Mommy Makeover -TT part of this went well. Scheduling explant though.
- updated 4 months ago
Well, I'm finally doing it. I'm having my breasts...
- 4 Mar 2013
- 1 month pre
Well, I'm finally doing it. I'm having my breasts done and a mini TT. Woohoo!!
I am running a marathon in late March and trying to quickly get it done right after so that I can have 8-9 weeks of recovery before we head to a family vacation in Florida.
I have never had much up top (36A-B), but was a nice full C after babies, then deflated to barely a B. I've always wanted a perky, full C cup and I'm finally going to get it. I am a runner and cyclist and am a little worried about having them too large and heavy so that they bounce when running. I'm hoping this size will still give me the shape I want without too much interference during exercise. I really don't want to go much smaller. Who wants to go through all of the cost, time and recovery to not look like i had anything done? Um, not me!
I don't have much of a problem with my tummy, but some loose skin under my belly button, kind of a pooch, that I remember always having no matter what I did, even before kids. I'm so excited about getting that done too, but worried about the added recovery.
My best friend of 20 years is coming to stay with us for a couple of days so my husband isn't completely overwhelmed and grossed out by it all.
I'm so excited and so nervous! I just want to be on the other side of it and weeks into recovery!
I have found so much helpful information on here and looking forward to being able to share my story.
Pre-op is in two weeks and I'm sure my surgeon doesn't have a clue what he is in for with me. I'm a list maker and need LOTS of information.
I'll post pre-op pictures next week once I get them all taken.
Here are my stats:
44 years old
Going from a barely 36B to full 36C
Chose 350cc Sientra moderate profile silicone implants placed under the muscle with crease incision
Having mini TT to firm up lower tummy (pooch reduction)
I know I still have a few weeks to go, but I'm...
- 6 Mar 2013
- 1 month pre
Anybody else booby obsessed? Do you also have dreams about your surgery? I am just anxious to get this done. I wish my surgery was sooner...
4 week pre-op photos posted! I didn't realize...
- 6 Mar 2013
- 1 month pre
My surgeon will be out of town when my normal...
- 12 Mar 2013
- 1 month pre
We decided on 350cc Mentor, moderate plus profile, under muscle, crease incision implants, mini TT and some abdominal lipo with general anesthesia.
I don't have enough loose skin for a full TT, so I'm a candidate for a mini with lipo and some MR, but the top of my tummy may still be a little loose. My healing process will be much shorter, but I wish I was going to be able to get it totally flat! I'm ok with it though, have to work with what I have.
Surgery time is about 3.5 hours. He took some measurements and pictures too.
Got my prescriptions for Norco, Keflex and Soma.
Got all of my pre-op and post-op instructions and he spent some time going over my pages of questions. I feel very well informed and ready to go!
I then headed to the bank to pull out my final payment. I wanted to get the cash discount, so I paid in cash and now I'm ready to go!
I still have to get some blood work done, pick up some arnica and my compression garment, but that's about it.
I'm excited and nervous, but feel more prepared now.
What a whirlwind of a week! I had my pre-op early,...
- 14 Mar 2013
- 28 days pre
I have picked up my prescriptions, ordered my compression garment, picked up sports bras in my new size, ordered my Arnica and Bromelain, shower seat, toilet seat riser and front button gown from Amazon.
Now I am making lists of food I will pre-make and portion so that I can have them ready to go for surgery day and beyond.
I am not a procrastinator and feel so much better when I have everything in order, so it feels good to just about have it all done and have 4 weeks to go until surgery.
The next few weeks will be very busy, so I didn't want to wait. I am running a marathon next weekend, then I need a few days of doing nothing to recover. I am replacing a bunch of areas of our landscaping bark with river rock, so I'm shoveling and lifting and driving the wheelbarrow, etc., I am also trying to get any other to-do list items done. I have a bike rack to hang in the garage and a few more things to list and sell on eBay.
As you can tell, I'm the "honey-do" in our house. Hubby goes to work and I work my ass off at home! I really do like it though, I like staying busy.
Now that I have made a final decision on my implant size, (350cc moderate + silicone) I really feel much better. I was wavering between that and the 375 but now that I have decided, I feel so much better. I don't bigger is for me with all the crazy stuff I do all the time, not to mention the running, yardwork, cycling, etc,
I paid for my surgery in full. I'm spending some of my retirement money. Guess I am enjoying it now as well as in retirement. Might as well enjoy that money for years to come! ha! Hubby is excited too!
