Over a year has passed! - Media, PA

Where to begin...well, when I was a kid I was very...

Where to begin...well, when I was a kid I was very outgoing and fearless when it came to trying new things, but that all seemed to change when I entered middle school and started getting teased for my nose. I was called all types of names which I still feel uncomfortable talking about to this day. After continuously being made fun of I tried avoiding attention any way I can. I stopped speaking out in class, I quit playing sports I loved, and I had trouble making new friends. I don't get teased as much as I did then, but once in awhile someone says something hurtful and I burst into tears. Now that I'm older, I'm not as afraid of being judged as I used to be, but I still don't feel confident in my looks because of my nose. People always tell me how pretty I am, but I feel if I don't change my nose I will never feel attractive and will continue to go through life afraid of people making rude comments.

I went to my consultation and have set the date (Sept. 6th). I got my computer imaging done and it seems to look very different..probably because I'm just not used to seeing myself with a different nose lol. Of course it's a good different..smaller, less pointy, and no bump. My Dr. specializes in facial plastic surgery so I'm confident he won't mess up my nose. I read a lot of good reviews about him and he seems to really know what he's doing. He's very nice too. I think I'll be really happy with the results.

I'm paying for this whole surgery myself, which took awhile to save up with my 6.25 an hr job. I plan on quitting my current job for various reasons, but it will be better to start somewhere new, too. I have an interview this Wednesday for another job, and if all goes well I will start there a few weeks after my surgery so hopefully I won't be too swollen. If I don't get the job I will have to stay where I am (even though I absolutely HATE it), but I will have no choice because I am paying part of my surgery using CareCredit and I need a job so I can make my payments monthly. I hope this was a good decision because I haven't heard many good things about CareCredit, but I saved up most of the money so the payments shouldn't take long to pay off anyway.

I haven't told many people about my surgery..it was actually very hard to tell my mom I even wanted surgery. Of course she said things like "You're beautiful the way you are" and "Your boyfriend loves you and thinks you're beautiful," but I explained to her that I'm doing this for me, not for anyone else. I want to be comfortable in my own skin and if I do this I know I will be. I live in a small town so I know everyone will know I got my nose done when they see me, which I'm a little worried about, but I'm sure it'll be old news a few weeks after my surgery when people get the gossiping out of their system. I'm sure my friends will be surprised because I never even mention my hate for my nose. I don't know if I should tell them or just wait until it's done..suggestions? The closest I've gotten to telling my friends is by saying I'm getting "a makeover" lol.

When I found this site I wasn't going to post my story in worry of someone I know finding me on here, but I need to stop caring what people think about me if I want to do this! This is my life and I'm going to do what makes me happy. Also, I could use the support from others who are going through the same thing as me. Not to mention I'm sure my mom and boyfriend don't want to hear about my nose 24/7. Any tips and advice would be great :)

I understand what you are saying about being scared to tell people. I ended up telling anyone that asked why I was having surgery (friends mainly) that it was a septoplasty and I just got my bump shaved down while they were in there. My mom reacted the same way and said I was so beautiful and started to cry. That made me feel sad, guilty, and almost rethink it. But now I am glad I did because I did it for me. I just got my cast off today!
Reply
I'm glad you stuck to it & you're happy with your decision because I'm definitely at the point where I'm hesitant on doing this, but I know I'll regret it forever if I don't. Just looked at your pictures and your new nose looks great! :) Your nose doesn't even look swollen. Your bruising seemed to fade quickly too. hope I'm that fortunate :) it looks beautiful!
Reply
I recommend taking Boiron Arnicare tablets 2 days before you surgery to minimize bruising and swelling, but ask your doctor. Mine gave it to me at my pre-op appointment and I had just about no bruises! And about being scared to tell people- don't be at all!! The only thing I think is funny is going out and noticing that people I haven't seen in years are looking at me funny, but I think its hilarious and quite flattering!! I love my nose and you'll love yours too! Nothing else matters! Can't wait to see pics .....PS I also recommend having flavored drinks around after your surgery- plain water just didn't cut it when I woke up every couple hours in the night with cotton mouth...One thing I wish I knew after surgery!
Reply

My job interview is today. I hope I can start out...

