325cc Mod + Profile Silicone

Only a day and a half to go! My surgery is scheduled for 7:30 am on Friday Dec 5. I'm really nervous at this point because I have no idea how I am going to look with larger breasts.

I feel like my breasts haven't changed much since I was in my early teens. They've always been a bit conical and constricted at the base, something I really hope to get rid of via surgery. I'm not even sure if I'd get the surgery if my breasts were merely small - it's more the shape that bothers me. I feel that my breasts have never looked like other peoples' and it has made me feel really different my whole life. It's impacted my self esteem and feelings of femininity a lot.

Still, I'm not a flashy person and I wanted to look natural. I told my PS that my ultimate goal was to look natural and after measuring me he recommended a round implant under the muscle with a periareolar incision. He explained that because he needed to lower my (pretty much nonexistent) inframammary crease, the areola was the best approach.

He initially recommended 275cc implants and I was fine with that and how the 275cc sizers looked. That was in July 2014.

Fast forward to November 2014 and my surgery is imminent. I started doing a lot more research and attended my pre op appointment. I stuck the gel implants to my chest under a surgical bra. While the 275s were fine, the 300 moderate plus profile provided more coverage of my chest. Dr. Salzman said I have a 'huge' breastbone even though I am 5'6" but have always worn a size 4 in tops.

The 300s were a wider diameter; I could feel they were wider even just with my hands trying on he implants. The nurse ordered the 300 cc implants at my request. Once home, and after doing some research, I realized that under the muscle you tend to lose some volume, about 25-50 cc? o i decided to revise my order. Dr. Salzman doesn't believe in sizers so my final order is my order (scary!). The office charged me $50 to send the 300 cc implants back but I feel like it was worth it to get the slightly larger size, especially in light of all the boob greed people talk about on this forum.

Now I'm just waiting. Hoping my result is decent. I filled my prescriptions, bought the Sinecch, the frozen peas. I've tried to prep my caretakers about what to expect.

I'm pretty nervous about how they'll look right out of surgery. I feel like it will take a month for them to even look decent and that is a long time to wait.

Comments and suggestions welcome! I don't have any friends with implants so I am kind of relying on this community. Any support would be great.

My surgery is tomorrow morning so this is my last evening with my little boobies. I feel like I should perform a farewell ritual or something. However, they will still be sitting on top of my implants so they will be there in spirit in a sense.

I'm so excited to change my look. I have hated my breasts for as long as I've had them. I've always felt cosmically shortchanged that I don't have womanly breasts. They have always looked pubescent. It's put a real chip on my shoulder I think! So this really could be cathartic for me.

I'm pretty nervous still but I know it's going to happen so I'm just going to go with it. I hope I can get some sleep tonight.