I am also going tonight for permanent eyeliner. I am nervous, but I think I really want to do it. I'm not doing anything crazy, just a little at the base of the eyelashes that is called "eyelash enhancement". Makes your eyes look a little brighter without having any makeup on. I don't wear much makeup these days, so permanent will work well. I'lll let you know how that goes. Does anybody else have permanent makeup?
I also considered fat grafting with my PS during my surgery. I would love to fill in under my eyes to make the dark circles go away. It was an additional $1,800 with the multi-procedure discount, but I wasn't certain I wanted to pay for that right now. I'm certain I want it, but didn't want to pay for it. Has anyone done this?
This must be my mid-life crisis! Boobs, TT, eyeliner, fat grafting. What is going on?? I never wanted any of this before. All of a sudden, I want to look youthful and perky!
Hope everyone is well. I've been enjoying reading all the updates of the surgeries that are happening this week!
4 more weeks and counting...
For some reason today I am totally freaking out...
- 15 Mar 2013
- 27 days pre
I feel like I'm having a panic attack about it and wondering if I'm this nervous, should I even go through with this...
I worried that my boobs will be too big and I'll hate that they will be in my way since I am so used to not having any and don't even have to think about them. Will they hurt my back, will they make it hard to run. Ugh!
I know we are all on these boards because we are thinking about doing or are doing this surgery, but when I talk to others that aren't really into modifying what the good lord gave us, it really freaks me out.
I may feel different tomorrow, but for now, I'm just so confused...
Whew, so glad that anxiety attack I had came and...
- 18 Mar 2013
- 24 days pre
I have just over 3 weeks to go and I have purchased everything I need. Here's what I have so far
3 front zip sport bras
2 front button old-lady night gowns
foam wedge for sleeping at an incline
roll for under knees
toilet seat riser
Gosh, I think that's it.
I am also starting to think about what meals I am going to be making for after. I'm a pretty good cook. I love making soups, especially pureed soups. I have pumpkin and butternut squash soup about to start today. I also will be making pea soup and grilling lots of chicken in a couple of weeks.
We have a HUGE industrial size tall freezer in our garage and I am planning on filling up a couple of shelves with pre-portioned meals for me especially, but also things for my son and husband to eat. I think the food/meals will be covered for a couple of weeks. I will just add fruits and veggies to the soup and not have to really even think about cooking for a while.
I'm sure I will have another ride on the emotional roller coaster, but as of now, I'm super excited!!
For all of you who have already made it to the...
- 18 Mar 2013
- 24 days pre
1. Did you do the rice test?
2. Was it anywhere close to your final result?
I'm still going back and forth on size and am loving how the 300cc "rice sizer" looks and the weight of it. Just wondering how close it will actually be to the final result if I got a moderate profile 300cc implant under the muscle. I know all the things they say about losing volume under the muscle, etc., Just wondering what others have experienced. Thanks
Well, looks like we weren't able to escape the...
- 18 Mar 2013
- 24 days pre
Hopefully the government can get their act together soon (not holding my breath) and then I may be able to reschedule.
So for now, I hope you all do well with your surgeries and recovery, it's been great being able to follow the journey of so many on here...
So, after much consideration and talking to my...
- 19 Mar 2013
- 23 days pre
Thanks to everyone for all the support during my craziness...
The furlough is still happening, but since I've already paid for the procedure, we will just have to make do without the big lump sum in the bank. Coupons and budgeting here we come!
So, I'm officially past the point of no return....
- 21 Mar 2013
- 21 days pre
I am dropping by the PS again today to try on sizers one last time before they order them. I know I'm probably driving them crazy, but this is a big decision for me and I have to be totally comfortable with my choice. I have been wearing my rice sizers and love this size, so I am going to wear one of my homemade sizers on one side and put the office sizer in the other and see if they are the same size. If so, 300 is it. I've been wearing them around in a sports bra and love this size.
Other than that, I'm ready. I have picked up everything on my list that I need for recovery and am already off of all anti-inflammatories and other meds that I need to D/C. (Although I'm running my marathon on Sunday and may need to pop a few Motrin before and after) I will be so happy to get back on my hormones when this is over. I need some balance.