My job interview is today. I hope I can start out somewhere new!

So my interview went well so I think I'll be...

So my interview went well so I think I'll be starting a new job soon! I just have to take a computer test and if I pass that then I get the job. I'm not sure how long I should wait to start after the surgery. I was thinking 2 weeks?

Tonight I'm going to be telling one of my closest...

Tonight I'm going to be telling one of my closest friends about my surgery. I know she'll be surprised because I never even hinted about wanting this done. She thought I was joining the Air Force when I told her I had something important to tell her, lol. I hope she'll be supportive.

Since my surgery is a few weeks away I wanted to start writing a list of things I'm going to need ahead of time because I have a bad habit of waiting until the last minute to do things. It's right around the corner :)

Tonight was not a great night. I told my friend...

Tonight was not a great night. I told my friend and she just couldn't understand why I wanted to do this. She told my brother (also her fiance) and he doesn't understand why I would want to "change" myself. I just wish they knew all of the horrible teasing I've been through, then maybe..just maybe they could see where I'm coming from. It made me cry because I expected support from them & they said "whatever makes you happy." If this didn't consume my thoughts every day and I knew how to live with it, I wouldn't have saved the money and busted my butt working for this surgery. I just want to be able to walk down the street and not have to worry about people yelling cruel things out of their windows at me. "Why do you care what people think about you?" she asked..well, it's hard to explain to someone who has never been in this situation. I wish I was happy with myself and I just want to be happy and not have to think about it anymore!!! ugh, I feel bad now. I'm still going through with it, I just hope they get over the confusion soon. I'm glad everyone on this site is supportive. I need that right now
i wish you all the best, and keep us posted on the outcome if you want
Reply
that's exactly how i thought, but the fact that i was so insecure and hated it so much blinded me in realizing that im actually changing myself as a person, i look back at photos now thinking how ugly it was and i wish i back everyday, i thought the happiness and confidence would come but it has not, trust me when i say make sure you definitely make the right decision as there is no way back
Reply
I'm sorry you aren't happy with the outcome & thank you for the advice, but I've made the decision to stick with it.
Reply

Just a few days away!! There's so much going...

Just a few days away!! There's so much going through my mind and I just want to get it over with already!!
Best of luck! I had mine done although I was never teased about my nose, it wasn't really that bad but I was exceptionally conscious of it and would obsess about it. It really doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, if you are unhappy and it affects your confidence and you have the option to do it, why not! I had my nose done at 21 and my only regret was I hadn't done it sooner, but I was younger and I knew I would have to battle my mum about it. By 21 there was no stopping me and 11 years later I have not regretted it for a second. I didn't tell anyone except my best friend just before. She was a bit shocked but I had winged about my nose for so many years she didn't question my decision. There was no pain, it was just a bit boring being stuck in with the bandage on, but that is a small price to pay. Just ignore what anyone else has to say, it's about you and how you feel, you won't regret it!
Reply
It seems so unreal that I'm finally changing it. It's going to be weird not having to worry about it anymore. I can't wait to go out & not worry about someone being mean to me =]

It really is hard for others to understand who haven't lived with it. They think I'm "changing myself" but really it's going to be a good change & a huge confidence boost. Nothing anyone says will stop me now. It's 2 days away :)
Reply

You're almost there. Virtually holding your hand as you go through this!

Reply

So tomorrow is the day. I can't believe it's...

So tomorrow is the day. I can't believe it's finally here...I have butterflies already & I'm distracted from my homework I should be doing. I've had a migraine today & yesterday & it won't go away! I know it's because I'm anxious & worried. Good thing the surgery is in the morning because I have a feeling I won't be getting much sleep tonight. I really hope I can finally be happy :)
Good luck tomorrow!
Reply
Thanks!
Reply
Like someone else said, they can't talk about it forever. Even if it is a big deal at first, pretty soon they will find the next big thing to be outraged over.
HOORAY ROBIN'S SURGERY IS TOMORROW AND MINE IS 5 DAYS AFTER HER'S!!!
Reply

Hi everyone! Well, I finally did it yesterday. The...

