25 And Tired of Looking Like This. Dallas, TX

So my consultation is scheduled for Wednesday and I get to go meet with the doctor and find out more information. I am 25 I'll be 26 in a week and a half and I have had a problem with weight fluctuation since I was 13. After doing a lot of research on fat cells etc and learning that they quantity never leaves it the cells just shrink and finding out the only way to fix this is through lipo I began looking into it. After some rigorous online searches I've decided to meet with Dr. Weidel. Thankfully I have at bare minimum the support of a family member to get through this because most of my friends think it's silly. It took me a year to finally make the decision to do it and now that I have I'm not turning back. I do intend on joining a weight loss clinic as well as soon as I can be active again after the surgery. From everything I have read on here I would just love to have a support group. My aunt has actually been pushing me to do this for years so I have her but one person who hasn't done it isn't always enough. I am nervous about the pain but I think I can take it. I'm pretty much ready to whatever it takes to get where I want to be anyways. I want to actually look in the mirror and smile again. These days I avoid the mirror and try not to let people take pictures of anything but my face because I don't want to face the reality of how I look and I hate feeling like this! I will post updates about the entire process for anyone who might want to follow to get an idea. I'll even try to go a little in depth with my feelings as well so that anyone thinking of this procedure can know everything that goes on throughout. I'll post my pre-op pictures soon just wanted to get this started now while I'm thinking about it. I have never had any kind of surgery what so ever so I am a little bit on the nervous side about it.

So for anyone who is following me through this journey I thank you now for your support and your attentions, because I am scared but also resolute.