My PS is out of town or I would be requesting another quick consult. I'm just not sure that the mini TT is really going to give me the flat tummy I want. The last thing I want is to go through all of this and still have jiggle. I want to see if there is an option that if he is in there and sees that he can go all the way to a full, then go for it. At my consult he told me I didn't need a full, don't have a lot of skin to pull down, but that means the top of my abs above my BB will still be soft and jiggly even though he is doing some lipo there, I don't know if the skin will firm up. There are so many variables during this process, ugh! Any input on the mini/full TT?
I'm so thankful for this site and all the support, you all rock!!
Happy Healing to all those that are going before me.
I seem to be evaluating the weeks these days with...
- 28 Mar 2013
- 14 days pre
Some physicians only do 1-2 weeks to d/c the HRT, but I want to go with the drug protocol and do the full 4 weeks, so I have been off for 2 weeks. I'm almost more excited about going back on those as I am to see my new boobies and flat tummy!
Anyway, it's been an emotional week, but still making more plans. Got my Fruit of the look bras and the biggest prep of all is that I finished my marathon! I know that if I am able to do that, I can do anything! That was tough emotionally and physically as my knee and hip decided they didn't want to run beyond 18 miles, so I had to push through a lot of pain. But I'm one tough cookie and got it done. I'm so glad I did. Now, I am more emotionally ready than ever.
I also made a final decision on the implant size 300 mod+ silicone unders, crease incision. I was able to bring home a couple of implants to wear in my bra (my surgeon is out of town) and after wearing both, the 325 was just too big. I'm glad i got to play with them for a few days. It was fun!
Only one last thing to tackle. The final talk with my PS about doing a mini or a full. He said I didn't need a full, but I really have a lot more skin than he thinks. He has never really pulled or pushed on my skin and I notice that I ALWAYS hold in my stomach. When I relax it, it really hangs. I need to take a new pic with my tummy relaxed so you can see. I hope he agrees I need a full or at least a modified mini. I would have to go through all this and sit down and my upper abs are bulging. gross.
Hope everyone is doing well. Let these 14 days go by quickly so I can be on the other side!!
So, I saw my PS today for my final, final consult...
- 1 Apr 2013
- 10 days pre
So, with all of those changes, it has increased the price another $4,000. Geesh, this is really getting crazy. But if I'm going to do this, I'm going to do it right. I hope I've made the right decision with size of the implant. I want to be just medium sized, perky and not big at all. I know that my height is going to make them look smaller, but the boobs will be the same as they would be on a smaller person, just look different on me. I just hope they aren't too big and running becomes a chore and all about the boobs because of how much I have to strap them down. Ugh, so much to think about. I left the office with total anxiety feeling like I was going to have a panic attack.
Had another round of, should I really be doing this? OMG! I need to just get out of my head and let the next 10 days fly by so I can get this recovery over with. I want to be on the flat side with some perky boobs! (I think ;-))
I know we all freak out about size, I hope I'm doing the right thing... I even considered 275 at one point. Any thoughts??
All the decisions having to do with anything...
- 4 Apr 2013
- 7 days pre
I am still having moments of total panic. I think it's my hormones. I am counting the days until I can go back on my HRT, amazing what a difference hormone balance makes. I haven't had a period in over a year and wouldn't you know it, I started my cycle yesterday! Glad I will be over that before surgery though and after a few days, I can get back on my meds.
Now I just have to finish all of my to-do's! IT was a VERY lengthly list a couple of weeks ago and after spending the last two days moving my 8 year old into my older daughters room (she moved out last July), one major project is off the list. I'm trying to get things done that require upper body strength, so I'm not tempted to over do it after the surgery. I have one more project, mount a large 2x16 beam in the garage to hang bike mounts on so we can hang the bikes on the wall and get them off the garage floor! I may tackle this one on Monday.
Now my days are consisting of cleaning, grooming the dogs, laundry, mow the lawns, vacuum, and cooking lots of meals to freeze. I already have the guest room ready to go. Changed the sheets, have foam wedge and knee roll in the bed, lots of pillows, toilet seat riser, shower seat, arnica, bromelain, cough drops, button front gown, compression garments, 36c bras (I'm guessing that will be my size) and all my prescriptions are filled. I'm also starting to collect magazines and I bought a couple of card games to play with my BFF while she is here helping me recover. Husband will be on kid duty, so she is on nurse duty.
