2 Weeks PO - Mommy Makeover- Full TT with Significant Diastisis Repair and Implant Exchange
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I am a 33 year old mother of two wonderful...
- 31 May 2012
- 7 days pre
I am a 33 year old mother of two wonderful children, a 4 year old boy (c-section) and 2 year old girl (vbac). For the last year I have been staying at home with my kids. Before that I worked for six years as an attorney. I am a little over a week away from getting a full TT with major muscle repair and will also be exchanging my saline implants for silicone. I have been on RealSelf for more than 2 years reading everything I could about these procedures, trying to come to peace with my stomach, or getting it fixed. After many consults, thoughts from people on this website, and many of my own sleepless nights I finally decided to get it done and am scheduled for June 8th.
I have a huge diastisis, the result of having two very large babies and have felt abnormal for years. I am 5'8" and hover between 145 and 150lbs. With my son I gained about 60 lbs. He weighted 9lbs 12 ounces at birth. I was determined to do things differently the second time and gained less than 30lbs, but still had a 9lb 8 ounce baby. I carried both of them straight out in front, as if their feet were on my spine and their heads were at my belly button. Despite working out hard (very intense cardio, weight training and running) five days a week for two years, I feel like I am in great shape but still look very pregnant.
For some reason, I am terrified of this surgery. I had implants when I was in my early 20s, but I think because I didn't have kids at the time I maybe felt like I didn't have as much to loose. I am worried I will not wake up from surgery, worried I will have complications that will make it hard to be an active mother, worried that I'll hate the way I look with such a huge, prominent scar. I could go on and on. Oddly, I'm not really worried about the pain. I know it will be difficult the first few days, but after having a c-sec, impIants, and 45 hours of totally natural child birth, I think I can get through the pain!
I finally decided to go through with this for a couple of reasons. First, the long term consequences of not getting the surgery started to weigh on me. My PS said my diastisis was the worst she had seen; partly because of the size of the gap in my muscles, and also because she said I don't have a lot of fat tissue on my belly to cover it up. I have scoliosis, and although right now I can mostly compensate with other muscles to protect my back while I workout and even go through normal life, I know I won't always be able to. Second, at my last consult I saw the pictures of myself standing there letting everything go and I was shocked at what I saw. I don't feel like the person I saw in those pictures. I am tired of having to look at the clothes in my closet I can't wear. And I'm tired of not wanting to plan beach vacations or go boating because I don't want to wear a bathing suit.
I chose my PS because I really like her as a person, she is very well qualified, and also because she does the progressive tension/drain free TT. She said it will take between 5-6 hours and the surgery plan is as follows: progressive tension TT, muscle repair with possibility of needing to do umbilical hernia repair (PS said if I have one it's small and she can't tell for sure if I do until surgery); PS left open the option of maybe needing to use mesh to help hold everything in, but said it's not likely; will do some lipo of the flanks if she feels it's necessary but again said not likely and if so, only a little. I am also going to switch my saline implants (330cc filled to 391cc) to silicone (haven't decided yet on size, but will go a bit bigger to help with lift). Will be doing a capsulorrhaphy to get implants closer together and a bit higher on my chest. Right now the implants have fallen too far towards my arm pits. PS said if I feel like I need a small lift a year after chaning implants she'll do one then. And now after writing all of this, I am about to talk myself out of it! It seems like a lot to do and a HUGE surgery and HUGE risk. I have until Tuesday to make any payments to the PS and hope I can stay as sure about doing this until then so I don't back out! She usually requires a portion of her fee to hold the date, but because she had an opening and I am able to get it done so soon after deciding she said I could just pay in full at my pre-op on Tuesday. Not sure if that is a good idea for me!
Still on track for surgery on the 8th. I'm...
- 3 Jun 2012
- 5 days pre
Also, anyone go through this without having pre-op...
- 3 Jun 2012
- 5 days pre
Surgery is tomorrow! I had my final pre-op a few...
