27 y/o twin mummy's marvellous makeover! :)

So I had my appointment at the surgery on Monday, and turns out I had a hematoma in my left breast. Basically it was filled with blood with a risk of infection. So he tried to get me into theater that night but I had to wait until yesterday morning. It had swollen tremendously, and was all bruised. He took out the implant, washed it and put it back in. I'm also on a course of strong antibiotics. It looks so much better now! My surgeon was brilliant and very thorough. I had the operation at 9am but felt fine by late afternoon just slightly sore so got to go home at 6pm :) I also posted a question on Real Self regarding my Symmastia fears and the doctors think it's not that so that calmed me down slightly! I think it's so great that we are given the opportunity to ask doctors these questions on here! Obviously I trust my surgeon but I think it's reassuring to get alternative opinions from surgeons who are specialized in that particular area.

Anyway, I'm feeling a lot more positive, less sore in the stomach and just generally more able to do things. I'm 95% standing up fully! I still have a terrible chesty cough but hopefully the antibiotics will help with that also :) So although the hematoma surgery was a setback and I was initially upset (crying in the surgery appointment - not my finest moment!), I am so very thankful to have a great surgeon who took care of it straight away, and that I now feel better for having it sorted.

So I am at 16 days would you believe! I spent today feeling extremely angry at myself for still feeling run down and swollen. I just want to do things and get back to normal but I know it's still early days. I cried a little bit and just feel very depressed - partly because I've spent all of this money on something I've dreamed of for years and the outcome is not what I had hoped so far. My cleavage is pretty awful, with my left breast being bruised and tender with swelling increasing (you can't really see this in the pics). Also, the extremely raised skin on my sternum is unfortunately not going down and if anything is getting worse - possibly because of the swelling in my left breast. I'm a person who always likes to know the end of a book or movie before I watch/read it, I like to know how things are going to turn out and it's a shame life isn't like that sometimes. I'm mentally torturing myself because I can't possibly know the outcome of this at this early stage! I can't afford a revision, and my only hope would be to get this revised free of charge should it need to be. I'm paranoid this could be symmastia but my PS just thinks it swelling so I'm trying to trust him but it's difficult. I said today "why did I do this?!", but then I looked at my before photos and I remembered why.

I had an appointment at the surgery yesterday, and it was lucky I did because the night before there was leakage coming from my stomach incision - only a little but it scared the hell out of me. Turns out it was a bit of scabbing that had came off so I got some new dressings and was sent on my way. I can't shower until after tomorrow though as I have a follow up appointment and she wants it to dry out. I've been slathering on the Vicks VapoRub these past couple of days because I have a cold and cough. So since I can't shower I'm going to knock the staff out when I go in with my menthol aroma!

I managed to go out for lunch after the surgery, which was my first outing since the op - was nice apart from I'm still stooping slightly so my back hurts. Stomach is still tight when I stand.

Praying for a good follow up appointment tomorrow and a good week :)

So it's now 12 days post op - can't believe it's been nearly two weeks since the surgery.

Recovery wise, I am feeling ok. I can move much better than I did before, each day is a slight improvement. I had my doctor's check up on Monday, and I expressed my concerns about possible symmastia between my breasts - as the skin has raised up completely and is so swollen! Unfortunately, my breasts are like watermelons at the moment and I'm praying to god that they don't stay like that! I'm trying not to worry about all the things that could be wrong, and just give my body time to heal.

My stomach is ok also, the incisions are doing fine however I have accumulated a lot of fluid in my stomach and it has to be drained when I go in for my follow up appointment on Monday - the joys! This is something that will clear up on its own but will take some time - so looks like I will be making weekly pilgrimages to the surgery for the foreseeable future.

So there we have it - each day gets better but I wish I didn't have these little set backs because they just extend the recovery period.

I've also been feeling extremely low these past couple of days just out of sheer frustration that I am unable to help around the house much and can't play with the boys properly. I also still can't stand up straight fully and have some pain in my back! It's tough going! I hope I will look back at these posts in a few months and everything will be fine and chastise myself for being such a worrier! :)