I'm not sleeping well. Been waking up around 4:30am each day in a pile of nerves. I even take Ambien and I'm waking up that's how bad it is. I'll be so glad to be on the other side so I can finally be over the panic of what to expect after surgery, I'll be experiencing it! I have had a couple more rounds of "why am I doing this? my tummy really isn't so bad..." rounds in the last couple of days. Then I sit down and purposely grab my rolls and I feel better, I remember why.... Can't wait for boobs and a flat tummy!
I hope you are all doing well and have a great day!
7 more days and counting!!
So, I wondered for those that have gone before me...
- 7 Apr 2013
- 4 days pre
When I went for my pre-op appointment a month ago,...
- 10 Apr 2013
- 1 day pre
I had both done and as luck would have it, at 5pm as they were leaving the office, they dropped me an email that says, oh by the way, your potassium was 5.6 and your bilirubin is even higher at 2.0. We may want to look at your diet/supplements and re-test. WHAT? I know that high potassium is/can be an issue, so I called my PS on his cell since it was after hours.
He checked with the anesthesiologist and sure enough, I have to re-test first thing and if it's still high, no surgery.
I was first thing in the morning, which I love, because being NPO is tough for me and my anxiety builds the longer I wait.
So, the plan is to go to the lab in the morning and re-test. If things are fine, they move my surgery to last. If they are still elevated, surgery cancelled.
I'm so glad my primary care emailed me, even if it was late in the day. I'd hate to be having surgery with anything out of whack.
My anxiety is through the roof right now. I'm left with the question: Is this a test or a sign or just a little bump in the road?
Labs came back great. High potassium may have been...
- 11 Apr 2013
- Day of treatment
I didn't have much if any muscle separation, but he did say that they were very lax and he tightened them a lot from top to bottom!
I'm home now resting, getting in and out of bed is a challenge, but once I'm up I'm doing well, just feel faint quite a bit.
One issue that is freaking me out is that I have tingling in my fingers. Did anyone else go through this?
I'm all wrapped up in my CG so can't take pics, plus my CG is black so you can't see anything. I'll take pics at post op on Monday when I can see my incision.
Thank you so much for all the support from everyone today, I really felt everyone's energy and it helped me get through it. It was awesome.
I am just 6 hours or so post op,but eve since the...
- 11 Apr 2013
- Day of treatment
Well, it's been an eventful day full of lots of...
- 12 Apr 2013
- 1 day post
However, today is much worse with tightness and soreness of my abs. I hardly even think about my breasts, except to remove my bra and stare at them, they are firm, but don't hurt at all compared to the tummy.
I had quite a bit of oozing from my belly button, so I called my PS and they got me right in. They changed the dressing and said it looked great. I got to see my new belly button and after the swelling goes down, it's going to look great!
PS said I was right on track and things looked great. My abs are so sore because of all the muscle repair. Even though I had no muscle separation, they were very stretched. The assistant said I could bounce a quarter off of them now!
I've had some ups and downs today. I know it's early, but I"m tired of not being able to do anything except lay around and be sore. I feel really bad when the muscle relaxer is about out. That last hour is tough. After I take it, everything actually feels pretty good.
My tingling fingers are doing much better today. Still happening slightly, but I can tell it's going away. The strap over the boobs worsens the tingling, so it's on very loose.
I'm really looking forward to being a week from now!
My stomach is going to be FLAT! I took off my bra so hubby could see and he really likes them. They are a great size. I'm so happy I went with this size. Whew!
I'm drowsy from the muscle relaxers, so I must go, but wanted to check in. I've had times today where I was really in the dumps, tired of feeling yucky and then I have times where I'm so happy I did it. Can't wait to see the results.
I'm still having ups and downs but notice I'm...
- 13 Apr 2013
- 2 days post
I'm PO Day 4 and definitely getting better each...