- 7 Jun 2012
- 1 day pre
Plan to take my kids to the park for a picnic today and then drop them off at grandparents' for the weekend. That will be hard, saying goodbye, but I'm going to have to stay cool so I don't scare them. My 4 year old seems a bit worried when I talk to him about it. I have told them that I have a hole inside my tummy that I need to get fixed so that I can be strong. They know that I will be slow for a while and that Dad and other family members will have to do everything I do for a while. I plan on having them come up onto my bed sometime that first week to sit by me. Anyone else try that?
Off to make one more meal for my family and then work on packing for my kids. It's 5:30 AM but being busy really helps!
Up super early this morning. Have to be at the...
- 8 Jun 2012
- Day of treatment
First day PO and feeling pretty good. Everything...
- 9 Jun 2012
- 1 day post
PO Day 3. Wondering why in the world I was ever...
- 11 Jun 2012
- 3 days post
Trying to think of other milestones. Went outside for a bit this morning with my coffee and looked at my garden. Saw both of my kids. They climbed up on the bed and gave lots of gentle kisses. Liking to have a few visitors now. Tried going downstairs last night with husband for some different scenery. Couches were not as comfortable and coming back up stairs wore me out so I'll wait to try that again for a few days.
Loved seeing my new shape. Still swollen and I can't stand up straight yet so there is a bit of loose skin when I bend over. It disappears when I stand up straight but just not quite comfortable with that yet. Feel like PS got the scar nice and low and straight. Boobs look a bit weird still, but I know from when I had BA done the first time that they take a while to settle in. All in all pretty easy and actually pretty nice to be pampered!
Morning of PO Day 4. Slept great last night. ...
- 12 Jun 2012
- 4 days post
The only thing bugging me now is the stupid hole in the compression garmets for going to the bathroom. Could use some advice on this one. I think someone else here posted about the CGs and referred to them as the baboon pants or something like that. I am HATING how the hole seems to just squeeze right around my va-jay-jay! :) Everytime my hubby sees me without pants on over the damn CGs he starts laughing which of course makes me laugh too! Any one else have that issue or ideas of how to help? Seriously the hole is just in the right spot and is the perfect size to wrap around my girlie bits and always squeeze them slightly out!
PO Day 5 Morning. Easier and better everyday. I...
- 13 Jun 2012
- 5 days post
Met with PS yesterday afternoon for first time PO. She said, "you're healing like a teenager." Yea! She said everyone in the OR was laughing during the TT because when they brought the muscles back together there was a six pack, which is why they did the fat graft, to make it look more natural and feminine. I swear, working out and being in good shape is the best insurance policy ever! Makes healing SO much better!
PS also said BB looks good (we were worried I might lose it), gave me the all clear to start massaging new softer boobies and said I could wear any bra I wanted so goodbye to CG number 1, I won't miss you at all! Also said I could start wearing Spanx for the tummy so I may start rotating it with CGs. I was a bit worried about the size of my tummy below the BB. It looks bigger than I expected. She said it's all swelling. She tried to drain some of it with a needle (holy crap, closed my eyes when I saw that coming, but it actually didn't hurt at all). Couldn't get much fluid out. She said it's not the seroma-like swelling you can drain, it's just fluid in the tissues that needs new lymph and vasculature to drain. She to relax and give it time and it will come down. She said in the OR before any swelling it was totally flat. She also said that in a few months when swelling is done if I still don't like it she'll just do a procedure in her office to snip off any extra skin. Same for my boobs. My right is a bit uneven because baby number 2 only nursed from the right so it got an extra year of breastfeeding and is therefore droopier. She said when everything settles down she can snip a bit of skin in her office under local and do a mini lift on it. So, glad to hear that there are easy options if I want a minor fix on a few things. She also snipped off a mole I had on my right side during surgery. I hadn't noticed it was gone, but a nice added benefit. That thing drove me crazy while I was prego so glad to see it go too!
1 week and a day PO. Still doing well. I had a...
