Two Days to Go...Parker, CO

The clock is ticking down. Today is the first day of clear liquids. I've been reviewing constantly the instructions hoping that at some point it will stick in my brain. Part of me thinks, I guess, that there is something magical that will make it all seem easier, more obtainable, less drastic. Then I realize if it were easy, I wouldn't need this procedure, I would be able to control my body, my craving, my hormones, my age. I haven't slept well the last few nights. Some of it is the pre-surgery anxiety--what if I die in surgery because I have a need to be slimmer, more healthy? But the truth is I'm doing it to live, really live, not just exist in a dreadfully overweight body that hurts all the time. I'm doing it to live fully the next few decades of my life. So, I'm moving forward packing my bag, sorting my meds and making sure the house is stocked with the appropriate foods for my post op life.

It's going much better than I thought. I made it thru the day with 68 ounces of water and 76 grams of protein. However, I think it was too much because I experienced dumping in the middle of the night. Had to change the bed and take a shower at 2 am! At first I couldn't figure out what had happened. I've had some gas from surgery and was encouraged to pass it to feel better. So in my drugged state I think that's what happened. In any event today I'm going to slow down today. Also going to weigh myself and see if the scales are starting to move.

What's the deal? I'm hungry. Why? Isn't my appetite supposed to go away? It's not. I'm drinking my protein and water and yet, I'm still hungry. Has anyone else been through this? Will it go away eventually?