33 Years Old 5'0" (116lb) TT, BA W/Silicone - Manchester, NH

I've been on RealSelf since 2011 and I finally get to add my review. I want to share my experiences to help everyone, like so many people have done for me. (I'm a little obsessed and my husband asks if I'm looking at my "fetish [RS bleep] site" lol)

A little about me: I'm a 33yo stay at home mom with two kids (13dd, 6ds). My last one really did a number on me and was so big that he got stuck. Sadly, my muscles never recovered. I'm only 5' and I'm pretty active because I love food. I had foot surgery last year and gained a bunch of weight. One day I felt better and decided to burn 1,000 calories a day. I did this for 10 weeks straight and lost about 2lbs a week. Man, I missed working out and it's going to be hard to stop again for recovery. Right now I'm at 116lb. I weigh less than I did in HS, but you can't tell. From my head, down to my collar bone, I look fit. Go any lower and it's a scary sight. My breasts alone have been blown up from nursing and weight loss. They are deflated balloons and I lean on them when I roll over in my sleep. Ouch!

I am not shy about my surgery. It's for me and I try to take all the, "you don't need it, you look great" comments as a compliment. I am constantly sucking in my tummy. Even when my surgeon was taking pictures he had to let me know to stop. My husband is awesome and so supportive. He knows how hard I've worked with less than stellar results. He knows that this is the only thing that will fix me and is willing to put off getting a new car so I can get this done.

The first time I saw my PS was back in 2011. I had no idea what to expect and basically went to see how much I needed to save. This time, I almost was in tears because I finally got to set the date. 54 days from today on August 3rd, I'll be on the flat side.

Dr Feins was happy that I came with a phone loaded with questions. He is really easy to talk to and when I mentioned that my husband didn't mind how I looked, he promptly said, "It's not about him. This is all about you!" I knew it, but it was great to have him say it. I am going to get a full tummy tuck with a breast lift and 300cc implants. That will make me a full C or small D which I'm happy with because I've always been bigger before kids. There are going to be no drains. I was very nervous about this, but it will be great to be able to shower soon after. My mother had drains (different doctor) and she still has pain at the sight and can't wear elastic underwear on that spot. She is very happy I won't have drains. My breasts are going to have a lot of scars basically a" o-) " on my breast if it were sideways. I'm okay with that. I have so much extra skin. Dr. Feins also wants me to stay at the surgical center overnight because I live about an hour away from both his office and the center. I never even thought of that. I'm very thrilled about my decision to go with him as my PS.

As of today, I'm 50 days away. It seems so far but my summer is pretty packed so I hope it will fly by. Funny, I never want summer to fly by. I'm going camping next week and the only think I keep thinking is that I wish I had everything done already so I can wear a nice bikini. Next year I will be awesome. I'm also worried that I'll gain some weight while camping. It's basically a week long festival/party with about 2000 people. There is lots of food venders and alcohol. I'm well versed on how many calories my favorite drinks are so I'll have to take it easy. I'll still have time after to lose anything I gain, but it's hard to watch everything when you just want to have fun.

I finished reading all my consent and explanation forms a few days ago. It's a lot to take in. I've had surgery before and dealt with longer recovery times but this is really intense and frankly, I'm scared as hell. My mom was going to come in July to visit, but I think she would rather come for my surgery. I went back there to take care of her when she had it 1 1/2 years ago. I knew she was in good hands, but I wanted to be there and help, so no matter how many times I tell her that my husband will do a great job, I understand her wanting to be here. I'm so lucky to have everyone's support in my immediate family. They are all so excited for me. My mom actually has contributed to my "surgery fund" many times.

I see everyone on here buying a bunch of stuff to prepare, but I don't think I'll get much. My ps will supply the binder and sports bra. I might get one of the Go Gurl things, and some stool softeners/MoM, but I think that's about it. It may change at my pre-op apt in a month, but I specifically asked him and there was nothing. I also asked what I can do now to physically prepare ie, work out more or tone up abs or pecs. He said just eat more pineapple because it's been known to help with healing. Can do.

So I'm going camping next week and there's not any good service there. I will be without RS for a whole week. I am going to be looking forward to reading all the updates when I get back. I'm nervous about gaining weight while I'm there, but hopefully I can run with my husband every morning and go for one of the planned hikes. This is a big party week and there's going to be lots of free-all-you-can-drink alcohol since I am VIP. I'm hoping to try and drink water during the day though.

When I get back home, I'm planning on doing a strict No-S diet. No snacks, sweets or seconds except on days that start with S. I did this while I was working out a lot and it's really something I should practice all the time. Ice cream is my nemesis. I say that there's always room for it because it melts and fills in the cracks. At my height, I need to work out everyday just to be able to maintain eating over 1200 calories.

I've been thinking about some things I'm going to look forward to doing after I'm recovered.

1. Finally crochet something cute and form fitting for myself. I've made shirts before but they just aren't flattering. It will be so great to be able to look good in something I've made. I might even splurge on getting cashmere yarn.

2. Make a cosplay. I don't even care what it is at this point. I just want to maybe show a tiny midriff instead of thinking I look like Ursula from The Little Mermaid. It will probably be Studio Ghibli themed.

3. Clean the house naked. My husband says I can do this now, but...no.

4. Not have to suck my gut in all the time. Seriously, it's exhausting! I had my husband push out his gut as far as he could. He was flat as a board. I tried to push mine out. I couldn't. It seems like I'm always in a state of pushing out my belly as far as it will go. I guess I never realized until now.

5. Wear and look good in a bikini. The last time I wore a bikini was in HI seven years ago. It was a teeny-weenie-yellow polka dot one too. ;) Now it just sits in a drawer taunting me. The sad part is that I was 20lbs heavier when it looked good on me. I just want to look proportioned, darn it.
I'm sure I'll think of more, but it's a good start.

One thing I really like about RS is that no matter how long it's been since someones surgery, you can look at pictures and journeys to see the progress. I'm hoping that even if not many people read my review now, that it will help people maybe in a year. Hello future readers. :)

Happy Healing to all and I'll see you in a week.