Hi everyone! Well, I finally did it yesterday. The day started out pretty rocky. I was late going to the hospital because we got lost, which I felt really bad about. I waited in the waiting room for about 10 minutes for my Dr. to show up and then I did a urine test and got changed. The nurses were really nice to me and made me feel more relaxed. Next thing I know it I woke up to the nurses telling me I was in recovery and I start to CRY. I have no idea why I was crying, but they gave me medicine so I stopped. In recovery, I couldn't sleep at all. They even gave me medicine to try to help me sleep, but my throat hurt soooo bad so they gave me ice chips which helped a lot. One of the nurses said she was really worried about me because I'm so pale & she was surprised I wasn't anemic.

I was nauseous on the way home from the hospital and when I got home I threw up blood. It was awful :( Yesterday I was bleeding profusely. I had to constantly change my gauze & my mom called the Dr. to make sure it was normal to bleed that much. I haven't eaten since Wednesday evening and I would eat if my mouth didn't taste like blood because I continue to spit it up. I try to avoid looking in the mirror because I'm so ugly right now...I just want these days to go faster.
I'm sure you will feel better each day. Remember to take your meds. This will all be a memory next week. Feel better!
Reply
haha I seriously can't wait until next week. thanks :)
Reply
all the best!!
Reply

Today is much better than yesterday. My swelling...

Today is much better than yesterday. My swelling is finally starting to go down which is great because this morning my right eye was swollen shut. I know that results aren't immediate so I'm just focusing on keeping up with my meds & keeping the stitches moist. The nausea I had the first day and yesterday is now gone and now I just feel like I'm really congested. At this point I wish I could fast forward to a month post op so I don't have to deal with this cast or the swelling anymore.
Cant wait to see your after pics! I can relate to everything you posted! The teasing and the people who cant understand why you want to fix something YOU dont like! Speedy recover to you!
Reply
I'm already happy with how it looks & I haven't even gotten the cast off yet! I don't try to explain to anyone anymore. It's my life & I shouldn't feel bad for doing something to make myself happy. Thank you! I'll be posting pics soon :)
Reply

Cast is off! :)

Cast is off! :)
Ya gotta love that profile! Did the stitches hurt when he removed them?
Reply
It's so much better! I'm so happy :D it pinched a little, but nothing extreme. I bet you're excited to get that cast off!
Reply
I am doing Ok but oh so congested! The swelling has moved to my cheeks too so I look like a chipmunk. Are you back to work yet? There was another rhino in there today. She looked absolutely miserable. Are you able to breathe through your nose yet?
Reply

So it's been a week and a day since my surgery &...

so it's been a week and a day since my surgery & I'm so much happier already :) I'm feeling more confident & it looks so much better than before. The front view is still pretty swollen but the profile is a lot better & it will only continue to improve which is exciting! :)

Correction: it's been 2 weeks since my surgery

Correction: it's been 2 weeks since my surgery

Things I have noticed: My other facial features...

Things I have noticed:

My other facial features are more noticeable now because of my smaller nose. ex. my eyes pop more, my upper lip is way fuller than before, and the pores on my nose are a lot tinier than before surgery (which may be because I haven't been wearing makeup on it, but either way I like it!).

It's a lot to get used to & i hope it looks as good as I think it does. I just know it looks so much better than my old nose & that's good enough for me. Others have noticed my confidence has improved & I'm more talkative in social situations, while before I was too busy hiding to avoid stares and/or comments on my nose. My friend hesitated when she saw me to tell me it looks good, she sounded like she forced it, but whatever. I'm just glad I don't have to be afraid anymore & I can just be myself

I was also curious as to why you're not supposed...

I was also curious as to why you're not supposed to work out or raise your heart rate too much after surgery? Can this affect the healing process? I tried doing a light work out yesterday & got a little lightheaded, but I don't want to get out of shape.
Hi little robin. As far as I understand about exercise is you need to go easy first few weeks. Your blood pressure rises which could cause a nosebleed, if the bleeding did not stop they may have to pack your nose which could compromise your results. Hope this helps.:-)
Reply
ahh I don't want that. thanks, it did help!
Reply

I'm a little nervous because my right side seems...