- 16 Jun 2012
- 8 days post
On a much different and totally terrible note, I had a continuation of my complaints about the CG garmet being uncomfortable in a terrible squeezing-in-the-private-regions way. Just a warning, this may be TMI for some so please don't read if you don't want to hear about a TERRIBLE OB/GYN experience. On PO day 6 I woke up feel really really sore and itchy down there. As I mentioned in an earlier post, the CG squeezes in a terrible way and is almost always moist and clingy and super uncomfortable. I think the combination of all of those things gave me a yeast infection, because I had been super itchy and irritated on PO days 4 and 5. Anyway, morning of PO day 6 wake up and it's clear I'm going to need to do to the Dr. Call, get appt, break the news to hubby that he's going to have to take me and probably come in to help me get on the table if needed. At this point, I had showered two days ago, hadn't shaved my legs since the day before surgery, feeling super disgusting. Off we go to the OB/GYN. Get there, explain what's happened and that I still have the CG on, hoping she would just write me an RX and we'd be off. No. She wants to do a culture, and then asks if she should just go ahead and do my annual pap. Um, NO, are you freaking kidding me?!!! Insists she's going to do the culture and will do the Pap too if I'm still doing okay. Now, the truly bad part. How does she do the exam....through the FREAKING CROTCH HOLE in the CG!!!!!!!!! First thing she says is, "you have the most irritated vagina I have ever seen." Word for word, first thing she says. I looked at my husband and said I told you that thing sucks! Proof that the CGs are terrible! My husband was there in the room for the entire thing and luckily all three of us had been laughing about how crazy this entire situation was from the beginning. I think not many PO experiences can be that funny or humiliating, and certainly was something I never thought I would experience in my entire life.
So this Friday will be 2 weeks since my surgery. ...
- 20 Jun 2012
- 12 days post
Only worry is my tummy! I tried to get into shorts yesterday from before surgery. Size 4 that were loose around my waist pre-op (my diastasis was super high, like sternum to belly button but then small around my hips). COULD NOT EVEN ZIP THEM AROUND MY WAIST! WTF?!? My PS cleared me to wear Spanx but I am keeping the CG on to help with the swelling; I am avoiding salt like the plauge; eating very clean; drinking tons of water. I don't know what to do. I keep telling myself it's swelling, it will go down, but I'm starting to get worried. Did she not tighten it enough? Will all this swelling stretch the skin out and I'll be left with new saggy skin below my BB? Will I have to get a revision? Terrible thoughts creeping in. So hard not to compare to others on this site that are tiny tiny tiny by this point and get frusterated that I am not there yet too! Will post pics soon so you can see what I'm talking about.
Day 13. Here are some new pics. See what I mean...
- 21 Jun 2012
- 13 days post
Two weeks and a day PO. I feel like mostly back...
- 23 Jun 2012
- 15 days post
Thanks for all the birthday wishes everyone! It's...
- 24 Jun 2012
- 16 days post
Dr. Keen is amazing! I met with several other PS, all of whom were very well qualified and had the type of credentials I was looking for. I chose Dr. Keen for many reason, but here a few of the main reasons. First, I really liked her as a person . She is very down to earth and I think she truly cares that her patients get a great result. I was very nervous leading up to surgery and she took all the time I needed to address concerns and help me relax. Second, I did a lot of research and I believe that Dr. Keen is at the leading edge of her field, doing things like the progressive tension tummy tuck. Other PSs told me they wouldn't do it, but after researching it myself I felt like it was the better option; harder for the surgeon, but better results and easier recovery. If you read about my recovery I think you can see how easy it is and how wonderful Dr. Keen made my stomach look. I always felt like I was in an expert's hands and the surgical results show it! I also found her to be very relaxed and yet at the same time extremely confident which really helped me. Dr. Keen called my husband Saturday and Sunday mornings (my surgery was on Fri) to check on us and spent all the time he needed with her. I could go on and on with examples of why I think she is so wonderful. Jodi and the other ladies in Dr. Keen's office are amazing, very helpful and really care about you as well. Very easy to get a hold of and they are very responsive to e-mail too, including Dr. Keen! I feel so lucky to have found Dr. Keen through someone else's posting on RealSelf and hope that others do to. I will always give Dr. Keen my highest recommendation!