- 15 Apr 2013
- 4 days post
Had my post-op today. Well, my official one anyway. I've already been in twice because of drainage around my BB I wanted him to check on and over the weekend, I've developed some type of rash on my hips where the CG sits. I put on cotton bike shorts underneath, taking Benadryl and he is changing my antibiotics, but incision all looked good. I was cleared to remove the rest of the gauze and just place a taped bandage with some antibiotic ointment over the drain sites and shower. I was so excited. However, after we got home and I emptied my drains and stripped them (cleared them), it created quite a bit of discomfort, so no shower just yet. I'll tackle that in the morning. I am feeling better this evening, but can't dare think about taking the CG when I'm in swell hell all evening. I'm thinking morning is going to be best to take it off, shower, and get it right back on before I blow up like a puffer fish.
For all of you ladies that have had a TT, when do you think your swelling peaked? I was thinking day 3, but day 4 has been right up there. I start off pretty good in the morning and by the evening, I"m a stuffed sausage!
Still quite a bit of numbness both from my tummy and under my breasts. I know that's normal, so not freaking out about it. I'm trying very hard not to freak out about things, but my anxiety gets the best of me at times and boom, a panic attack starts. They suck. I'm hoping that it is also because I am still not back on my hormones, hope to be soon, and when I get back on them, I'll even out and not be so crazy anymore.
So, when was the worst swelling for you?
I will take pics when I shower in the morning, incision looks nice and smooth.
Well, I'm day 7 today. Going in for a quick post...
- 18 Apr 2013
- 7 days post
It's only been 1 week, but I can already tell how much muscle I've lost. :-( The skin on my legs and arms looks saggy. I think I also could be drinking/eating more. I just haven't felt much like anything in particular, so I just snack on turkey meat, protein shake a day and some greek yogurt and stuff. It's not the best and I need to eat more. I'm already down lower than my pre-op weight and I wasn't using this as a weight loss period of time. I know I need my strength for recovery, so I'm going to start doing better today.
I'll let you know how drain removal goes and hopefully start posting some better pics. It's just hard to take good pictures with all my drains and things...
Happy Healing to all my RS friends!
I had a 1 week post op today. Removed the tape...
- 18 Apr 2013
- 7 days post
My appt was so fast, I forgot to mention that I'm still having some nerve stuff inside my right bicep and some tingling in fingers. I'm hoping its just nerves healing. I left a message after hours for them to all me about it so I don't forget again. Just want to know if there is anything special I should be doing to help it along. I did quite a bit today. Even went to the grocery store. Felt good to be dressed and out in the world. I really feel like I turned a corner today. Felt like I had much more energy. Now if I could get this nerve stuff handled, I wouldn't have so much to stress about since things are going well.
Anyone else have tingling and inside arm/armpit pain? It's more achy than sharp shooting pain. I'm thinking that it's just healing. Any ideas?
So, I have finally figured out what is going on...
- 20 Apr 2013
- 9 days post
I fell asleep on the sofa this evening and wham! It happened again. I woke up with my face on fire and pins and needles everywhere and that strange tensed up muscle thing (like restless leg syndrome) happened again too.
I am in perimenopause, or so my blood test said a couple of years ago and went on a low dose HRT. I went off of it prior to surgery to reduce DVT risk and went back on about 3 days ago. I would think going back ON HRT would keep this from happening.
I went online to read about hot flashes after surgery and it seems to be something that does happen.
My question is this: Is anyone else going through this too? If so, how long did it last? I am going to talk to my PS about it next week and I also send an email to my primary care too to see if I should retest my hormone levels to see if there is something we can pinpoint or increase my dosages or something. These episodes are absolutely crazy.
I was standing on the tile in the kitchen for a minute in socks and totally left a sweaty footprint on the floor! gross
The hot flash then kicks off a cycle of anxiety and I then have to take the next hour to come down from all of my anxiety driven irrational thought processes that happen during an anxiety attack. Oh joy, doesn't this sound like fun? NO!
Anything that anyone wants to share about this would be great. I would especially want to know how long they lasted.
Today was my second post-op. Everything went well....
- 23 Apr 2013
- 12 days post
I also had the remaining sutures in my belly button removed and can now start using scar therapy. They have me using a silicone scar treatment called biocorneum.
I still feel like my boobs are HUGE! I asked if it is was because i was swollen and he said "no." , well maybe 5% he said. So, I just have to wait and see how they are when they drop and soften up. It may be just because they are such a change from what was there. I hope they end up a little smaller...
Hope everyone is doing well!
So I had my post op as I stated earlier,...