I'm a little nervous because my right side seems to be a little pointer than the left side of my nose. I'm hoping it's just swelling, but I'm not sure. Has anyone else experienced this? Maybe I'm worrying too much, haha

I'm thinking it's just tip swelling so I'm trying...

I'm thinking it's just tip swelling so I'm trying not to worry about it.
Your nose is smaller but the doctor waa able to keep its character. Looks great.
Reply
thank you :)
Reply
wow it looks great!
Reply

So in 3 days it will be 4 weeks since surgery & it...

So in 3 days it will be 4 weeks since surgery & it feels like forever ago! It's weird but I don't think anyone notices a difference in my nose except the people closest to me. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, though. My nose is still slowly changing day after day & even though it's been weeks since my surgery, it's hard to believe I actually did it. I didn't chicken out & I will never have to worry about being teased for my nose again. I've gotten a compliment from someone the other day that I know I wouldn't have gotten with my old nose..someone told me that I have such a "natural" face & I look like I'd be in a covergirl commercial. I never had a compliment like that before! It really made my day. Also, it reminded me that my nose looks natural so that made me feel good. I'm so relieved that I don't have to hide my face anymore or worry about people yelling out of their car windows at me anymore (yes, that happened).

I have memories of guys rejecting me because I had a big nose & random strangers making fun of me just because they can & although I went through a lot of hurting & pain because of those experiences, I'm still glad I wasn't born with a smaller nose. It's a reminder for myself to think before I say something to someone that could hurt their feelings. Yes, we're human & we make mistakes, but words can make or break a person. If only we knew the impact we can have on someone else's life then maybe we would think before we comment on someone's appearance. Who knows, if those people knew what they were doing to me & how much I was falling apart inside, maybe they wouldn't have said those things to me & I would have never felt like an ugly piece of garbage because I wasn't what society considered beautiful. Come to think of it, out of all of those times I was bullied & picked on for my appearance, I never got an apology from any of those people. Not one. & believe me, there was a lot. I'm not exaggerating on that part, but that's a really sad thing. My confidence is higher than before & I think it will continue to get better, but it will take time.

I should have just wrote "dear diary" at the top of this update, lol. =p
Hi there....my surgery is scheduduled for December 4th and I'm getting super excited and nervous at the same time. Now I'm so nervous I'm going to get sick and have to postpone it. They told me I can't have a fever within a week of having the surgery. It seems like a lot of people have a cold or something right now so I'm super worried. I love looking at your pics and your story because it's so much like my story. I am older than you, 44 years old, and considered very pretty (at least that's what I'm told lol) but it never fails that we go to public places like amusement parks or places you have to wait in line for a long time and walk past people that someone has to look at me, then whisper to their friends and then look at me again so they can all check out my big nose. For the longest time I tried to ignore it and be happy with me the way I am but as I get older I have realized I don't have to put up with it, that I can change it. I just went to Jamaica for a week with my husband and we had a photo shoot done. The pictures are beautiful but they took a lot of them with my husband and I looking at each other. I hated every single one that showed my profile...it just made me cringe. I knew then that this was the best decision for me. I have two kids who have never said anything about my nose but I'm sure their friends have. My husband says he fell in love with me with this nose and that I don't need to ever change it on his account. He always has to stick up for me when people say things. He tells them off and tells them I'm a way better more beautiful person than they will ever be. He's awesome!! So I'm scared to death to do this but looking at your pictures makes me know I'm doing the right thing. You were beautiful before your sugery but I can truly put myself in your shoes. And like you, I am glad I was born with this nose because I do believe it has made me a better person. I've taught my kids not to ever put someone down or make fun of someone's features. I am always just waiting for someone to whisper and laugh about me and it is so hurtful. So as scared as I am to do this I am also hoping I will feel so relieved to walk into a room and turn my head sideways and not worry that someone is going to say something. It will be the best feeling in the world!! Thank you for sharing your story and giving all of us the confidence to do this. I guess I'm giving myself a nice Christmas present!!
Reply
Hi :) I was the same way when I waited in lines at amusement parks..I never wanted anyone to see the side of my face so I tried to hide it by looking at the ground or covering my face with my hair. Me & my fiance got old time photos done about a month before surgery & I HATED the pictures of me looking at him...I just couldn't stop staring at my nose so I know what you mean about that :P. My fiance told me I didn't need to do it too..that I was beautiful the way I was, but in the end it's about what makes you happy and what will give you confidence. I hope your surgery goes well & don't hesitate to message me if you have questions or just want someone to talk to. good luck!
Reply
Thank you for your reply! I had surgery this past Tuesday. Wow, was that a very painful experience. So many people on here talk about how easy it was and hardly any pain...well that was not my experience at all. My surgery was 3 hours and I was in major pain until about day 4. I am so glad that is over with!! I get my cast off tomorrow. I have splints inside my nose that are stitched in and they are so irritating. It will feel so good to have them out. Now I am worried about the outcome. I can tell my nose looks shorter but it still looks really big on the end. All I can do at this point is trust my surgeon and hope that it goes down in time. After my surgery the surgeon told my husband that he thinks I will be really happy with my new nose so I am putting my faith into that and trying my best not to worry. It's hard to look in the mirror right now. I am praying for a good outcome. Thank you again for your reply. It's so nice to talk to someone who knows exactly what you're going through. :-)
Reply

