June 15th Surgery - Tummy Tuck, Breast Aug with Implants - Chicago, IL

I am mommy of an 11 year old boy that has been wanting a mommy makeover since the day he was born. (LOL) Going through a drastic body change was very hard. I gained 75lbs with my pregnancy and only lost 20lbs with in the first year. I also have horrible stretch marks (aka. tiger scratches named by my son) that are all over (the only place they aren't are on my face. haha). Throughout the years I have gone up and down on the scale. No matter how much excersise I do my breasts and tummy still sag. I've talked about getting surgery done to fix all of this but never did take it seriously (saying it's too much money, not enough time, etc...) So I told myself that once I get down to my goal weight I am going to do it!! I am currently 5'4 152lbs and past my goal weight! Finally loosing all the weight I put on and then some feels great. I've been working out 3-4 days a week and actually loving it! I have a personal trainer to help me loose a little more weight before my surgeries. Plus he is going to work with me after I am cleared to start up again. I feel I have everything set in place. Finding this website with other mommy makeover potentials/alumni is the icing on my journey! I can't wait to learn from all of you and share my story. I loved the 10 Things I wish I knew... and have read some others stories. It makes me more excited everyday. I also love how people post their before, during and after photos. It helps when you can see results. Wondering if I should post my befores now or wait till I have afters to compare too? Not sure if people are interested in seeing the hot mess with out the beautiful repaired mess?

So I am 24 days closer to my PS and I am starting to feel anxious. I'm having some fears of what the outcome may be and if I am going to like it or not. My family and friends know about my surgery and all have said how excited they are to see me after and how beautiful I am going to look. For some reason I'm nervous that they all have this vision of me and it's not going to turn out the way I am invisioning. I am not doing this for anyone else but myself but I just don't understand why I'm having these feelings now? I've never wanted anything more than this in my life. I've saved and worked hard towards being healthy. I am finally there and all ready but now I'm scared. Anyone else have "cold feet"?

OK!!!! So my pictures are up! Yikes!!! The more I stare at them the more I say "ehhh" haha. It helps ease the anxious feeling I have for them. Although I know how much looking at other peoples photos have helped me I hope maybe mine could help someone else out too. I've always tried looking for other women whos body kinda matched mine but I haven't seen any out there :( So, I have 19 more days.. My pre op is scheduled for next Tuesday the 31st. Then we will be going over implant size, photos and pay my dues... I can't believe I'm forking over that much money but I tell myself all the time that I deserve it. It's been along time coming and its finally almost here :) I'm hoping some of this anxiety goes away. Maybe after my preop appointment some of it will subside. My PS has a way of calming my nerves. He's very informative about everything so lets hope so.