My 1 month absence from taking them was probably another culprit of the mood swings and depression I have been dealing with. Still can't have sex, but at least my hormones will go back to normal.
And since I mentioned sex. I am beyond frustrated. Still no sex, not that my body feels comfortable in any position anyway. So my mind is a mess, my body is a mess, and I am dealing with a lot of stress at home and at work with no outlet for my frustrations. No sex, no booze (I've decided not to drink alcohol due to the empty calories and blood thinning), and no exercise.
Its only temporary though, right. This too shall pass.
It's been a while since my last update. Things...
- 21 Nov 2012
I had a follow up appt yesterday with the surgeon....
- 25 Nov 2012
Hard to believe its been another month. My scars...
- 29 Dec 2012
Yesterday marks my 12th week PO. I swell a lot...
- 8 Jan 2013
Wow, another month has passed already? I feel back...
- 7 Feb 2013
Made the final payment on the surgery this morning...
- 1 Apr 2013