- 23 Apr 2013
- 12 days post
I got a girdle type garment for the bottom and a super soft bra for the top. Now that I've taken off the garment, I notice that it was really digging into the bottom of my breasts. Not all the way into the crease where the incision is, but on the bottom of my breast. It's the only place on my entire body that hurts right now. I am thinking this is from the garment, but don't know if this is just a normal place that they hurt since the implants went under the muscle.
For you ladies with unders, where did you have the most discomfort?
I had most of it intially across my chest with tightness, but the muscles have relaxed and now its' the bottom of my breast only.
I freak out at the little things, so some input would be great. Thanks!
I'm two weeks post op tomorrow. Wow, how time...
- 24 Apr 2013
- 13 days post
So, I'm asking all of you ladies. Did you have this? How long did it last? Is there anything that you did that made it better?
Wow, what a difference a drain makes! I have felt...
- 25 Apr 2013
- 14 days post
Went on a walk this morning, took a shower, put on my scar cream and took some pics.
Hope you are all doing well...
Not much going on between weeks 2 and 3 other than...
- 2 May 2013
- 21 days post
It's hard to believe it's been 4 weeks! It's hard...
- 9 May 2013
- 28 days post
Arm update: I went through some crazy anxiety and panic over what was going on with my arm. I had bad numbness for several days immediately post op in both arms. Felt like I had been sleeping on them, but they weren't waking up. Left arm started coming back and was fine after a few days, right arm is only now feeling more normal. The forearm pain that was nonstop is really letting up. The numbness and tingling is much less and the burning in my armpit is really better. All in all, I'm feeling like I'm finally healing. I saw my primary care and she agreed that the brachial plexus was injured and that I also had a reaction to the anesthesia that caused my entire system to go crazy. I hope I don't have to have any general anesthesia again anytime soon. But if I do, I know now to let them know how I'm going to react and to keep my arms by my side and not outstretched. Don't want to go through that again!
Breasts are dropping and I've started doing massage. I only have one little area on the left that they want to have a little lower and then I think I'm on to underwire bras to keep everything up and perky. I know I still have upper pole fullness, but I kind of like it.
Tummy feels great. I'm completely mobile and only think about my tummy once in a while when leaning on the sofa or getting in and out of bed. Doesn't hurt, but I still try and be careful. No ab work until after 6 weeks, but I can't imagine doing it yet. Everything still feels tight, but I can't wait to see how the muscles will look once I start doing ab work again. Hello 6 pack!
I still have numbness under my breasts near the incision and on parts of my stomach under my belly button and in the bikini line area of my left leg. It's weird, but getting better. Worst part is having an itch sensation and scratching or rubbing and can't feel it because it's numb! Thankfully the itch sensation eventually goes away.
So, there is my update. Not much going on. But I really like to say that boring is good. I enjoy not having anything crazy going on. So, I am headed out for my morning walk. Going to tackle 5-6 miles of hills around my house today with my husband. 6 miles of walking will feel like 10 miles of running so it will be a great workout!
Have a great day!
5 weeks post op - Added new pics!
- 17 May 2013
- 1 month post
On a positive note, my incision looks good, my breasts are softening and dropping and all the weird sensitivity issues under and around my breasts seems to be getting much better.
So, I'm on nerve meds for a month and hopefully when I am done with that, I'll be good as new. Hope so. I guess I'm not off that roller coaster yet. Hopefully soon.
I also think the anesthesia really did a number on my system. I'm sensitive to meds and wonder if I just had too much medication for my system. I just don't feel quite right yet.
I'm able to get back out and exercise. Been walking like crazy. Try to do 4-5 miles a day and looking forward to being able to start running next week. However, the swinging of my arms when walking is not good as it seems to make my hands tingle even more, so I walk with one arm swinging and the other tucked in my waistband to give it some support.
I just want to be normal again...
I hope everyone is doing well. Sorry for the rant, just having those kinds of days lately...
Been MIA trying to decide what to do...
- 11 Jun 2013
- 2 months post
The tough part for me is that after 2 months, I am still having post op problems. I still have headaches, sore muscles, back pain, anxiety attacks, nerve pain in my arms and tingling in my fingers. The other, even bigger issue is that my breast just feel huge. I got 320 Sientra unders and have felt from day one that they were huge. I was trying really hard to feel more comfortable with them, but I know that I am just not going to love them for the long haul.