Just a little over 5 months since my surgery! I...

Just a little over 5 months since my surgery! I posted some updated photos
What a beautiful story, beautiful person, and beautiful result. I loved reading your responses to others too. You said something that really struck a chord with me, and I quote, "I'm still glad I wasn't born with a smaller nose. It's a reminder for myself to think before I say something to someone that could hurt their feelings" AMEN! Amen, amen, amen AMEN amen AmEn!!! Did I say Amen! Seriously, I was just talking with Hubby about that exact same thing. We get to have the beauty we were teased for lacking somehow to "their" standards, and the beautiful souls that come with struggle and internal strength. Thanks for visiting my profile, I'm glad you did. You're beautiful in so many ways, congrats my friend!
Reply
Thank you!! It's such a great thing isn't it? It's a shame so many people point out other people's flaws to make themselves feel better. No one deserves that. I'm so glad I found this website & talked to people who knew exactly how I felt and understood why I wanted to get the surgery. I'm getting married in 4 months and I'm so glad I won't have to worry about my nose in pictures. Thank you for everything!
Reply
Thank you!! It's such a great thing isn't it? It's a shame so many people point out other people's flaws to make themselves feel better. No one deserves that. I'm so glad I found this website & talked to people who knew exactly how I felt and understood why I wanted to get the surgery. I'm getting married in 4 months and I'm so glad I won't have to worry about my nose in pictures. Thank you for everything!
Reply

Over a year now!!

can't believe it's been over a year since my surgery. Time certainly flew by :) I am extremely happy with how I look now & it was one of the best decisions i made in my life. I strongly encourage anyone who is considering getting this done because of their insecurities to do it because it has changed my life & I know it's a scary decision, but it was so worth it.
Thank you for sharing your story. My brother had such a big impact on how I felt about my nose. He used to call me "Gonzo" lol. I don't really think he has any idea of the pain it caused me or the complex it gave me, and I'm pretty sure if he did he would feel terrible-- as all brothers naturally tease and torture their siblings. I think the best was when I told him I was going to have surgery to fix my breathing (partially true) I remember how he vividly said "Okay, because you better not be doing this to change how you look." He's against plastic surgery. So yeah, still to this day, he has no idea of the insecurity he instilled in me, which I don't ever hold against him as kids are just insensitive out of ingorance. I try to use humor in everyday life to mask everything, but reading your story really brought to the surface all of those feelings that I've never addressed. I also completely agree about being thankful for the nose because while not being social or outgoing, I buried myself in books/seeking knowledge, acquired a sense of humor in the process, and most importantly, I am highly aware of how my words can affect others. Thank you again so much for sharing. I am fortunate to have found this community.
Reply
hey girl, can u please post a recent frontal? you look great btw
Reply
Did you get it done by Dr. Pontell by chance? Your nose looks amazing :)
Reply
Was this review helpful? 12 others found this helpful