3 Days PO, Waiting to Make a Judgment - FL

I've always had very small breasts, and after I lost 70 lbs 2 years ago, they were not only very small, but also deflated looking. It didn't really begin to bother me until I would go bathing suit shopping. I was so proud of my new, fit body and so desperately wanted to finally go to the beach with confidence, and instead I struggled to find swimsuits that fit my miniature upper half. I'm 5'2", 125 lbs, and at the time was not even filling an A cup.

I spent weeks on the internet, reading reviews, scouring before and afters, and looking at various doctors' credentials. I finally narrowed it down to my top 3, and made a consultation appt with 1 (Dr. Brian Joseph.) After my consultation, I was sold. I knew I didn't need to look any further. Dr. Joseph was very knowledgeable about my chest wall abnormalities due to severe scoliosis that I had corrected in middle school, and he made me feel very comfortable. All that was left to do was come up with the funds.

I saved up the money, and made my appointment for May 22nd. At my preop, Dr. Joseph's nurse made me feel great about my choice and helped me to choose 450 cc silicone implants. The morning of the surgery, I was feeling a little less sure, and told Dr. Joseph that I was worried about being too big, so he said he'd use some sizers once we were in the surgery and go smaller if it looked close to what I wanted. I ended up with 405 cc's in the left and 435 in the right.

Today I'm 3 days PO. I've had minimal pain in my breasts; the majority of my pain has been in my back because I'm a stomach sleeper and I'm having a hard time adjusting to the new sleep position. The most discomfort I've had was the constipation from the anesthesia. I would've traded more pain in my chest to have not experienced that! The past 2 days I've only been taking the Loritabs at night to help me sleep and haven't taken any during the day.

I'm trying very hard to reserve judgment on the appearance of my breasts. I know they take a while to "drop and fluff" and they will look very different in a few weeks than they do right now. However, right now they are so high and tight and far apart and weird looking that it's very hard to not be nervous that I'm not going to like them. But for now I try and keep myself calm and reassure myself that I will like them more than what I had before!

Cried today after going to the mall to buy oversized shirts to cover these things. I'm desperately trying to reassure myself that they won't look this way in a few weeks but this is so far removed from how I thought I'd be feeling. My left breast feels sooo much bigger than the right, they feel like they're right under my collarbones and I feel like I look like a linebacker. Hoping this is just an emotional side effect of plastic surgery and passes soon.