So, I've been deciding on either a full explant or a major downsize. I talked to my PS about it and we talked about my options. He won't touch me surgically until I am 3 months post op, so I have a couple more weeks to make the decision, then schedule my surgery for the three month mark.
When I went into this I never knew that over the last few months I would now have a team of doctors that I see constantly.
Therapist for anxiety
and many, many visits to my Surgeon
All of the girls in the office know everything about me as I do about them at this point. I am in there so much.
My surgery was beautiful, my breasts look gorgeous, they just aren't for me. I love how they look on others, but I need to get my life back. I find them heavy and hard to run with.
Physical Therapy is finally making some progress on correcting my now strained back and pectoralis minor muscles that actually clamped down on my brachial plexus nerves.
So, I am either going to downsize to 175cc or 200cc saline or take them out all together. I'd love to hear from anyone else who has downsized. Is it worth it? I'm also switching from silicone to saline, just to take any other possible complications off the table. I have a girlfriend struggling with some horrible auto immune symptoms that may or may not be from the implants, but she's having hers out. Since mine will be so small, my PS said I won't really be able to tell if they are saline or silicone, so if I do an exchange, I will just go to saline. It's cheaper too.
I feel so mad at myself. I really wish I had just left well enough alone. My body was so healthy and balanced and I have disrupted it completely.
Oh, I forgot to mention that I also ended up in the ER this weekend with horrible pains while breathing. Like everytime I took a deep breath, someone was stabbing me. Apparently, I have also developed costochondritis (sp?) an inflammation of the cartilage from the sternum to the ribs. ugh
So sorry for the long post, I just really needed to let it all out. My husband just doesn't know what to say or do about it. He is just really tired of hearing about my boobs. He thinks they look great and I should just leave them alone.
I felt awful telling my surgeon that I wasn't happy. He did such a beautiful job. I do keep telling him that I love my flat tummy!!
So, if anyone has any input, I'd love to hear it. I do know for sure that I'm not leaving them as they are. So, explant or exchange... that's the question...
Decided to just be done with this and move on. Scheduling explant asap.
- 24 Jun 2013
- 2 months post
I feel bad about telling my PS because he did such a beautiful job, they just aren't for me. I'll be meeting with him tomorrow to schedule. Thank you for all the support on this board and I will be updating with my MM progress. My tummy tuck is healing nicely is feeling great. Who knew a TT would be so much easier than a BA!!
- 25 Jun 2013
- 2 months post
Belly numbness at almost 4 months
- 6 Aug 2013
- 4 months post
I've been healing from my explant, which I had 3 weeks ago. Healing is going fine, but I will be left with permanent muscle damage that is leaving quite a deformity when I flex at all. It's upsetting, and I hope it gets better. I feel much better without the implants though. They just weren't for me.
My tummy tuck is doing great. No problems except an occasional twinge or tweak. I haven't really started doing a lot of ab work yet. It's still a little tough to do. I am going to start up with some yoga soon and after some stretching and limbering up, will start working these abs so I can show off the six pack that has been hiding under here all this time. (well, it's flabby now since I haven't worked abs in 4 months!)
Anyway, the only thing that still really bothers me with the TT is the numbness. I knew this would be a long road, but was hoping to be further along getting sensation back. I had no way of knowing how it would feel being numb all the time, it's weird. I find it really strange feeling when I am holding something and it is resting on my tummy. I can feel it because of the muscle sensation, but the skin just feels thick. I am sure many of you are having the same thing.
I wanted a way to better track my progress from here. I have had quite a bit of sensation return, but the center is still completely numb as well as along most of the incision and in my left leg/bikini line area. I have some numbness over mons pubis too which I think is from the lipo he did there.
I took a pic so in a couple of months, I can see if the area has shrunk down. I used tweezers to prick my skin to feel the sensation and at each area that i no longer felt it I put a dot. I connected the dots and you can see the area in the pics.
So, I'll up date again in a few weeks as to how the numbness is going as well as getting back to ab work.
I did lots of research with reading reviews and profiles, etc. I did not do a bunch of consultations as I really felt that when I met the right surgeon, I would know it and meeting a bunch of doctors would only confuse me. I met Dr. Mabourakh and stopped there. His staff has been amazing and available to answer any questions I've had to date.