I’m nervous. When was the last time I felt happy with my body? Could losing this fat really make me happy? I wonder. I’ve been obsessed about my tummy for years. So much that it’s stopped me from ever letting my boyfriend see me naked. I sleep with a pillow between us, have sex with a pillow or blanket between us. Enough is enough. I need to feel the closeness to him. I want him to feel the closeness to me. I need to feel the closeness to myself.
I hate not being able to shop based on colors, but rather I shop on fabrics. “Will this cling to my body?”, “Will this shirt come up and accidentally show my tummy?”. ?I’ve lost so many precious moments because I’ve been to focused on this. I’ve avoided things with uniforms, or clothing requirements. Rafting? It would have been so much fun if I wasn’t constantly worrying about looking fat in a wet suit, even with a shirt over it.
I don’t remember ever wearing a form fitting tank top, unless it was under something. I miss swimming! My goodness, do I miss that. My favorite sport. Can’t go swimming! What if my shirt floats up in the water, and getting out of the water? That shirts going to cling to my tummy!
It all sounds so superficial, maybe it is. But it consumes me in away that drags on my mind. I want to be free of these feelings.
I found my shape lipo. It offered good prices. So far I’ve spoken to Brandy and Stephani. Both are really quick to answer any questions. It’s the paying them that kind of makes the process a longer one. If you don’t have a visa, it makes purchasing this a hell of a run, especially if you don’t want anyone to know you’re getting it.
However, I decided to use Visa gift cards. So hopefully that works out.
I’m excited to let the new me experience what the old me put on hold. I’m nervous for the results. I’m not a perfectionist but man oh man do I crave a flat tummy. Mine is so delaptated. The upper half of me isn’t fat, the lower half hower is. I decided to have both my upper abs, lower abs, and love handles done. I want it to look as streamline as possible. Also, they say if you ever put on weight it goes to other area’s first, before the area’s that have been treated, due to the removement of the fat cells. I know losing any weight on the abdomen is hard so I would rather just have that whole area done.
I feel as if this liposuction will make it easier to work out. I would actually see results on my tummy. Doing sit ups was never awful, however unsuccessful. I could have built up so much muscle? But who could tell under the layers of fat, so I gave up. Hopefully this will motivate me.
So, I decied to use a gift card for the downpayment and a money order for the rest. Thank goodness my boyfriend rocks. I was embarassed to ask for it so he did it for me. My surgery is tomorrow at nine. I just finished packing and am off on a plane soon! Wish me luck.
Today is the day. Woke up at five, so I was quite tired. Pehaps it’s the excitment!
Okay, So I just got the procedure. I can’t see the results yet, and can’t remove the garmet to see until tomorrow. I decided to get my hips, and upper and lower abdomen done. There is not much fat on my love handles, but there is some on my hips.??The procedure itself hurt, sometimes a lot. But the girls and Trevor were so awesome and funny! It really hurts around the ribs and hips, the belly button is a little painful too.
They start off by getting all the paper work done. Trevor then did my consultation, asking to see the areas. Later they then take your vitals. Mine were crazy high, so they had to do it again. After that you take some medication, and before or after that, I can’t remember...They draw the area’s that will be done on your body.
They then put the numbing fluid in. This is painful near the bones, and ribs. It feels like your body is a stress ball and the doctor is squeezing and moving it. Soon after they start to remove the fat. For the most part it is okay. At the end it starts to hurt more since there is less fat.
?After the procedure I felt awful, but after the vicodin was given I felt much better. Now I feel excellent, just a little dizzy due to the vicodin. My stomache feels soft. I suppose this is to be expected since I am swollen, and the skin hasn’t reatached itself yet.
I can see some swelling and brusing on my tighs, and in my pubic reginion there is some swelling but this is to be expected.
Oh and post meds are quite affordable.
I will post more soon!